I’m not married, although I’ve been married for 30 years. I have my own apartment, and a good job. I have been in a relationship with a married man for two years. The thing is, I don’t want to get married. I am completely satisfied with my lifestyle, and I have no plans to change anything.
All these two years I was satisfied with the status of a mistress. I have good gifts, privacy and no obligations. Apparently this is what suited my lover. We met periodically, had a good time and parted without complaint. But it just so happened that recently I accidentally got pregnant. Someone will say, how is it by chance? But really accidentally, I always protect myself. Apparently, this time, something didn’t work. It was absolutely not in my plans, so it came as a surprise to me. And children were not part of my plans for the next five years. And again, coincidentally, I was having a financial crisis right at that moment.
I told my man about it, and what was my surprise when I got the response, “It’s not my baby, do what you want. Obviously, because of our relationship, I didn’t try to find out how decent the man was. I just didn’t think I would ever have to deal with his decency. And because I made it clear that I didn’t want a child. I mean, all I had to do was help me with the money for the abortion. And no one would have a problem. But he stubbornly, and does not want to help. Well, now what to do? Give birth to him out of spite, do a DNA test and make him pay child support? But I’m not really ready to have kids. Well, what kind of mother am I?
I’m selfish, I love myself, and I only do things for myself. I still want to go out. Or should I go to his wife and tell her everything? I know where he lives. Like I knew it would come in handy. On the other hand I just feel sorry for the woman, it’s not her fault. She lives as an ordinary housewife, she thinks her husband is good for her and for the children, and here I am with this news. I just feel sorry for her in human terms.
Judging by my confession, it gives the impression that I am completely insane and without conscience. But I’m not. I just live my life for my own pleasure, but I don’t hurt anyone. No one suffers from me. It’s just that I am not alone in my situation, and I need basic help. He, too, as a man, should be able to take responsibility for his actions. I am not asking him to leave the family and marry me. On the contrary, I found a way out that can satisfy everyone and I just need help.
But since this is the turnaround, I’m willing to step back from my principles, but to prove my point. Just because I’m a mistress doesn’t mean I have to behave that way with everyone. For two years, I haven’t had another man. And I’m sure I can prove it. Only then he won’t be able to get away with it.
What should I do? Punish my lover or solve the problem and forget everything as a bad dream?
