Who slept on my bed and crumpled the sheets A Reminiscence.
My husbands mistress was only a little older than our daughterround, childish cheeks, innocent eyes, and a nose piercing (when our own daughter wanted one, David was furious and would never allow it). It was impossible to feel any real anger toward someone so young. I looked at her blue-tinged bare legs and the short jacket and almost said something sarcastic: If youre planning to bear children for that fool, buy a proper parka and wear tights under your jeans. But, of course, I said nothing. I simply handed Lucy the keys, scooped up the last two bags of my belongings, and walked out towards the bus stop.
Mrs. Lane, what’s that thing under the kitchen counter? the girl called after me. Is it for storing the dishes?
I couldnt help myself and tossed back, I usually kept the bodies of Davids mistresses there, but youre welcome to wash the plates instead.
Without waiting for a reply, nor seeing Lucys frightened face, I descended the steps, rather satisfied with myself. Well thenthat was the end of it. Twenty years of life thrown away, just like that.
It was our daughter, Grace, who discovered Davids affair first. Shed skipped classes one day and came home, convinced the house would be empty, only to find the young nymph sipping hot chocolate from her favourite mug. Considering the girl was scantily clad and David could be heard in the shower, Grace quickly put two and two together, rang me up, and announced:
Mum, I think Dads got a girlfriend, and shes wearing my slippers and drinking out of my cup!
Just like in a fairy tale, I thought, recalling the way Grace was most annoyed not by her fathers betrayal, but by a stranger touching her things. Who slept on my bed and left it wrinkled
Unlike Grace, I found the whole situation rather uncomplicated. My pride smarted, of coursethe girl was so young and beautiful, whilst Id long since acquired the extra pounds and cellulite every forty-year-old dreads. Yet, I mostly felt relief; years of late-night calls, his erratic work hours, the receipts from cafés David never took me to And somehow, hed always manage to slip away, leaving me feeling guilty for even suspecting him.
This is the first time, David lied with brazen ease. It was a sort of eclipse, like a comet falling from the sky.
His comet turned out to be a hotel staffer hed met on a business trip. She was twenty, all looks and no sense, judging by the fact she followed him back to London and rented a filthy room on her saved money. Hence their rendezvous in our flatthere she could clean up and do laundry. No wonder the washing machine constantly ran on the quick cycle, never mixed fabrics as I liked!
The flat, of course, belonged to David; hed gotten it from his father before we married. And so, when I decided to file for divorce, Grace and I packed up for my own place on the outskirts of London, left to me by my grandmother. Grace grumbled endlesslyhow would she ever manage the long trip to school?
Come stay with us, then, David offered. That earned him another string of insults. At least Grace wasnt shy about telling him exactly what she thought.
The first weeks were toughnew commutes, unfamiliar shops, an hour to school and work. But soon enough we settled in. I found another job, Grace entered college, and her new journey took half as long. There was little time for sorrow: daily chores and exams kept us both busy, and once those troubles faded, sadness felt pointless.
Lucy called a few times, asking which setting to bake pies or which compartment to use for the dishwasher tablets. Once she even came by, needing some forgotten photos for graduation. David couldntor wouldntvisit himself, I was down with a cold, and Grace outright refused to go near the old flat, fearing permanent psychological scarring. She had her computer science exam coming up, after all.
Its quite homely here, Lucy said, glancing over the faded wallpapers and outdated lamps.
I just smiledyes, homely indeed. Meanwhile, over there, it was modern and stylish, thanks to twenty years of my hard work. Well, let them enjoy it.
It was this visit that later returned to haunt meabout a year after the memorable day, one evening as we sat together, the front door lock clicked.
Is that for you? I asked Grace.
She looked startled.
At the door stood Lucy, tear-stained, streaks of black mascara and glittery eye shadow down her cheeks, clutching a sports bag.
Has something happened with David? I asked, alarmed.
Yes! she whimpered, nose running. I caught him with his secretary! I thought Id surprise him, since he was working late and
She burst into tears again, sobbing like a child and burying her face in her hands.
Well, what do you want from me? I asked, guessing what the bulging sports bag implied.
Could I stay the night? Ive got no money. Tomorrow, Ill go back to my mums by train.
And with what money will you travel?
I hoped you could lend me some.
I wasnt sure whether to laugh or cry.
Grace made up her own mind.
Just get out! she snapped, adding some rather colourful language shed never used in front of me before.
I looked at her disapprovingly.
Come in, Lucy, I said. Its late. I cant have you wandering the streets.
And then things got worse.
Grace was so appalled she declaredeither her or me. I just shruggedher choice, she was of age. Go stay with your dad if you want.
No chance! Ill go to Annies!
So, a taxi was called for Grace to spend the night at her friends. Meanwhile, I sat, brewing tea and doling out valerian for Davids unfortunate ex, who, after a year in London, hadnt any friends or job, just a fresh tongue piercing. Of course, I gave Lucy the farewhat else could I do, I couldnt keep her with me. I even escorted her to the station, lest she get lost.
Lucy thanked me profusely, begged forgiveness, and promised to make something new of herselfuniversity, and no more married men.
Mum always said I was hopeless. Turns out she was right.
I certainly didnt wave her off at the trainnot necessary. Grace and I patched things up quickly, though she still struggled to understand how I could welcome the other woman into our home. I stroked her soft hair, smiled, and said,
Youll understand when youre older.
David rang a week later. Hed seen the light, ditched Lucy, and was ready to build our happiness again.
Run out of clean shirts, have you? I asked, wryly.
Well, yes, sighed my former husband. Anyway, she couldnt manage the washingbeen wearing greasy clothes all year.
Of course, I never went back. And I didnt gloat. But I had to admitmy spirits had changed after all that: I felt lighter; I smiled more. I got a dog, started taking evening walks, met a charming neighbour. So what if he was ten years my senior? I wasnt a girl anymore myself. And so, life carried on, in its own unhurried way.












