The Fog Has Cleared

The fog lifts

Lately Sarah Finch spends a lot of time wondering about her life. It feels dull every day repeats itself. She does have a family: her husband Ethan and two sons, Max and Sam, both top of their class at the local school.

Sarah rises early, the steady tick of the hallway clock filling the bedroom. Dawn is just breaking outside, but she cant slip back into sleep; thoughts about the coming day already swirl in her head.

Now Ill get up and the day will start just like all the others, full of chores and worries, she thinks. Ill milk Daisy, feed her and the rest of the herd, then Ill feed the other animals. After that Ill have to make breakfast for Ethan and the boys, wake them, take the lads to school and send Ethan off to work. Oh, and I must hill the potatoes today or theyll overrun the beds grab the spade and head out to the garden.

She gets to work, and a list of tasks runs through her mind: Today I need to do a wash, pull the weeds in the yard and sweep the porch I havent tidied it in ages. My life is boring, one thing after another

Ethan, get up, its time, she nudges his shoulder gently, but hes still halfasleep.

Alright, he murmurs, rolling onto his back.

Kids, wake up, its time for breakfast and school. Max, stop dragging your feet; youll have to get up anyway. Whos going to school for you if not me? Sam, youre a lazybones you need to be in bed earlier, she chides, her tone more weary than angry. Max jumps up instantly; Sam stretches lazily.

She sends everyone off to their duties and begins the laundry, hanging the clean sheets out on the garden rail. Something feels unusually sad today, though she cant pinpoint why; shes been noticing a growing dissatisfaction with her routine.

Just then Nancy Hayes, the lively neighbour from next door, bursts into the yard. Shes always shouting at her own household and can be heard even through Sarahs garden fence.

Nancy, whats the matter? You were shouting again last night, Sarah asks.

Oh, its Fred came home, more or less dragged himself in. I spent the whole evening trying to move the heavy cupboard he left in the hallway. I warned him this morning, but he still I cant even look at him without rolling my eyes. He went off to the pub with his mates again you know the usual lot, cheap lager and endless chatter. Your Ethan never drinks, Ive never seen him drunk.

Nancy envies Sarahs quiet yard, free of noise and clatter. Seeing her neighbours gloom, she asks, Sarah, why the long face? Whats got you so down?

Sarah sighs, settling on the garden bench beside Nancy.

I dont know, Nancy. Somethings weighing on me. It feels like all the interesting life is passing me by, happening somewhere else, while other people seem to have it better, richer, more exciting. I want something different, not a Hollywood fantasy, but at least a taste of what our neighbours enjoy.

Nancy, surprised, replies, Sarah, your life is smooth as butter quiet and steady. What more could you ask for?

Sarah continues, Look at Mary Collins. Her husband Victor is handsome, theyre always out together, holding hands and kissing in public. Ive seen it a dozen times. Mary works as the chief accountant, dresses well, rides a nice car. For her birthday Victor brings red roses from the city. Hes always off on trips, living a life far from boring.

Nancy cuts in, There you go, finding someone to envy. You stay at home, you dont work, so you dont see the whole picture. Victor is a real charmer, a bit of a womaniser. Hell never let a good dress go unnoticed. Mary loves him, thinks hes a proper gent, but hes as fickle as a March hare. He kisses her in front of everyone, yet at home he might just be another hand on the shoulder. He spends nights in the city with other women, even younger ones.

Sarah looks skeptical but listens.

Alright, if thats the case, I wont envy Mary. What about Tara Bennett? Her husband Andrew is devoted, loves his son, even forbids her from working, does all the housework himself. He sometimes takes Tara to the seaside resort thats true love. Tara seems happy, while my life feels flat.

Nancy shakes her head, Youre not seeing the whole story, Sarah. Andrew doesnt drink, hes solid, but their older son is ill. Their younger son, Andy, is fine, goes to school, a good lad. I know because my sister works on the farm and hears all the gossip. Their sons condition is serious; they get a free holiday pass to a sanatorium for him. Andrews trips to the coast are more about the boys health than romance.

Sarah nods, Ive heard that. Their house is at the end of Lower Lane, far from us. Ethan speaks well of Andrew.

Nancy laughs, Every cottage has its own secrets. You never hear them because you stay indoors, shop for groceries, and never sit by the village well chatting with the ladies. Ethan has even dug a well for us, so we dont need to fetch water. Youre bored because youve never seen another way of living, so you think everyone else is sailing through life.

They continue swapping stories, eventually turning to Catherine Blake, the striking girl from the neighbouring hamlet. Catherine is a beauty, men turn their heads when she walks by. Courtiers come on motorbikes, bring bouquets and boxes of chocolates even Ilya from the next village gave her a present today, Nancy says.

People say the village mayor sneaks a visit to her behind his wifes back. If his wife ever found out, Catherine might lose her hair from the anger, Nancy adds, chuckling.

Sarah replies, She lives a lively life, but how old is she? Thirtyfive? Yet no ones asking her to settle down. Suitors come and go, yet she remains single.

Nancy sighs, She probably cries into her pillow at night, but no one sees it.

Sarah feels a sudden pang of guilt, realizing how much she has complained about her own life while envying others.

The conversation drifts on until Nancy finally hurries home. Sarah grabs her spade and heads to the garden to hill the potatoes. The children rush in from school; she feeds them, milks Daisy, and welcomes Ethan home from work. The day passes quietly, just as it always does.

That night Sarah cant sleep. She finally drifts off and dreams of her late grandmother Eleanor, who appears from the mist.

Sarah dear, do not resent God, do not grumble at your fate. Trials are given according to our strength, and you have not truly faced many, the old woman whispers.

The vision fades like morning fog, and Sarah awakens. Guilt settles over her for the way she has lamented, pitied herself, and envied others.

Dawn is breaking. Ethan snores softly, the clock ticks. She throws a shawl over her shoulders and steps onto the porch. The fog lifts, dew glints on the grass, and the sky promises a fine day.

How wonderful life is, she thinks brightly. Everything is fine. I have lived in a fog of envy, measuring other peoples lives against my own, never noticing the happiness already around me. I have a loving husband, Ethan, who never hurts me; two wonderful sons who excel at school and cause no trouble; a cosy home, a healthy garden, and a steady routine. The little worries I had are insignificant. How lovely that the fog has cleared.

She returns inside, drops the shawl, checks on the boys, tucking a blanket around Max. She steadies herself, and everything falls back into place. Life goes on.

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The Fog Has Cleared