I am 40 years old, I have been divorced for two and a half years and in all that time I have not had any relationships with men. I have a daughter from my marriage. My ex-husband, after 10 years of marriage, found a younger woman.
A man (50 years old) met me at work. On our first date we had sex. And so has lasted every day for 3.5 months. And everything would be okay, but he drinks two bottles of beer every day, and then writes to former women that he loves them and wants to return. I express my displeasure and we fight horribly and say bad words to each other. And then there’s still sex.
But in the last two weeks he hasn’t been home for two nights already, but he swears by his kids that he’s not cheating and he hasn’t cheated. And he’s also often out of work all the time on some important business all these months.
How can I believe him? He says every day that he loves me, that everything will be fine with us. But I am jealous, and I suffer a lot. I love him, why he does this to me, I do not understand. He says that I am homely, and he is outgoing and pushy. I read his correspondence. He talks to his ex-girlfriends, he meets them, he’s always helping them with something.
Maybe I am stupid and gullible after all. How do I stop loving this womanizer. But he swears that no, he is good. How can I trust him, how can I be sure?
And in social networks, he is single, and there is not a single photo with me, and does not want to put it up. He says that no one will communicate with him if they know that I am. He does not sleep with them, he is only friends.
I am writing and I am disgusted with myself, but I live and love him.
