I am a doctor and I am 25 years old. I am the most responsible person for my family, I have achieved everything on my own, I have never caused any problems, I have only helped myself. In fact, everything is not so rosy.
I have been sexually active since I was 18, I had 14 partners. At the age of 23 I was drinking heavily for a year and then got pregnant and had an abortion. At the age of 24 I got addicted to drugs and I quit that habit only two months ago.
And now I’m 25 years old. I have no relationships, no warm relationships with my family (they only call me when they need something), no family of their own. Just me and my job. Yes, well paid and loved. But the house is so empty you can hear the wind howling.
That would be all right, but right now my life can be described like this:
There’s a young man who gives me money (even though I don’t need it), we don’t sleep, we don’t see each other, and we don’t even seem to correspond very often. Just takes care of me when I want him to.
I live alone far from my family in another city and work in the red zone, saving lives and seeing dozens of deaths from coronavirus every single day.
I have a girlfriend who is 18 years old and we are sleeping together. No, I’m not a lesbian and never have been, I’ve never been attracted to girls.
I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. Why is everything upside down and not like people?
