I was looking forward to my vacation, but I always remembered that a holiday romance has a beginning and an end. But I couldn’t resist. A gentle sea, a gentle, swarthy handsome man…
Ten days passed unnoticed. I arrived tanned, rested and happy. Upon returning home I was a little sad, but I don’t regret anything. I went back to my favorite job and took care of my daughter at the same time. We went shopping, we lived our lives as usual. I missed my little girl so much, who was vacationing in the country at her relatives’ house with my parents.
Apparently it was meant to be, and a month after returning home I realized I was pregnant. This was not in my plans. I decided to consult my mother about it. She recommended that I keep the baby and offered to help me raise her. I divorced my husband three years ago and am raising my daughter alone. But my daughter’s father and his parents help us and do not abandon the child. My parents are 50 years old, they work and also support me.
I don’t know what to do? Is it okay to have a baby with a stranger? I know practically nothing about him? He said he wasn’t married. What difference does that make? Can’t I find this man and tell him I’m pregnant? No, I’m not counting on his help. I’m not going to impose my view of what’s going on. The first thing I’m going to do is tell him he’s having a baby. My mother is against it. She said we’ll raise it ourselves and we don’t have to look for anyone. My mom always wanted a second child, but I’m the only one they have.
If I have my second child, my daughter will not be bored. And I will always know that she has another family member besides her mom and dad. I always wanted a brother, too, but my wish never came true. And at the same time, I’m 32 years old. It would be different if I had a husband, then it would be easier to make this decision. I want to live for myself as well. I have a great job, a friendly team, a great position. I like to travel, go to nightclubs. I like to dress fashionably, to be always surrounded by people, nice men. And with two children, I think I won’t have time for myself.
But I understand that I do not have time to think and speculate whether I need a second child. But to take on such responsibility, too, I am not ready.
How to act in such a difficult situation? I am confused and can not make a right decision. I would be grateful for any sound advice, but let’s not have these “should have thought before” or “so many years of life, and how to protect not know. I feel bad enough.
