Oh, Julia, if youve got money with nowhere to put it, youd better help your brother. Its madness! Twelve thousand pounds for his rent! snapped Margaret, her voice a razor.
Julia set her glass down on the kitchen table, her lips pressed tight. The relatives were pressing on her so hard that she could feel nothing left to enjoyno birthday celebration, no conversation.
Margaret, stop squeezing the girl dry, Victor tried to intervene. Are we celebrating anything today?
Oh, were celebrating, the mother sneered. And then my grandchildren will be shoved back into that filthy council flat with the drunken neighbours, while I keep praying nothing terrible happens to them. If you, Julia, gave that twelvethousand pounds to Ian, he could afford a proper flat, not a cramped room! Your cats could survive on simple food and a cup of tea.
Mum, Julia protested, her voice tight, I took those cats in because I wanted to. Im responsible for them. And Ian is a grown man, thirtyfive now. He should be responsible for himself and any family he deliberately starts.
Ian, the grown man, twisted his mouth in displeasure, slumped back on the sofa and turned his back with a theatrical flourish.
And your family too! Margaret shouted, her tone rising. Your brother, your nephews! As for cats on the street, take any you like. We fed ours porridge and tinned fish all our lives and they turned out fine. You treat yours like children! Fine, you dont want to have kids of your own. Want to waste away alone in old age? Be my guest. But you cant keep pampering your pets when your real nephews only get sweets on special occasions!
Julias patience snapped. Years of neglect, belittlement, the constant devaluation of her feelings exploded, tears streaming down her cheeks.
Cats are better than family, she blurted. They love me for no reason, ask for nothing. And theyll never blame me for wanting my own life.
She could take no more. Turning on her heel, Julia fled to the bedroom and slammed the door with a force that rattled the frames.
Well see how they love you when you stop buying them all those trinkets! Margaret shouted after her. The worlds turned upside down. Some cats are dearer than parents now
Margarets wails continued, but Julia tried to block them out. She collapsed onto the bed, burying her head under the pillow, drowning out the accusations. Her brother simply brushed her aside like a piece of artillery, slipping behind her skirt as he always had.
Julias childhood memories were hazy, as if someone had smeared the painful edges. She did remember her fifth birthday, when Margaret baked a raspberry cake because Ian had demanded it, even though Julia had begged for chocolate with candles.
To my dearest man, the biggest slice! Margaret beamed, then looked at Julia with a wan smile. Youll have a smaller piece. Girls need to watch their figures from an early age.
It seemed innocent, but Ian always got the best toys, trips, presents, and most of all, attention. Margaret gazed at him with admiration, hope, a soft awe. Julia felt like an afterthought, a footnote attached to her brother.
Victor, a traditionalist, would sigh at such moments, rarely interjecting. He believed a womans place was with the children and a mans with work.
As Julia grew older she spent most summers at the cottage with Margaret. Ian, meanwhile, roamed the town with his mates, claiming a headache whenever Margaret asked for helpa request that was rare indeed. Julias excuse of the girl must help around the house while Ian does mens business never passed.
Sometimes Victor tried, too late, to meddle in the upbringing, but the moment had already slipped away.
Julia, are you trying to raise a domestic cripple? he whispered to his wife once, alone. Stop coddling him! A proper man should be able to wash his own socks, make his bed, and cook at least for himself.
And what? I dont see you doing any of that, Margaret retorted. Let the lad live peacefully while hes with us. Hell have time to get a proper job later.
And then? He wont learn a thing by a snap of the fingers!
Then his wife will have to teach him.
If she refuses to treat a grown man like a child, what then?
Then we dont need her. Well find a normal one.
The normal one appeared far too quickly. Julia wasnt even sixteen when Ian brought home a girl with wide, naïve eyes. At first she stayed for evenings, then nights, and finally moved in for good.
Julia learned of the permanent arrangement only when Margaret sat her down.
Darling, dont take offense, Margaret began without preamble, but young people need space. Youll move into Ians room, and hell move in with Amelia.
The proposal shattered Julia. Her room, her sanctuary, her books and postersall were to be taken away. Ians room was spacious but shared, leaving no room for privacy.
Mum, thats my room. Im used to it
Technically it isnt yours; its ours, yours and dads, in the flat we share with Ian. Youre just borrowing it temporarily. And stop making a drama of it. Theres a bed, a deskwhat more do you want?
Julia was speechless for a few seconds. From the outside it might have seemed reasonable, but the words told her she owned nothing there. Her chance for solitude was slipping away too.
Julia, dont touch the child, Victor intervened. Let the young ones live how they will, or leave if theyre unhappy. Theyll save up for a flat faster.
You want our son out of the house to sleep on the streets?! Margaret exploded. And what if something happens to him? I wont forgive you!
Margaret painted the bleakest scenarios, and Victor soon yielded to her pressure. That day Julia finally shifted her belongings to another room.
Just as she feared, her personal life vanished. Ian mocked her posters, Margaret tried to peek at her online chats, and Amelia, the new sisterinlaw, pilfered her cosmetics without asking. Conflict was constant, and Julia always bore the blame. She felt like an extra piece of furniture in a home that never had a place for her.
Soon Julia fled to her grandmothers house. The old woman was blind in one eye and shuffled slowly, but caring for her felt better than being a voiceless ornament in a house that never welcomed her.
Grandma had been a veterinarian until retirement, loved animals, and always carried a bit of feed on her walks, never letting anyone inside her home.
I dont want them to grow attached to me, she would say. And I dont want to get attached. I cant even afford my own meds, let alone care for animals. If you take one in, you must feed, treat, and love it, or dont take it at all.
They lived together for almost ten years, side by side. While looking after Grandma, Julia studied and worked, discovering she too wanted to be a vet.
When Grandma passed, her flat went to Julia. It should have been a fresh start, but loneliness gnawed at her. Friends were busy with their own families. She craved someone to hold, someone to share a life with. The word family now meant trouble and disappointment. Animals were a different story. She had two cats: Milo, who had been rescued after a failed euthanasia because he couldnt stand on his hind legs as a kitten, and Ginger, who joined a year later when Milo grew bored alone.
Their health was fragile. Milos kidneys failed; Gingers stomach was weak. Vet food was pricey, but Julia shouldered the cost. Their affection made the expense feel trivial.
Ian, however, saw things differently.
One day he lugged a rat over to her flat. The kids wanted a pet; a hamster was too pricey, a rat seemed cheap. No one thought about proper care, and the animal fell ill. While Julia was trying to explain that a cage should be three times the size of the rat, a delivery man arrived with cat food.
Thatll be twelvehundred and sixtyseven pounds, he said, unloading the bags.
Ian raised an eyebrow. As soon as the courier left, he muttered,
Twelve hundred? Thats a third of my salary. Did they stuff gold in those bags?
Ian never saved enough for a flat. After his first child was born, he moved with his family into a cramped council room, where a second son soon followed.
Its veterinary food, Julia replied calmly. And its on discount.
Ian shook his head but didnt press the issue further. The next tragedy hit on Julias birthday.
She lay alone in the quiet, the relatives gone, and, truth be told, she felt a small relief. Shed never wanted to spend the day with them, but defying tradition was never easy.
Milo sensed her mood, nudged his wet nose against her cheek, and began to purr. Ginger trotted over, licking the clenched fists shed made into fists. Their soft vibrations eased the tension, a wordless support Julia never found in her family.
The phone rang. Victors voice came, weary.
Julia, Im sorry its come to this he said. I dont get the whole cat thing, but I wont reach into your purse. Theyre not right.
His words were a thin bandage over a bruised wound. He didnt condemn her, nor did he side with Margaret. Perhaps, if hed been a bit more present, none of this would have happened. Still, Julia was grateful for his effort.
Later, another call. Katie, her best friend, burst through the silence.
Happy birthday, love! How are you? Howd you celebrate?
Julia managed a weak, Thanks, its fine. Katie knew her well enough to read between the lines.
Dont stay a wreck. Ill be there in an hour, she promised, and hung up before any protest could surface.
An hour later the flat erupted. Milo and Ginger bolted under the bed in terror as Katie, her husband Andrew, and two other friends stormed in, shouting Happy Birthday! carrying pizza boxes, wine bottles, and, the pièce de résistance, a massive multilevel cat tree.
For your furry lads, so they dont get bored, Katie declared.
The evening turned into a chaotic, joyous blur. Laughter, embraces, ridiculous toaststhis felt more real than any family gathering. The guests accepted Julia as she was, unlike her blood relatives. They stayed past midnight, and Katie lingered to help clean up.
How do you feel? Released? she asked quietly.
Julia smiled despite herself.
Yes. Thank you. Youre the best.
Milo curled up on a cushion beneath the table, Ginger claimed a chair. The new cat tree towered in the living room. Katie, who had to work the next day, washed dishes beside her.
In that moment Julia realised family could be important, but only if you were lucky enough to have a good one. She hadnt been. And that was fine. Because if the family youre born into fails you, you can always build one yourselffrom the creatures that purr at your ear when you cry, from the friends who burst into your home at midnight knowing youre hurting. A family forged in love, not duty or guilt, will be stronger than any blood tie.












