Pancake Pan
According to all indications, Alice was running late for work, which meant another likely deduction from her wages and a stern chat with her punctual boss. Blame it on the jumble of morning mishaps. Her younger son Charlie, a Year 3, refused his porridge and whiningly claimed his throat hurt. Armed with her reading glasses, Alice tried to spot any sign of redness, but soon realised he was putting it on. She threatened the crafty lad with a smack and helped him strap on his school backpack. Meanwhile, her elder, William, was dashing about the house desperately searching for his homework diary. Alices head spun from his frenzied darting about. Snapping at the clumsy pair, she grabbed Charlies hand and dashed out onto the porch. Even then, it took a moment to get into the car as her husband lingered, busy cleaning its windows. By the time the morning scramble ended and the family finally hit the road, a never-ending snarl of London traffic had well and truly crushed Alices hope of making it to work on time.
Racing towards her office at the rail booking agency, Alice nearly slipped on the slick pavement. By sheer luck, a huge suitcase broke her fallshe clung to it, just managing to keep her balance. Realising shed escaped with nothing more than a fright, Alice apologetically wheeled the case closer to its elderly owner and hurried inside. When her colleagues told her the boss hadnt arrived yet, she breathed a sigh of relief, downed a glass of water in one go, and settled at her desk.
Within half an hour, the workday swept away any memory of the mornings tribulations. During her lunch break, Alice glanced out the window. The sight of the elderly passenger with the enormous suitcase somehow drew her attentionher entire posture radiated a weary resignation, eyes empty and defeated. The train ticket in her wrinkled hand fluttered in the wind, as if trying to escape like a dry leaf tugged from a bare branch. But the old woman’s faded eyes didnt seem to notice her tickets tenacious yearning for freedom. She sat on the bench, unmoved by the biting autumn air, wind, or drizzle.
How longs she been out there? Alice asked her colleague.
“Word is, since yesterday,” came the reply.
“And do you know where shes going?”
“Manchester.”
“Odd. There are a few trains to Manchester every day. Why hasnt she gone yet?” Pouring tea from her thermos, Alice grabbed a slice of homemade cake, stepped outside, and joined the lone passenger, offering her a warm drink and some food.
You might remember me. Your suitcase saved me from a nasty fall this morning. May I ask where youre headed?
Manchester, came the colourless reply, as the woman sipped her tea.
Alice checked the ticket, puzzled. Your train left two days ago. Why didnt you go?
The lady adjusted her old-fashioned felt hat and rasped, It seems Im in the way everywhere I go. Don’t worry about meIll move. She placed her half-empty cup on the bench and tried to rise, but Alice gently stopped her.
“No, no… Please, stay where youre comfortable. Its just so chilly and damp…”
Believe me, I cant feel a thing Like Ive burned through every feeling I ever had, murmured the stranger indifferently. She took a well-worn embroidered handkerchief from her battered handbag, dabbed away sudden tears, and continued:
The trouble is, Ive really nowhere to go. A typical family tiff. I never got on with my son Well, actually his fiancée. Beautiful, but quarrelsomeselfish, flighty. Hes absolutely smitten, and saw all my comments as nagging. To please her, he decided to be rid of me. Bought a ticket to my sisters in Manchester, packed my suitcase, and drove me to the station. Poor lad doesnt even know my sister passed away three years ago, and her house was sold. I couldnt bring myself to tell him the truth. I thought, ‘Let things bemaybe the young couples life will settle if Im out of their hair.’ So here I am, alone and at a loss, waiting Perhaps for shame to finish me off or the ambulance to fetch me to an old folks home. Thank you, dear, for the tea and cake. I hadnt realised how hungry I was.
“Dear…” That single, grateful word from a stranger whisked Alice back to her own orphaned childhood. So many years had passed, but the old ache of jealousy towards adopted, smiling children still lingered. Alice, awkward and freckled, never chosen, never able to recite poetry with any charm, always left behind. After the childrens home, she was sent to the textile mill as an apprentice and given a cramped room in a shared house, where she lived until she was fortunate enough to marrya happiness she still thanked God for.
“Dear…” The unfamiliar warmth of motherly love seemed to gently touch her cheeks, seeping through her, softening her heart with an unexpected tide of compassion.
Resting her hand on the ladys shoulder, Alice quietly said, Please, dont move from this bench. When my shift ends, well go home together. Our house is big and theres room for everyone. If you dont like it, Ill bring you back here. Agreed? Glancing into the wrinkled face, Alice saw her chin trembling and grateful tears streaming from swollen eyes.
Once in the car, introductions were made:
Im Alice, my husbands name is James, our children are William and Charlie. And how shall we call you?
Call me Granny May, replied the old woman, thawing out in the car.
The next day was a Sunday. Alice woke to the most tempting aroma drifting from the kitchen. Slipping on her dressing gown, she went to the veranda. There sat a towering stack of golden, lacy pancakes. Granny May, swift and sure, flipped fresh pancakes onto plates, serving the lot to the delighted men of the house. Spotting Alice, Granny May hurried to explain:
Dont fret, love. I found a pan in the ovennothing sticks to itso I just made myself useful. Come, sit! Try my pancakes.
After the hearty breakfast, the family joined in raking fallen leaves and burning them, tossing potatoes into the glowing embers. Alice watched Granny May with surpriseher cheeks rosy now, humming a tune under her breath.
Dont mind my verve, love. Always been a grafter. They called me ‘May the Clydesdale’ in the armycarried wounded lads from the line, no matter their size. Helped everyone I could, until I copped one myself. Then I was sent home to recovermet my husband, had my son. Poor dear didnt last long, lungs ruined after the warfaded away with the spring melts. Left me alone with a small boy. But I managed. Raised him right, gave him every chance.
May grew quiet then, lost in her own thoughts. Eventually, she picked up a rake and hummed her mysterious tune again as she worked the garden.
Monday meant the usual commotion. Charlie whinged, William darted about collecting scattered homework, and James readied the car for work. As Alice and her boys hurried onto the porch, she spotted Granny May dressed and waiting with her suitcase.
Thank you, dear. Ive outstayed my welcome. Time to be on my way…”
Granny May! Didnt you like it here?
Its lovely, but who wants a stranger cluttering up the place?
Granny May! Please stay! Who else could make such splendid pancakes? Mine never turn out quite right Do stay Please. Youre one of us now
Alice hoisted the heavy suitcase as if it weighed nothing, took Granny Mays arm, and together they crossed the porch.
As the family settled into the car, May called from the veranda:
Love, could you buy another pancake pan? Two would be ever so handy in the mornings…
She didnt hear Alice softly whisper, Of course, Mum MayAlice grinned wide, her heart both aching and overflowing. Of course, Granny May. One more pancake pancoming right up! Maybe even two, if you’re planning a feast.
Chuckles rippled through the family as the boys jostled into the back seat, arguing over whod get the first pancake tomorrow. James winked at May, who gave a small, bashful salutehalf military, half grandmotherly mischief. The suitcase, once a heavy memory of exile, now rested inside by the coat rack, its burdens quietly shared and gently unpacked.
The car pulled away down the dew-sparkled street, leaving behind the house with its golden panes and a puff of wood smoke curling skyward. On the veranda, May watched their laughter mingle with the morning, her old heart pumping a tender, steady beat.
She finally understood: some journeys turned out better when you missed the train. And in the kitchen windows reflection, she caught the silhouette of herselfgrayer, perhaps, but never again alone.












