The Last Summer at Home
James arrived on a Wednesday, the sun already slanting towards noon, heating the roof until the slate tiles crackled and popped. The garden gate had fallen from its hinges about three years ago, so he stepped over it and paused on the doorstep. Three wooden steps, the bottom one rotted clean through. He gingerly tested the second, then carried on inside.
A stale, musty air greeted him, with a distinct tang of mice. Dust blanketed the windowsills, and cobwebs stretched from the ceiling beam to the old Welsh dresser in the sitting room. James pried open a windowthe swollen frame resistingand a rush of warm nettle and dry grass from the garden flooded in. He wandered through all four rooms, compiling a mental list: mop the floors, check the Aga, fix the summerhouse plumbing, clear out everything that had gone mouldy. Then, ring Andrew, Mum, the nieces and nephews. Say: come for August, lets spend a month here, the way we used to.
The way it used to betwenty-five years ago, when Dad was still alive and every summer the whole family gathered here. James remembered making jam in a copper pan, the brothers dragging buckets up from the well, Mum reading aloud on the veranda in the evenings. Then Dad died, Mum moved into Andrews flat in town, and the house was boarded up. James came back once a year, checking it hadnt been pillaged, then left. But something shifted in him this spring: he felt he needed to try to bring it back, just once.
He worked alone for the first week. Swept out the chimney, replaced two boards on the porch, scrubbed the windows. He drove to town for paint and cement, arranged for an electrician to check the wiring. The parish council chairMr Hawkinscaught him outside the village shop and shook his head.
Why bother, Jim? Pouring money into this old heap? Youll sell it in the end.
James only said, Not before autumn, and carried on.
Andrew was the first to arrive, Saturday evening, wife and two children in tow. He unfolded himself from the car, eyeing the garden with a grimace.
You seriously think well make it a month here?
Three weeks, James corrected him. Kids need fresh air, you could use it, too.
There isnt even a shower.
Theres the old bathhouse. Ill light it tonight.
The kids, Williameleven, and Emilyeight, shuffled towards the makeshift swings James had hung from the old oak the day before. Andrews wife, Alice, said nothing, trudging into the house with her shopping bag, James helping unload. Andrew still looked sceptical, but for once said nothing.
Mum arrived Monday, dropped off by a kindly neighbour. She paused just inside the sitting room, taking a long breath.
Its all so small, she murmured. I remember it being bigger.
You havent been back in thirty years, Mum.
Thirty-two.
She walked to the kitchen, running her hand along the worn counter.
It was always so cold in here. Dad promised hed put the central heating in, but he never got round to it.
James heard not nostalgia in her voice, but weariness. He poured her a cup of tea, settled her on the veranda. Mum sat quietly, watching the orchard, speaking of how hard it was lugging water, how her back ached after laundry days, how the neighbours gossiped. Listening, James realised that for her, this house wasnt a haven, but a wound.
That night, once Mum had gone to bed, James and Andrew sat by a campfire in the garden. The children were asleep, Alice was reading with a candleelectricity only reached half the house.
Why are you really doing all this? Andrew asked, watching the flames.
I wanted us together.
But we see each other. At Christmas. Easter.
It isnt the same.
Andrew shook his head, a smile tugging.
Jim, youre a dreamer. Think if we play house for three weeks well become close again?
I dont know, James admitted. I just wanted to try.
His brother was quiet, then softer: Im glad you tried. Honestly. But dont hope for miracles.
James didnt. But he still hoped.
The following days flew by in a flurry of chores. James fixed the fence, Andrew helped patch the old shed roof. William, at first listless, found dusty fishing rods in the shed and vanished to the river each day. Emily began helping Gran pull weeds from the rough patch of vegetable beds James had cobbled together by the southern wall.
One afternoon, while they all painted the veranda railings together, Alice laughed suddenly.
We look like some little commune.
Communes had a plan, Andrew muttered, but he smiled all the same.
James could see the tension slowly easing. Evenings brought dinners out on the veranda, Mum ladling soup, Alice baking cottage cheese tarts with the local dairys cream. The talks were mundanewhere to buy better fly screens, whether the grass needed another cut, if theyd managed to fix the pump yet.
But one evening, after the children had gone up to bed, Mum said softly, Your father wanted to sell this house. The year before he died.
James froze, mug in hand. Andrew frowned.
Why?
Hed simply had enough. He said the house was an anchor. He wanted to move close to the hospital in town. I refused. I thought, this was ours, belonged to the family. We argued. He never sold, then he was gone a year later.
James set down his mug.
Do you blame yourself?
I dont know. Im just tired of this place. Its all remindersof how I wouldnt budge, and he never got comfort at the end.
Andrew leant back in his chair.
Mum, you never told us.
You never asked.
James gazed at her. Old now, hands marked by years of work, slumped in her chair. Now he saw it: for her, the house wasnt a treasure, but a burden.
Maybe we should have sold it, he said quietly.
Maybe. Mums voice was very soft. But you all grew up here. Surely thats something.
What, exactly?
She looked up at him.
That you remember who you were. Before life swept you away.
James didnt believe her words at once. But the next day, down at the river with Andrew and William, as the boy caught his first perch, he saw his brother clap William on the back and burst out laughingreal, unguarded laughter. That evening, when Mum told Emily how, on this very veranda, shed taught their father to read, James heard in her voice not pain, but something else. Perhaps acceptance.
They planned their departure for Sunday. The night before, James fired up the old bathhouse, everyone bundling in together, then drinking tea out on the veranda. William asked if they could come again next summer. Andrew looked James way, but said nothing.
In the morning, James helped with the bags. Mum hugged him before she got in the car.
Thank you for having us.
I thought itd be better.
It was good, James. In its own way.
Andrew clapped his shoulder.
Sell if you want. I wont mind.
Well see.
The car rumbled off, dust settling over the lane. James wandered through the rooms, gathered up stray crockery, took out the rubbish. Then he latched the windows, locked the doors. From his pocket, he drew out an old iron padlock hed found in the shed, heavy and rusted, but solid, and hooked it fast to the gate.
He stood a while on the lane, watching the houseroof straight, porch sturdy, windows sparkling. It looked lived in. But James knew it was only an echo. A house is alive when people fill it. For three weeks, it was alive. Maybe that was enough.
He got into his car and rolled away. In his rearview mirror, the roof flashed, then vanished as the lane twisted into trees. James drove slowly, bumping along rutted roads, thinking that come autumn hed ring the estate agent. But for nowfor now hed remember the six of them round the old table, Mum laughing at Andrews jokes, William cradling his catch.
The house had done its part. It brought them together. And that, perhaps, was enough to let it go, without regret.












