A Long-Awaited Granddaughter
For two restless days now, I havent been able to sleepafter everything my son has put me through! I keep calling his mobile, but as ever, no luck. Dan set off to sea again, and until he reaches the next port, therell be no signal.
Oh, Daniel, youve really landed yourself in it this time! I sigh, staring hopelessly at my phone screen, yearning for a connection. Theres nothing to be done but waitand yet, how can I rest with all thats happened?
* * *
This business started years ago, back when Dan hadnt even thought about taking those overseas contracts as a marine engineer. He was already a grown man, but never settled. Girlfriends came and went, none of them, apparently, what he wanted. I watched with a heavy heart as relationships with perfectly nice young women unravelled for reasons I never could quite fathom.
Youre impossible! Id tell him, exasperated. Nothings ever right for you. What sort of woman could ever live up to all your standards?
I dont follow your logic, Mum, hed say. You just want a daughter-in-law, and you dont care what shes like!
Now, thats not fair. Of course I care! I just want someone kind who loves you.
Hed just sit there in silence, and somehow that infuriated me the most. Since when did my little boywho used to cry in my lapthink he knew life better than I did?
What was wrong with Chloe, then? Id demand.
I told you already.
Fine, Id admit, knowing Chloe was a poor example. You said she let you down. Though I cant say I see how
Mum! Can we please not discuss the details? Chloe simply wasnt someone I could spend my life with.
What about Rosie?
Same story, Mum.
And Daisy? Lovely girl, very domestic, helpful. Always asked how she could lend a hand. Isnt that right?
True. She was sweet. But it turned out she never loved meand, I suppose, I never loved her either.
And Lucy?
Mum, please!
What do you mean, Mum, please? Youre impossible! You flit about from one to the next. Why cant you settle down, start a family, give me grandchildren?
Lets end this pointless discussion, Dan would snap, before storming out.
Id think to myself, He takes after his fatherstubborn and pedantic to the core!
The years drifted by, girls came and went, and my hopes for Dans happinessand a grandchildremained elusive. Then Dan bumped into an old mate who got him working on ships. He jumped at the opportunity. My protests fell flat.
Mum, its a terrific job! Youve no idea what blokes make at sea. Ill take care of us both!
What use is money if youre always gone and I never see you? Why cant you find a nice wife?
Ill need to support a family one day, wont I? While Im young, Ill earn what I can at sea, then settle down when its time.
Dan did make good money. After his first trip, he redid the flat from top to bottom. After the second, he handed me a bank card.
So you never go without.
But I dont need anything except grandchildren, which arent getting any closer as I get older!
Oh, come off it, Mum! Youre not old. Still years until your pension, hed tease.
But I never spent his money. My wages at the local chemist were enough. Id let the funds sithe never checked anyway. Wait till he sees how thrifty his mother can be! Id chuckle.
Thats how we lived for years. Between voyages, Dan would catch up with mates, go out drinking, meet all sorts of girlsnone of whom he ever brought home. When I challenged him, he grumbled, I dont want you getting attached when I know Ill never marry them, Mum!
It hurt, especially when he called me gullible. You never really knew any of them, hed say, They showed you their best faces, but you only saw what they wanted you to see.
That stung. Gullible. Foolish, even. Did my own son just call me daft?
Yet, when I once saw him out with a curly-haired young woman, something in me snapped into motherly action. I marched right over. Dan blushed scarlet, but he introduced uswhat choice did he have?
Her name was Emily, and I instantly liked her. She was tall and slim, with bright brown eyes and a warm, gentle manner. Perhaps he just hadnt met the right one until now, I found myself thinking.
Their romance lasted all through Dans leave, and at my urging, Emily visited several times. Clever, good companyshe put me at ease. But when Dan prepared to set sail again, Emily disappeared.
Were not seeing each other anymore. And you shouldnt, either, was all Dan would say before leaving.
I puzzled and fretted, but there was nothing more to be learned.
* * *
A year passed. Dan came home a handful of times, but if I mentioned Emily, hed clam up.
Goodness, Danwhat was wrong with her? I finally burst out.
Mum, thats my business. If I ended things, it was for a reason. Please dont interfere.
I nearly wept. Im just worried about you!
Dont be! And for the hundredth time, stop going on about Emily! And stop nagging me!
Eventually, Dan left for sea again and I tried to carry on with my life, heart aching all the while.
Then, one afternoon at the chemist, I looked up to see Emily walk in, pushing a pram. She flushed and adjusted the little girls hat.
Emily! Im so glad to see you! Dan never explained anything. He just vanishedtold me not to ask about you!
She looked down, sad. Well, thats that, I suppose.
A pang of nerves struck me. Please, love, tell me what happened? I know my Dan can be difficult. Did he treat you poorly?
Its all water under the bridge Im not bitter. But we need to get to the shop, so well be off.
I urged her to come visit, or at least pop in during my shifts. She dideach time for baby formula. Slowly, she opened up. Shed fallen pregnant by Dan, but he refused the baby, said he had no time for children, that his job took him away, and anyway, he had never intended anything long-term. Then, he vanished.
Gone to sea, probably, she shrugged. Well manage fine on our own.
I crouched by the pram, nearly in tears. So shes shes my granddaughter?
Yes, Emily whispered. Her names Pippa.
* * *
I couldnt sit still for days after that. Gently, I coaxed from Emily that she and Pippa were struggling to make ends meet. Emily was from up north, renting a flat here, but with a baby and no steady work, she was finding it impossible. She spoke of moving back to her parents.
The thought of losing my granddaughter to another city pained me deeply.
Emily, move in with meplease! Bring Pippa, of course. Ill help however I can, youll get a proper job, and thanks to Dans wages, Pippa wont want for anything.
What will Dan say?
What business is it of his? He left all this mess behind; its my job to begin mending it. Ill have words with him when hes back. Trust me!
So they moved in. My world shifted. Every penny I had was spent on Pippa, and every spare minute, too. I cut back at work to spend more time with her. Emily got a job and often came home late, weary from customers and hours on her feet.
Its all right, love. Have a rest. Ill bathe Pippa and put her to bed.
Dans leave was coming up. I braced myself for the confrontation, and meanwhile, Emily seemed ever more anxious.
Dans coming homehell throw us out! she fretted. I never should have moved in. Ill look for a flat tomorrow.
He wont throw anyone out! Ill handle him!
Im so scared, Mrs. Collins. I shouldnt rely on your kindness. Dan will accuse me of chasing money! But I need nothing from you except the chance to repay your generosity. Ill move back home, but keep in touchif youll let me.
Nonsense! This is my flat, and I say who stays. Dan can do as he likes, but you and Pippa are welcome as long as you wish.
No matter what Emily said, I insisted, and they stayed.
Heres what I think, I announced over dinner. Well put this flat in Pippas name straight away. No arguments from Dan. That way, Pip has a secure future especially since Dan isnt listed on her birth certificate. I glanced at Emily, who blushed.
Im sorry. I thought
I know, dear. But its best to sort things, just in case. Lets see the solicitor tomorrow.
Its not necessary, Mrs. Collins! My parents have a home too…
I wont be dissuaded!
But at the solicitors, I hit a wall: Well need your son to relinquish his interest in the flat first.
I was frustrated, but with Dan due back in days, I hoped it could be sorted soon. Meanwhile, Emily grew more nervous and began disappearing for hours.
Where are you always off to? I asked evening after evening.
Just work. They wont advance my wages until I complete a big assignment.
Why do you need an advance? Short of anything?
All she did was pack her things, quietly, when she thought I wouldnt see.
Are you leaving? Taking a flat after all? I confronted her.
I must, she whispered. Once Dans here
Youre going nowhere, I declared. After a moment, I added, And enough with slaving away. You know where my card isand the code. Get what you need and spend time with your child. If you want Dan to accept you, learn to be a homemaker.
Emily said nothing. Dan was due back in two days.
* * *
On the morning Dan was to return, I tiptoed into the spare room to watch Pippa sleep, only to find Emily had vanishedleaving Pippa behind.
What on Earth? Emily never left so early for work. At six o’clock, the city was barely awake!
I set about preparing Dans favourite baked gammon and trifle, rehearsing how Id confront himwith my granddaughter in my armswhen he walked in.
Soon, the front door rang.
Dan stood in the hallway, eyes wide as I cradled Pippa.
Hi, Mum. Whos the baby? Whats happened while Ive been away?
Youre hardly oblivious, Dan!
I dont get it, he said, slipping off his boots. What adventures have you had without me?
Adventures? I found my granddaughter, thats what happenedPippa!
Granddaughter? Do I suddenly have siblings Ive never met? he laughed.
Oh, stop the performance! Emily told me everything! I didnt raise you to behave like this!
Emily? Hang on. First, I asked you not to contact her. Second, whats she got to do with this child?
Furious, I told him everything, anger giving me courage. Dan slumped into a chair, covering his face.
Mum, you Shes tricked you again!
So I’m a fool? Thats what youre implying? Well, maybe, but I–
Shes after your money! Mum, did she take anything?
Of course not! Shes
Mum, check your savings! I bet she’s scarpered with what she could!
Shes only gone to work!
We argued until, exhausted, Dan agreed to wait and hear Emily out when she returned.
But Emily never did. As day turned to night and into the next morning, her phone stopped connecting altogether. I tracked down the address of her supposed jobonly to be told shed never worked there. No one recognised her photo.
Rushing home at Dans urging, I checked my hiding spot. The savings and the bank card were gone. Emilys things had vanished as well, though all Pippas remained.
Thats when it truly hit meEmily had deceived me.
She couldn’t have just abandoned Pippa and vanished I murmured, shattered.
She could do far worse, Dan said bitterly. Mates warned me she was trouble. When I first met her, it was all liesand then suddenly she announced a pregnancy, probably not even mine! Word is, she went from one lad to the next.
How could I be so naïve! I wept. Why didnt you tell me, Dan?
I didnt want to sadden you, Mum. You always see the best in people.
What do we do now?
Well report her to the police. Thank goodness the flat isnt in Pippa’s name! You could have lost it all!
We filed the report, but Emily disappeared like smoke across the Channel. Months passed with no news. Luckily, she hadnt drained the accountthe card was blocked as soon as Dan heard the story. It was later found on a train up in Yorkshire.
For now, with the authorities hunting Emily, I was granted temporary leave to keep Pippa. To manage, I left my job for a spellDans earnings covered the bills. A DNA test proved Dan wasnt Pippas father, but by then I loved the child as my own. Dan and I discussed, and agreed to raise her together. Emily was never found, and eventually her rights were legally revoked. It took months to secure guardianship: I had to return to work, secure a nursery place for Pippa, and navigate mountains of paperwork. Still, we adapted. Life began, slowly, to feel normal.
A year later, Dan came home with a new wife.
Mum, meet Sophie. Were settling here together.
But what about I flustered, waving toward Pippas room, uncertain if Sophie knew.
But she smiled warmly. Pleased to meet you, Mrs. Collins. Dans told me everything. I think what youve done is remarkable. Id love to help bring up Pippa, if youd let me. She looked at Dan fondly.
Im quitting life at sea, Mum. Sophie and I want to adopt Pippa properly. I wont be turned down this time.
Overcome with joy, I dashed away a tear.
Bless you both! Come in, sit down! Ive cooked heaps for todaylets all get to know each other. What happiness!That afternoon, sunlight spilled golden across our kitchen table. Pippa toddled in, hair wild from sleep, clutching her battered rabbit. I drew her close, my chest tight with the fierce, full love only a grandmothera real grandmothercould know.
Sophie knelt to Pippas level and smiled. Were family, arent we? Pippa considered her gravely, then held out the rabbita childs first, simple token of trust. I caught Dan blinking hard as he knelt beside them, wrapping his arms around them both, drawing all of us together in a tangle.
In that sunlit moment, all the shadows of the pastthe longing, the heartache, the betrayalsseemed to fall away. There was only the now: laughter, hope, the scent of fresh bread, the certainty of belonging. Not the family Id once imagined, perhaps, but a family fierce and true, patched together by chance and choice alike.
My long-awaited granddaughter looked up into my eyes and giggled, bright and clear as the chime of a distant ships bell. I reached out to her, to my son, to Sophie, and understood at last: sometimes love finds us in the strangest ways, and sometimes family is exactly who remains when the storm clears.
Turning to Sophie, I raised my tea in mock solemnity. Welcome home, love. Here, with us, youll always belong.
And then, for the first time in years, I truly restedcontent, surrounded by the family I had waited for all my life, heart whole at last.












