I am 35 years old and I am expecting a child in my marriage. This is my first child. We’ve only been married four months. We dated for two years.
I write very dry and uninteresting and my condition is similar to my handwriting. I married for love, but something does not add up in my puzzle. My whole life consists of work and everyday life, my husband’s neglect. On weekends he drinks, I do not drink at all and of course we have different values.
My dad lost his job (a very big job, he worked 45 years) and now he drinks. I am very worried about my father. My husband, instead of supporting me, can get up and leave or go away. And recently we had an argument and he punched me in the stomach on purpose, he was drunk. Scared himself, then told me not to take him out.
I understand everything, I’m not stupid, but I don’t know what to do. I am not satisfied with such an attitude and such a “happy” life and I am afraid to be alone with my child. I work, I have my own business and we decided that I would work on maternity leave.
Mentally, it’s kind of hard. And thoughts are confusing, but life is such that it brings no joy.
