I want to tell my life story and listen to the opinions of the readers of the site.
I am 19 years old, I am in my third year at university, I have a dorm and a job, everything is like everyone else. Sufficient number of acquaintances, active in creative activities. I have never been in a relationship, but always wanted to.
That year I came to a new company and met a boy. I liked him very much at once – modest, clever, says only business and wise things, plays a musical instrument (me too and therefore it is important to me) and I liked his appearance very much. At once I thought how we were alike, even in our outlook on life.
We began to cross paths a lot in companies, I see that too he liked, but he is such a quiet man, well, not that shy, active speaker and communicates with friends, but it is clear that for him it is worth a lot to talk or approach. I myself am the same way, through force and very rarely can do the action. But this guy is so stuck to my soul, I think about him all the time. We went on student hikes together, sat around a campfire, he played guitar and I sang and we were very good, we went to movie nights and often crossed paths with each other, he always had a big smile on his face after that.
He plays “Stand Up”, and I tried not to miss a single round, I even took off work to come and support his work. That was it. No movement. Once, however, after a meeting in the evening at the same company, when we were about to leave and we were alone in the checkroom, he came up and said: “Can I give you a hug?” I was so happy then. He gave me a big, tight hug, then he said goodbye and went home.
Now the questions are:
Is it worth it?
Do I still have to wait for him (for the second year)?
Is it possible that I’m just winding myself up, and I wish it were?
I think myself that I am just very tired of being alone and I want warmth, and in this guy I see everything that is in me, I feel a kindred spirit.
Thank you for reading, I really look forward to your advice. Good luck to all.