There Will Be No Wedding
Why are you so quiet today? Emily asked as she looked up from her cup of tea. We agreed to go furniture shopping for the bedroom on Saturday, remember? But youre acting like youve lost a shilling and found a sixpence. Whats wrong?
James knew it was now or never. He couldnt keep putting it off. If he was ever going to say something, it had to be now.
Em Theres something I need to talk to you about. About the wedding.
Emily had been waiting ages for this conversation. Theyd both agreed that theyd keep things simple, but she was sure James wanted to throw her a proper wedding guests, photos, the lot. Shed been looking forward to discussing it.
Go on, dont keep me in suspense, Emily smiled, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. I think I know what youre about to say.
But James said, Lets postpone it Lets put the wedding off for a bit.
That wasnt at all what shed expected.
Postpone it? Emily stared, stunned. Whats with the sudden change of heart? Why? We just talked about ordering invitations in fact, you picked them out yourself! Wed made a guest list! Dont tell me youve changed your mind about marrying me?
She braced herself for the melodramatic confession that his feelings had faded.
But James didnt go by the script.
Its just moneys a bit tight at the moment, he muttered. Paycheques been late, and we havent managed to save enough. Plus Weve only been living together for six months. Isnt it a bit soon?
A bit soon? Emily repeated, incredulous. James, weve been together three years! Three years in a relationship, half a year living together and thats too soon for you?
Somehow, James didnt look as panicked anymore.
Dont, Em. I dont want to have a row. Its just a pause. I havent changed my mind about marrying you, but weddings cost a fortune.
Fine, then why dont we just pop down the registry office, just us, and have a little celebration with friends after?
That wasnt what you dreamed of, though, Em.
Oh, let it go then! Ill live!
His excuses sounded feeble.
Em
Be honest. Did something happen? Are you not sure you love me? Or have you met someone else? Because the weddings too expensive doesnt sound convincing.
James shook his head earnestly.
No, Em, I swear. I just want things to be perfect when we marry, you know? Right now, I cant give you a dream wedding. And, yeah, six months in Were still getting to grips with living together, sussing out if we really fit
There was logic in what he said, and he was certainly persuasive, but Emilys gut told her something was off. James rarely tried so hard to convince her of anything. And it was he who had wanted them to get married as soon as possible.
She pretended she believed him.
After that talk, James seemed determined to be the perfect boyfriend, compensating for the cancelled wedding by paying attention to every detail always asking what she fancied in the shops, washing up without being asked but he was glum. Not absent-minded, but actually downcast; sighing at night as he stared at the ceiling, brushing off Emilys concerns with Im just tired, thats all.
Emily tried not to say much. Later, later, later, her inner voice whispered.
A couple of weeks later, they were invited to James parents in Oxfordshire. Emily was reluctant she just didnt feel like going. And lately James hadnt even so much as mentioned the wedding his parents were bound to ask and shed be left in a tight spot.
But in the end, they had to go.
Of course, the subject came up over a shepherds pie.
So, when are you two going to let us celebrate? his mother piped up as his father disappeared into the lounge to watch football. Ive already picked out a lovely venue, seats for twenty. When are we booking it?
James looked just as miserable as Emily. Book what? Nothing was happening.
Mum, I said weve put it off, he mumbled.
Put it off? Why on earth? Skint, are you? James, youre meant to plan ahead for these things, you know.
Later, the men were crowded around an old wireless in bits on the kitchen table, talking nonsense about the wiring. Emily went to tidy up in the bathroom.
Immaculate as a hospital, and not a stray bit of makeup about only shower gel and shampoo on the shelf. James mum kept her things in her bedroom, which always bemused Emily. She could never understand the bother of carrying everything back and forth.
Emily dried her face with the hand towel and then heard voices those old walls carried every sound if you listened. James had gone back through to the kitchen and was talking with his mum. Emily heard
James, are you thinking of breaking up with Emily?
Emily froze, cloth in hand. What? She pressed her ear to the cold tiles.
Mum, Ive told you. Weve postponed things, not broken up.
Postponed thats just an excuse! hissed Mrs. Wilkinson. I can see youre unhappy. Why drag things out with her? Shes not wifey material, James. A wife should listen to her husband, and she Well, whats the point if youd be getting divorced within a year?
I love her, Mum, James said softly.
Emilys heart fluttered despite herself.
But his mothers next words made her forget any fondness.
You love her, do you? Shes crafty, that girl. I warned you! Shes turned you against us, James. Youve stopped helping your sister, you dont come round to the house Shes changing you, and not for the better.
Emily stayed glued to the spot, forehead pressed to the cool wall. Turned James against them? When exactly? Shed always tried to be nothing but polite to his parents, even when Mr. Wilkinson had torn into her about her new haircut. That had stung, but shed said nothing.
Not once had she ever tried to pull James away from his family; quite the opposite she always encouraged him. She knew how much family meant to him.
The truth hit her: postponing the wedding wasnt about money at all. It was his mum, lying through her teeth, doing her best to stop it!
Emily hurried back.
Ah, Emilys back! We were just saying, dont let it drag out for too long, dear. I dont hold with these modern ideas young people, the lot but I do think life without a marriage certificate isnt right.
How sweet of her.
Of course, Mrs. Wilkinson, Emily replied with a polite smile. We wont wait too long. Once weve saved a bit, well have our special day, right James?
Yes, Em, just think of us as already married, James chimed in.
That night, driving home in the drizzle, James tried to put his arm around her. Emily kept edging away. She didnt know how to open the conversation. Was there even any point? If James hadnt left her at his mothers insistence, then maybe he truly loved her But the wedding was off.
You went odd when your mum was talking, Emily said quietly, watching the streetlights whip by.
Did I? No, just she gets pushy about the wedding and
Dont lie. She isnt pushing for a wedding. She doesnt want us to get married at all. She said Ive turned you against them and she wants us to split up.
Jamess grip tightened on the steering wheel.
So you heard? Look, Em, its just Mum worried shell lose her precious boy to someone else. Its normal. Shell get over it.
Emily wasnt hurt by his mothers words possessive mothers werent anything new. What upset her was James himself. He didnt stand up for her. He just gave in to avoid an argument.
The wedding question hung in the air. James wandered about, face like thunder, and whenever Emily mentioned the future, he just replied, Maybe at some point
And then one afternoon, Jamess phone was left unlocked on the sofa.
Ill just check the time, Emily told herself. I wont read any messages. Ill just take a quick peek
The latest notification was from his sister, Angela. Angela was only two years younger than Emily, but youd never know it no job, never went to uni, still lived with Mum and Dad, living off them.
The message was blunt:
So Im not getting any money, then. Youre under the thumb again. Well, live with her if some bird means more than your own family.
Emily read it again. Under the thumb.
Suddenly, she remembered
Before the wedding was called off, Angela had rung up James yet again to ask for money. Emily had blurted: James, shes twenty-seven, lives at home, and needs you to fund her fun? Maybe she should try working? Were not a bottomless pit!
Normally she wouldnt have meddled, but their money was meant to be joint she worked just as hard as James, and she wasnt keen to bankroll his sister. James reluctantly agreed Youre right, Em. Its about time.
Now it was clear who was poisoning the well against her.
She copied Angelas message, sent it to herself for proof, then put Jamess phone back where it was.
James came in shaking the rain off his coat.
Picked up some bread, and your favourite chocolate with the hazelnuts. I was thinking, maybe we could
James, Emily interrupted.
Who were you expecting? Someone else? he joked, trying to lighten the mood.
But she kept her expression serious.
Whats that Angelas been messaging you about? she asked softly.
James, sensing danger, went straight on the defensive.
Were you on my phone? Em, thats out of order
Classic shifting of blame. Trying to dodge the question.
It doesnt matter how I saw it, James. I want you to explain. Now.
James hesitated, emotions flickering across his face from denial to guilt.
Oh, Em, dont pay any attention. Shes just upset, you know what shes like.
Upset about what? The fact I suggested she should stand on her own two feet?
He shrugged. Shes always thought she could count on her big brother for the odd handout. Habits are hard to break, especially with free money. Itll blow over, dont worry.
And shes the one whos told your parents Im the problem?
Well yeah, he admitted, I tried to explain, but Mum immediately blamed you said you were bossing me about and Id turned my back on the family for your sake. But thats not how I feel
But you cancelled the wedding Fine. I get it now. Shes poisoned your family against me. I cant deal with them but what about you? Do you even want to marry me, or are you just too afraid to tell your mum no?
Of course I want to marry you! I just cant right now Maybe later when things calm down
So there it was.
You know, James, I realise something I dont want to marry someone who isnt sure of his feelings, or who jumps at every word from his sister. Maybe its for the best we cancelled the wedding.
Sometimes lifes hardest truths come out not in what people say, but in what they leave unsaid. Its better to wait for someone brave enough to stand with you, than to chase after love that wont stand up for itself.












