I am going to touch on the subject of unrequited love. It has been bothering me a lot lately, and I would like to share my experience with you.
Unrequited love is a very hard feeling that I wouldn’t want anyone to experience. It is a completely unexplainable feeling and it is beyond perception.
For the first year I didn’t dare declare my love to him at all. I thought that I would somehow hint to him and he would understand, but as he is an adult (he is 45 years old and I am 20) the age difference is too big, it is possible that he did not understand some hints and I still postponed this idea of confession the whole year.
Of course, I am not the kind of person who cannot confess, adheres to principles, I am ready to do a lot for the sake of love. In the end, the next year I wrote him a letter, gave it to him, and he turned me down. I suffered and suffered madly, then the summer came, and I didn’t see him for two months. I thought I was forgetting him, but my reasoning on that was wrong.
I hadn’t forgotten him. When you don’t see the person, it’s easier to forget. Naturally, he was always in my thoughts, I thought a lot, dreamed and scrolled through my head plots that here if we were together, how we would spend time, walk, have fun, but time went by, and he did not fly out of my mind. So I didn’t know what to do. On the one hand love is a wonderful feeling, which people enjoy and live with happiness in life, have children. But I had no such thing, so I decided to switch over to myself. I started spending more time on my self-development, my body, my soul, reading books, going in for sports, because life goes on and you should never get locked up with one person. No matter how dear he was.
After another year I became very beautiful, trim and men turned their heads on the streets, in buses, in the yard. I was pleased and very flattered by their attention, but my thoughts of him didn’t go anywhere. Even if I have a son, I want to name him and have him as my favorite man.
Maybe it’s more like crazy, but it’s easier for me, I’m sure many women will understand me correctly.
