I have wanted a family for a long time. I am 33 years old and I still have not found my soul mate. Five years ago, when I got another rejection, I decided that I would not dwell on it, went to work, signed up for language courses, while collecting money for an apartment.
And then I realized that perhaps it was not in vain that I did not meet anyone, when I am busy, I am happy. I bought an apartment, now I am saving up for another one and I am not going to stop, over the years I have learned three languages and thanks to this I am well on my way to work. When I come home I cook all sorts of interesting dishes for myself, when I lived with my mother I couldn’t stand cooking, and now it’s my hobby. I go to the gym, take care of my health, and every year I realize that all that my mother, grandmothers, aunts told me that I would not be able to live without a woman, it’s all just speculation, I proved to myself that I can live and myself, and I enjoy it.
Between the ages of 20 and 25, I dreamed of having a family, I wanted to have children. Now I realize that I burned out, and I don’t need all that, or I indoctrinated it into myself. The whole problem is that my parents are worried and constantly fight with me about living alone. They want me to be happy, but I am happy as it is, I have a home, a job I love, a chameleon waiting for me at home, but everyone seems to think there is something wrong with me, since I am single at my age and have no children and don’t want them.
I feel sorry for my mom, she’s constantly very nervous for me, but I don’t want to get married for the sake of my mom being calm and me being miserable. Arguments that this is my life, and I want to live it the way I want to live it, does not help.
What’s the problem with our society, everyone is so fixated on starting a family. I even feel like my parents are embarrassed that I am not married, other relatives laugh because I am a loser for not starting a family, and themselves with a family and living on the job.
