I’ve never in my life been interested in stories from the Internet at all. But as it happened, I had to look for support on this site.
Three months ago I found out that my husband was visiting p0rn sites. At first I thought it was three months, but when I opened the browser history on his old phone, I found that it had been going on for three years.
The thing is, we live in the countryside and we have low internet speeds, so we have only recently mastered gadgets. And I, to my great regret, had no idea about browser history as such. My husband probably did not either, so he did not clean it up. And what I found out is just horrible. He has been watching different adult videos almost every day for three years at any free time, in my absence, even when he is at work.
I am a housewife, younger than him by 4 years, I am 34, pretty, I try to take care of myself, at home I always wear light makeup, styling, my figure is attractive enough (I have a belly, I struggle). I do everything around the house – and carry water, and shovel snow, and cook pretty good, I study at the pedagogical college.
But now everything, my life has collapsed, I feel cheated, my self-esteem has fallen. I think, divorce or forgive, I try, but I can’t forgive. He swears he won’t do it again, but of course I don’t believe him anymore. How did he look me in the eye? In the eyes of our child?
