I turned 27 years old and on my birthday I had no joy at all.
I already want to meet my man and get into a relationship, I don’t even know how it is to be in a serious relationship. I constantly wonder what is wrong with me. I’m not trying to find happiness in a relationship, and I’m under no illusions that my life will become rosy and all problems will be solved with a bang, no, I realize that relationships are also a struggle. I look around, one by one girlfriends meet their man, get married, I am alone as if not of this world. I do not consider myself to be an empty shell, I have a job with a perspective, I provide myself financially, I go in for sports, I have hobbies, hobbies, everything. About appearance too, do not forget, well-groomed. My manners and upbringing do not seem to be lame.
Although I am glad that I have not entered into a relationship or marriage, somewhere at an early age, under 25, for I have spent the last 2 years greatly transformed psychologically and changed my views on much, and the man that I would choose at that level, now 100% would have left me. But at a more mature age, I expect to meet a man, and I don’t understand what the problem is. As popular and pathological as it may sound nowadays, but I also deal with my psychotraumas, clean up deep inner conflicts, work with a psychologist, so from this point of view it seems that nothing should prevent building a relationship (although, it is a long process, and I am not the most conscious person yet). I’m not trying to seem right, I’m doing it because it’s interesting.
If at 22 I still believed that “everything is ahead of me, what are my years,” then at 27 this confidence is slowly but surely fading. There is also the attitude that decent men do not stay long in the bachelor, and the older, the harder to meet a normal.
Do you believe in fate? Is it possible that a person is just not destined to be in a relationship, and he is doomed to be a loner?
I understand self-sufficiency and all that, the world doesn’t revolve around men and I agree with that, but I think every girl will understand that there is a need for a healthy relationship, no matter how good I feel about myself. Sometimes it hurts to tears to think what I have done in the past or in this life, what I have sinned with, that I was not given the chance to know the happiness of a personal relationship.
I have also heard that love comes when you do not expect it, but it does not work, because I do not think about it every day, there are times when I do not care about them at all.
I have also heard about the techniques of wishing and visualization, and I have tried them all to no avail. It is as if fate itself does not want this particular area of my life to get better.
