The Caregiver for a Widower A month ago, she was hired to look after Regina White—an Englishwoman bedridden by a stroke. For four weeks she turned her every two hours, changed her sheets, and kept watch over the IVs, never missing a beat. Three days ago, Regina passed away quietly in her sleep. The doctors wrote it off as a second attack—no one to blame. No one, that is, except the caregiver. At least, that’s what Regina’s daughter believed. Zina rubbed the pale scar on her wrist—a faint white line from an old burn at her first job in the NHS. Fifteen years ago, she’d been young and reckless. Now, nearly forty, she was divorced, her son living with her ex-husband, and her reputation hanging by a thread. “You turned up here, too?” Christina, her late patient’s daughter, appeared out of nowhere, hair pulled so tight her temples had gone white, red eyes betraying sleepless nights. For the first time, she looked older than her twenty-five years. “I just wanted to say goodbye,” Zina said, calmly. “Goodbye?” Christina whispered bitterly. “I know what you did. Everyone will know.” She stalked off—to the coffin, to her father who stood, stony-faced, one hand shoved deep in his blazer pocket. Zina didn’t try to explain. She understood: whatever happened, the world would blame her. Two days later, Christina’s post appeared online. “My mother died in mysterious circumstances. The carer we hired may have hastened her passing. The police refuse to investigate, but I won’t rest until the truth comes out.” Three thousand reposts. Sympathetic comments, mostly. And a handful urging people to “find this monster.” Zina read it on the bus home from the GP’s surgery—a former place of work, now closed to her. “Miss Zina Paulson, you must understand,” the head doctor said, not meeting her eyes. “With all this attention, the patients are worried. The staff’s on edge. Just for a while—until things settle down.” Just for a while. Zina knew what that meant. Never. Her flat—one room with kitchen and shower, third floor, no lift—greeted her with silence. Twenty-eight square metres to survive, not to live. Her phone rang as she set the kettle on. “Miss Paulson? This is Ilya White.” The widower. That deep, gravelly voice she remembered from her month with the family. Nearly fifty, grey at the temples, broad-shouldered, stooped more now than before. Always with his right hand shoved in his pocket. She almost dropped the kettle. “I need your help. Regina’s things… I can’t face it. And Christina certainly won’t. You’re the only one who knows where everything is.” She paused. “Your daughter is accusing me of murder. Are you aware?” A long, heavy silence. “I know.” “And still you’re calling me?” “I’m still calling.” She should have refused. Anyone sensible would. But something in his voice—less a request than a plea—made her agree. “Tomorrow at two.” The White family’s house stood just beyond Oxford—a spacious, empty, two-story affair. Zina remembered it differently: nurses bustling, machines beeping, TV always on in Regina’s room. Now, silence and dust. Ilya answered the door. Stooped. He kept his right hand in his pocket—something metallic bulging against the fabric. A key? “Thank you for coming.” “No need to thank me. I’m not here for you.” He arched an eyebrow. “Then for whom?” “For myself,” she thought. “To understand what’s happening, why you’re silent, why you won’t defend me when you know I’m innocent.” Aloud, she said, “To set things in order. Where are the bedroom keys?” Regina’s room smelled of lilies—sweet, heavy, her perfume still clinging to the walls. Zina worked methodically: emptying cupboards, boxing clothes, sorting documents. Ilya remained downstairs, his footsteps echoing from corner to corner. On the bedside table sat a photo. Zina picked it up to pack and froze. Ilya, young—mid-twenties—and beside him, a smiling blonde: not Regina. She flipped the photo. “Ilya & Lara. 1998,” faded ink read. Strange. Why would Regina keep a photo of her husband with another woman by her bed? Zina pocketed the photo and continued. Kneeling by the bed, her fingers brushed something wooden—a box. Not locked. Inside, neat stacks of letters, all in the same feminine hand, all carefully opened and resealed. She picked up the top envelope: Ilya A. White, from L.V. Melnikova, Manchester. Dated November 2024—just last month. She sorted through them—the oldest dated 2004. Twenty years. For twenty years, someone had written to Ilya—letters Regina intercepted. She kept them. Didn’t throw them out—kept them. For what? Zina brought the envelope to her nose—the scent was lilies. Regina held them, read and re-read them, their creases worn thin. Zina placed the box on the bed and sat. Her hands trembled. This changed everything. “Ilya.” She found him as before, sitting at the kitchen table, untouched mug of tea before him. “All done?” “No.” She set an envelope in front of him. “Who is Larissa Melnikova?” His face changed—not pale, but hardening. His hand in his pocket clenched. “Where did you find this?” “Box under the bed. Hundreds, spanning twenty years. All opened and resealed. All hidden by your wife.” He was silent for a long time. Then, turning to the window, he replied in a low voice, “Three days ago, after her funeral, I found the box. I thought I could handle her things alone.” “And you still say nothing?” “What can I say? For twenty years my wife stole my mail. Read letters from the woman I loved before her. Kept them—for trophies, for punishment, who knows? Am I to tell Christina, who idolised her mother?” Zina stood. “Your daughter blames me for killing your wife. I’ve lost my job. The internet is tearing my name apart. And you stay silent—afraid of the truth?” He moved towards her. His eyes were tired, dark. “I stay silent because I don’t know how to live with this. Twenty years, Zina. Larissa wrote—but I thought she’d forgotten me, moved on, had a family. And all along…” He trailed off. Zina lifted another envelope. “Manchester—a return address. I’ll go.” “Why?” “Someone needs to know the truth. If not you, then I will.” …Larissa Melnikova lived in a small Manchester flat, geraniums on the windowsill, a cat stretched in the sun. Zina knocked, unsure what to say. A woman about Ilya’s age answered, light hair knotted loosely, wrinkles by her eyes, wary but not unkind. “You’re Larissa Valerie Melnikova?” “That’s me. And you?” “I found your letters. Every one—opened, read, hidden.” Larissa stared at the envelope as if it might bite. Then looked up. “Come in.” At her tiny kitchen table, the two women sipped at cold tea. “For twenty years I wrote to him.” Larissa faltered. “Monthly, sometimes more. Never a reply. I thought he hated me for…letting him go.” “Letting him go?” She gripped her mug. “We dated three years, since uni. He wanted to marry. I panicked—I was twenty-two, thought I had all the time in the world.” “I said wait. He waited six months. Then Regina appeared—beautiful, certain. I lost.” “When they married, I moved to England, to my aunt. Tried to forget. But after five years, I started writing. Not to win him back—just so he’d know I still cared.” “He never replied, not once.” “Not once.” Larissa’s smile was bitter. “Now I see why.” Zina drew out the photo. “I found this by Regina’s bed. ‘Ilya & Lara. 1998.’” Larissa’s fingers shook as she took the photograph. “She kept it—by her bed?” “Yes.” A long silence. “You know,” Larissa said at last, “I hated her all my life—the woman who stole my love. But now…I pity her.” “Twenty-five years with a man, living in fear he might remember someone else. Reading my letters every day—hiding them. That’s hell. Her own, self-made hell.” Zina stood to leave. “Thank you for your honesty.” “Wait,” said Larissa, rising. “Why does this matter to you? You’re not family, not a friend.” Zina hesitated. “They’re accusing me of her death. Christina thinks I wanted her out of the way—to take her place.” “And you want to prove your innocence?” Zina shook her head. “I just want the truth. The rest will follow.” Zina called Ilya on the way back—“I’m coming home.” He waited out front, the evening sun casting long shadows. “You were right,” said Zina. “She wrote for twenty years. Never married, always waiting.” He said nothing, but his right hand clenched and unclenched. “You’ve something in your safe,” Zina said, nodding to his blazer. “You never let go of the key.” A pause. “This way.” Ilya led her to an old safe in his study. Inside was an envelope, Regina’s handwriting—clumsy, angular. “She left this, two days before she died. I found it while searching for funeral papers.” Zina unfolded the letter. It ran to the margins. “Ilya. If you’re reading this, I’m gone and you’ve found the box. I knew you would, eventually. And still, I couldn’t stop. “I started intercepting her letters in 2004—five years after we married. You’d changed, became distant. I found her first letter, I realised: she never let go. I should have showed you, should have asked. But I was afraid—to lose you, for you to choose her. So I hid it, then the next, and the next… “For twenty years, I stole your mail. Read another’s love, hated myself, but couldn’t stop. “I loved you so much I destroyed everything. Your choice. Her hope. My conscience. “Forgive me, if you can. I don’t deserve it. But I ask anyway. Regina.” Zina lowered the paper. “Does Christina know?” “No.” “She should. You know that?” He turned away. “She idolised her mother. This would break her.” “She’s broken already,” Zina said. “She’s lost her mother, and now fears losing her father—so she lashes out at me. She needs a villain, or she’ll have to face her grief—and you can’t fight grief.” Ilya was silent. “If you tell her the truth, she may hate you for a while. But she’ll understand one day. Hide it, and she’ll never forgive—neither you nor herself.” He finally looked at her, tears in his eyes. “I don’t know how to talk to her. Since Regina fell ill… we stopped speaking.” “Then start learning. Tonight.” Christina arrived an hour later. Zina watched through the window as she stepped from her car, ripped the band from her ponytail, froze at the sight of her father on the porch. Their conversation lasted a long time. At first, Christina shouted; then she sobbed; then came silence. When Christina emerged, holding Regina’s letter, her face was blotchy from crying, and her eyes—no longer wild, but lost. She approached Zina. Zina braced for anger or blame. “I deleted the post,” she said quietly. “Posted a retraction. And… I’m sorry. I was wrong.” Zina nodded. “Grief makes us cruel.” Christina shook her head. “Not grief. Fear. I was terrified of being alone—mum left, then dad became a stranger. And you… You saw mum’s last days, you knew her in a way I didn’t. I thought you wanted to take her place, steal my father.” “I don’t want to steal anyone.” “I know. Now I know.” She offered her hand—awkward, as if she’d forgotten how. Zina shook it. “My mum—she was unhappy, wasn’t she? Her whole life?” Zina thought of the letter, of twenty years of fear and jealousy, of love turned into a cage. “She loved your father. In her way. Not well. But she loved him.” Christina nodded, sat on the steps, and wept quietly. Zina sat beside her, saying nothing, only present. Two weeks passed. The surgery gave Zina her job back—after Christina personally rang, vouching for her. Reputation is fragile, sometimes repairable with effort and truth. Ilya called that evening—his familiar velvet timbre. “Miss Paulson. I called to thank you.” “For what?” “For the truth. For not letting me run from it.” Pause. “I’m going to Manchester tomorrow—to see Larissa. I don’t know what I’ll say, or if she’ll even see me. But… I have to try. Twenty years is too long a silence.” Zina smiled. He couldn’t see, but likely heard. “Good luck, Ilya.” “Ilya. Just Ilya.” A month later, he returned—but not alone. Zina learned of it by accident: spotting them together at the market, Ilya with shopping bags, Larissa choosing tomatoes. An ordinary scene—two people picking out vegetables—but their ease together told another story. Ilya saw her and lifted a hand in greeting. The right hand, out of his pocket. Zina waved back and walked on. That evening, she flung open her little window. Outside, May smelled of lilac and diesel—ordinary. Alive. She thought about Regina—her lilies, her locked box of letters, her love turned prison. About Larissa—twenty years of patience, hope against hope. Ilya—his silence, his hidden key, the man who finally chose. And then she let the thoughts drift. She just sat by the window, listening to the city, waiting—though for what, she didn’t know. Her phone rang. “Miss Paulson? Ilya here. Just Ilya. We’re having dinner—Larissa’s making pie. Care to join us?” Zina looked at her flat—twenty-eight square metres of silence. Then at the open window. “I’ll be there in an hour.” She hung up, took her keys, and stepped outside. The door shut softly behind her, and over London’s rooftops, the sunset flared red and warm—promising a gentler tomorrow…

The Carer for the Widower

A month ago, she had been hired to care for Reggie Williamsa woman left bedridden after a stroke. For thirty days, she turned her every two hours, changed the sheets, monitored the drips.

Three days ago, Reggie passed away. Quietly, in her sleep. The doctors signed off: a second stroke. No one blamed anyone.

No one, that is, except the carer. At least, thats what the deceased womans daughter believed.

Zoe rubbed the thin white scar on her wrista remnant of a burn from her first job at the local surgery. Fifteen years ago, shed been young and careless. Now, close to forty, divorced, and with her son living with her ex-husband, her reputation was on the brink of ruin.

Youve got the nerve to show your face here?

Christina appeared beside her as if out of nowhere. Her hair was yanked into a painfully tight ponytail, her temples pale, eyes bloodshot from lack of sleep. She looked older than her twenty-five years for the first time.

I just wanted to say goodbye, Zoe replied, her voice steady.

Goodbye? Christina hissed. I know what you did. Everyone will know.

She spun on her heel, heading for the coffin, to stand by her father, his face set and his right hand buried in his jacket pocket.

Zoe didnt chase after her. She didnt bother to explain. Shed realised by now: whatever had happened, shed be made the scapegoat.

Christinas post appeared online two days later.

My mother died in mysterious circumstances. The carer we hired may have hastened her death. The police refuse to investigate. But Ill get to the truth.

Three thousand shares. Most comments were supportive. Some called for justice, a few for revenge on the monster.

Zoe read the post on the bus home from the surgerythe place shed once moonlighted.

You understand, Zoe, dont you? the head doctor told her, not meeting her gaze. All this attentionits unsettling for the patients. Everyones nervous. Just until things blow over.

Just until. Zoe knew what that really meant. Never.

Her roomwith its tiny kitchen and combined bathroomgreeted her with silence. Her whole world since the divorce: a twenty-eight square metre flat on the third floor, no lift. Enough to survive, not enough to live.

The phone rang as she set the kettle on.

Zoe Williams? Its Ian Williams.

She nearly dropped the kettle. His voice was low, hoarseshe remembered it. Hed barely spoken to her during the month she cared for Reggie, but when he did, shed listened carefully to every word.

Im listening.

I need your help. With Reggies thingsI cant face it. Christina even less so. Youre the only one who knows where anything is.

Zoe hesitated. Then asked, Your daughters accusing me of murder. Did you know?

A long, heavy pause.

I know.

And still, youre calling?

Im still calling.

She ought to have refused. Any sensible person would have. But something in his voicenot a request, almost a pleamade her respond: Tomorrow, at two.

The Williamss house stood beyond the city, two spacious, empty stories. Zoe remembered it differently, bustling with nurses, beeping monitors, daytime TV murmuring from Reggies room. Now, silence lay over everything like dust.

Ian answered himself. Fifty-ish, greying at the temples, broad-shoulderedthough hed stooped since last month. His right hand stayed in his pocket. The outline of something metal. A key?

Thank you for coming.

No need for thanks. Im not doing this for you.

He raised an eyebrow. Then for whom?

For myself, she thought. To make sense of things. Why wont you speak up? Why wont you defend me, knowing Im innocent?

Out loud, she said, For order. Where are the keys to the room?

Reggies room smelled of lilies of the valleya sweet, cloying fragrance. Perfume. The scent lingered on, soaked into the walls.

Zoe set to work: sorting the wardrobe, folding clothes into boxes, collecting documents. Ian stayed downstairs. She heard his footsteps, circling restlessly.

On the bedside table sat a photograph. Zoe picked it up to put awaythen froze. Ian, in his mid-twenties, stood next to a smiling, fair-haired womannot Reggie.

Zoe turned over the photo. Written on the back, faded: Ian and Laura. 1998.

Strange. Why would Reggie keep her husbands photograph with another woman on her bedside table?

Zoe slipped the photo into her bag and carried on. Kneeling by the bed, reaching under for a boxher fingers grazed something wooden.

A small chest. Unlocked. She opened it.

Insideenvelopes, neatly stacked. Same round, feminine handwriting. All carefully opened and resealed.

Zoe picked up the top one. Addressed to Mr Ian Williams. Sender: L. V. Melton, Bristol.

DateNovember 2024. Last month.

She skimmed through the pile. The oldest, from 2004. Twenty years. Someone had written to Ianall intercepted by Reggie.

And kept. Not thrown awaystored. Why?

Zoe brought an envelope to her nose. That same lily scent. Reggie had held them, read and re-read themthe creased folds revealed as much.

She placed the box on the bed and sat down. Her hands were shaking.

This changed everything.

Ian?

He looked up from the kitchen table, untouched mug before him.

Finished?

No. She slid an envelope across. Who is Laura Melton?

His face set. Not palehard, like stone. His hand in his pocket gripped tighter.

Where did you find this?

In a box under your wifes bed. Hundreds of them from twenty yearsall opened and resealed. All hidden by your wife.

He said nothing, for an agonising span. Then, he got up, moved to the window, turned his back to her.

You knew? Zoe asked.

Only three days ago. After the funeral, sorting through her things. I thought I could handle it. I found the box.

And you say nothing?

What am I supposed to say? He whirled on her. My wife stole my post for twenty years. Stole letters from the woman I loved before her.

Maybe she kept them as trophies. Or as some self-imposed punishment. Now whatshould I tell my daughter? Who worshipped her?

Zoe stood up.

Your daughter blames me for her mothers death. Ive been dismissed. My name trashed online. You stay silentafraid of the truth?

He stepped forward, eyes dark and weary. Im silent because I dont know how to live with this. Twenty years, Zoe. Laura wrote to me. And I thought shed forgotten me. Moved on. Married, settled down. But she

He faltered.

Zoe raised the envelope. Return addressBristol. Ill go.

Why?

Because someone needs to know the truth. If not you, then me.

Laura Melton lived in a council flat on the edge of Bristol. Ground floor, geraniums in the window, a tabby cat sprawled on the sill. Zoe rang, unsure what to say.

The woman who answered couldve been Ians peer. Light hair messy in a knot, smile lines by her eyes, wary but not unkind.

Youre Laura Melton?

I am. And you are?

Zoe handed her the envelope. I found all your letters. Every one. Opened, readand hidden.

Laura stared at the envelope as if it might bite her. Then looked up.

Come in.

They sat in a kitchen as small as Zoes. The tea turned cold.

Twenty years I wrote to him, Laura began, then faltered. Monthly. Often more. Never a reply. Thought he hated mefor letting him go.

Letting him go?

Laura gripped her mug.

We were together three years. From uni. He wanted to marry. Iwas frightened. I was twenty-twothought life was just starting, why rush?

Told him to wait. He did. Half a year. Then she cameReggie. Stunning, confident, knew what she wanted. Ilost.

Zoe gave a sympathetic silence.

When they married, I left for my aunt’s in Bristol, told myself Id forget. Didnt. Five years later, started writingnot to get him back. Justso he knew. That I was there. That I still cared.

He never once replied.

Not once, Laura smiled sadly. Now I know why.

Zoe took the photograph from her bag.

She kept this at her bedside. Ian & Laura, 1998.

Lauras hands shook as she took it.

She keptthis? By her bed?

Exactly.

Silence.

You know, Laura finally said, I hated her all my life. The woman who took my love. NowI pity her.

Imagine, living twenty-five years in fear your husband would remember someone else. Reading my letters every day, hiding them. Thats hell. A hell of her own making.

Zoe stood.

Thank you for telling me.

Wait. Laura rose too. Why are you here? Youre not family. Not a friend.

Zoe hesitated.

Ive been blamed for her death. Ians daughterthinks I killed her to take her place.

And you want to prove your innocence?

Zoe shook her head.

I want to understand the truth. The rest will follow.

She phoned Ian on the way homesaid shed return. He waited on the porch, as the sun went down, tree shadows long across the grass.

You were right, Zoe told him. She wrote you letters for twenty years. Never married, waited for you.

He said nothing. Only his hand in his pocket clenched and unclenched.

Youve something in the safe, Zoe said. You practically guard the key.

Pause.

Come with me.

The safe was in the studyold, heavy. Ian opened it and took out an envelope, handwriting sharp and spikyReggies.

She wrote it two days before she died. I found it while searching for funeral documents.

Zoe opened it. Inside, a handwritten letter, words filling the page.

Ianif youre reading this, then Im gone and youve found the box. I always knew this day would come. And yet, I couldnt stop.

I started intercepting her letters in 2004, five years after we married. You changedbecame distant, withdrawn. I thought you no longer loved me. Then I found the first letter in the post. And I realised.

She never let you go.

I should have shown you that letter. Should have asked you about it. But I was afraid youd leavethat youd choose her. So I hid it. The next one, too. And so on.

For twenty years, I stole your post. For twenty years, I read someone elses love for you. And every day, I hated myself. But I couldnt stop.

I loved you so much I destroyed everything: your right to choose. Her hope. My own conscience.

Forgive me, if you can. I know I dont deserve it. But I still ask.

Reggie.

Zoe folded the letter.

Does Christina know?

No.

She needs to. You know that.

Ian turned away.

She adored her mother. Thiswould break her.

Shes already broken, Zoe said softly. Shes lost her mum and fears losing her dad, so she lashes out, looking for blame.

Ian said nothing.

If you tell her the truth, she may hate youfor a while. But then, she might one day understand. If you stay silent, shell never forgive either of us. Not you. Not herself.

He turned. His eyes were wet.

I dont know how to talk to her. Since Reggies illnesswe barely spoke.

Then learn. Tonight.

Christina arrived an hour later. Zoe watched her from the windowstepping out, pulling at her ponytail, freezing when she saw her father.

They talked for a long time. Zoe heard only voices at firstChristina shouting, then sobbing, then silence.

When Christina emerged, she held Reggies letter. Her face was swollen with tears, but the anger had drainedleaving only loss.

She approached Zoe, who waited for accusations or blame.

Ive deleted my post, Christina said quietly. Written a retraction. And Im sorry. I was wrong.

Zoe nodded.

I understand. Grief can make us cruel.

Christina shook her head.

No, not grief. Fear. I was scared of being left alone. Mum was gone, Dad becamea stranger. And you were there. You saw her last days. You knew her. I thought you wanted her place. To take Dad.

I want nothing to steal.

I know that, now.

Awkwardly, Christina reached out and Zoe squeezed her hand.

Mumshe was unhappy, wasnt she? Christina asked softly. All her life?

Zoe thought of the letter. Twenty years of fear and jealousy. A love turned cage.

She loved your dadin her way. Not always rightly. But she loved him.

Christina nodded, then sat on the step and weptquiet, soundless tears.

Zoe sat beside her. Not hugging, just there.

Two weeks passed.

Zoe got her job backChristina called the head doctor in person. Reputation is fragile, but sometimes it can be mended.

Ian rang one evening, much like he had that first time.

Zoe Williams. I wanted to thank you.

For what?

For the truth. For not letting me hide.

A pause.

Im going to Bristol tomorrow. To see Laura. I dont know what Ill say, or if shell even want to see me. Butafter twenty years, I have to try. Silence can last too long.

Zoe smiled into the phonehe couldnt see it, but perhaps he heard it.

Good luck, Ian.

A month later, he returnedwith company.

Zoe found out by chance, spotting them at the Saturday market. Ian carrying bags, Laura choosing tomatoes. A simple scenetwo people shopping. But their easy togetherness gave away something more.

Ian noticed her, raised his hand in greetingthe right hand, out of his pocket.

Zoe waved back and walked on.

That evening, she opened her window. The dusk of May smelled of lilac and petrolordinary, alive.

She thought of Reggieher lilies, the box of letters, a love turned prison. Of Lauratwenty years of waiting, of hope kept alive. Of Ianhis long silence, the key in his pocket, the man who finally chose.

Then she stopped thinking. Just sat quietly, listening to the city, waiting for somethingshe wasnt sure what.

Her phone rang.

Zoe? Its Ian. Just Ian. Were having dinner here. Lauras making pie. Would you like to join us?

Zoe glanced around her tiny flattwenty-eight square metres of quiet. Then out the open window.

Ill be there in an hour.

She hung up, took her keys, and left.

The door shut with a soft click. Outside, sunset burned over the rooftopsfiery, gentle, promising a peaceful tomorrow.

Sometimes, even after years of heartbreak and misunderstanding, the truth still finds its wayand with it, the chance to begin again.

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The Caregiver for a Widower A month ago, she was hired to look after Regina White—an Englishwoman bedridden by a stroke. For four weeks she turned her every two hours, changed her sheets, and kept watch over the IVs, never missing a beat. Three days ago, Regina passed away quietly in her sleep. The doctors wrote it off as a second attack—no one to blame. No one, that is, except the caregiver. At least, that’s what Regina’s daughter believed. Zina rubbed the pale scar on her wrist—a faint white line from an old burn at her first job in the NHS. Fifteen years ago, she’d been young and reckless. Now, nearly forty, she was divorced, her son living with her ex-husband, and her reputation hanging by a thread. “You turned up here, too?” Christina, her late patient’s daughter, appeared out of nowhere, hair pulled so tight her temples had gone white, red eyes betraying sleepless nights. For the first time, she looked older than her twenty-five years. “I just wanted to say goodbye,” Zina said, calmly. “Goodbye?” Christina whispered bitterly. “I know what you did. Everyone will know.” She stalked off—to the coffin, to her father who stood, stony-faced, one hand shoved deep in his blazer pocket. Zina didn’t try to explain. She understood: whatever happened, the world would blame her. Two days later, Christina’s post appeared online. “My mother died in mysterious circumstances. The carer we hired may have hastened her passing. The police refuse to investigate, but I won’t rest until the truth comes out.” Three thousand reposts. Sympathetic comments, mostly. And a handful urging people to “find this monster.” Zina read it on the bus home from the GP’s surgery—a former place of work, now closed to her. “Miss Zina Paulson, you must understand,” the head doctor said, not meeting her eyes. “With all this attention, the patients are worried. The staff’s on edge. Just for a while—until things settle down.” Just for a while. Zina knew what that meant. Never. Her flat—one room with kitchen and shower, third floor, no lift—greeted her with silence. Twenty-eight square metres to survive, not to live. Her phone rang as she set the kettle on. “Miss Paulson? This is Ilya White.” The widower. That deep, gravelly voice she remembered from her month with the family. Nearly fifty, grey at the temples, broad-shouldered, stooped more now than before. Always with his right hand shoved in his pocket. She almost dropped the kettle. “I need your help. Regina’s things… I can’t face it. And Christina certainly won’t. You’re the only one who knows where everything is.” She paused. “Your daughter is accusing me of murder. Are you aware?” A long, heavy silence. “I know.” “And still you’re calling me?” “I’m still calling.” She should have refused. Anyone sensible would. But something in his voice—less a request than a plea—made her agree. “Tomorrow at two.” The White family’s house stood just beyond Oxford—a spacious, empty, two-story affair. Zina remembered it differently: nurses bustling, machines beeping, TV always on in Regina’s room. Now, silence and dust. Ilya answered the door. Stooped. He kept his right hand in his pocket—something metallic bulging against the fabric. A key? “Thank you for coming.” “No need to thank me. I’m not here for you.” He arched an eyebrow. “Then for whom?” “For myself,” she thought. “To understand what’s happening, why you’re silent, why you won’t defend me when you know I’m innocent.” Aloud, she said, “To set things in order. Where are the bedroom keys?” Regina’s room smelled of lilies—sweet, heavy, her perfume still clinging to the walls. Zina worked methodically: emptying cupboards, boxing clothes, sorting documents. Ilya remained downstairs, his footsteps echoing from corner to corner. On the bedside table sat a photo. Zina picked it up to pack and froze. Ilya, young—mid-twenties—and beside him, a smiling blonde: not Regina. She flipped the photo. “Ilya & Lara. 1998,” faded ink read. Strange. Why would Regina keep a photo of her husband with another woman by her bed? Zina pocketed the photo and continued. Kneeling by the bed, her fingers brushed something wooden—a box. Not locked. Inside, neat stacks of letters, all in the same feminine hand, all carefully opened and resealed. She picked up the top envelope: Ilya A. White, from L.V. Melnikova, Manchester. Dated November 2024—just last month. She sorted through them—the oldest dated 2004. Twenty years. For twenty years, someone had written to Ilya—letters Regina intercepted. She kept them. Didn’t throw them out—kept them. For what? Zina brought the envelope to her nose—the scent was lilies. Regina held them, read and re-read them, their creases worn thin. Zina placed the box on the bed and sat. Her hands trembled. This changed everything. “Ilya.” She found him as before, sitting at the kitchen table, untouched mug of tea before him. “All done?” “No.” She set an envelope in front of him. “Who is Larissa Melnikova?” His face changed—not pale, but hardening. His hand in his pocket clenched. “Where did you find this?” “Box under the bed. Hundreds, spanning twenty years. All opened and resealed. All hidden by your wife.” He was silent for a long time. Then, turning to the window, he replied in a low voice, “Three days ago, after her funeral, I found the box. I thought I could handle her things alone.” “And you still say nothing?” “What can I say? For twenty years my wife stole my mail. Read letters from the woman I loved before her. Kept them—for trophies, for punishment, who knows? Am I to tell Christina, who idolised her mother?” Zina stood. “Your daughter blames me for killing your wife. I’ve lost my job. The internet is tearing my name apart. And you stay silent—afraid of the truth?” He moved towards her. His eyes were tired, dark. “I stay silent because I don’t know how to live with this. Twenty years, Zina. Larissa wrote—but I thought she’d forgotten me, moved on, had a family. And all along…” He trailed off. Zina lifted another envelope. “Manchester—a return address. I’ll go.” “Why?” “Someone needs to know the truth. If not you, then I will.” …Larissa Melnikova lived in a small Manchester flat, geraniums on the windowsill, a cat stretched in the sun. Zina knocked, unsure what to say. A woman about Ilya’s age answered, light hair knotted loosely, wrinkles by her eyes, wary but not unkind. “You’re Larissa Valerie Melnikova?” “That’s me. And you?” “I found your letters. Every one—opened, read, hidden.” Larissa stared at the envelope as if it might bite. Then looked up. “Come in.” At her tiny kitchen table, the two women sipped at cold tea. “For twenty years I wrote to him.” Larissa faltered. “Monthly, sometimes more. Never a reply. I thought he hated me for…letting him go.” “Letting him go?” She gripped her mug. “We dated three years, since uni. He wanted to marry. I panicked—I was twenty-two, thought I had all the time in the world.” “I said wait. He waited six months. Then Regina appeared—beautiful, certain. I lost.” “When they married, I moved to England, to my aunt. Tried to forget. But after five years, I started writing. Not to win him back—just so he’d know I still cared.” “He never replied, not once.” “Not once.” Larissa’s smile was bitter. “Now I see why.” Zina drew out the photo. “I found this by Regina’s bed. ‘Ilya & Lara. 1998.’” Larissa’s fingers shook as she took the photograph. “She kept it—by her bed?” “Yes.” A long silence. “You know,” Larissa said at last, “I hated her all my life—the woman who stole my love. But now…I pity her.” “Twenty-five years with a man, living in fear he might remember someone else. Reading my letters every day—hiding them. That’s hell. Her own, self-made hell.” Zina stood to leave. “Thank you for your honesty.” “Wait,” said Larissa, rising. “Why does this matter to you? You’re not family, not a friend.” Zina hesitated. “They’re accusing me of her death. Christina thinks I wanted her out of the way—to take her place.” “And you want to prove your innocence?” Zina shook her head. “I just want the truth. The rest will follow.” Zina called Ilya on the way back—“I’m coming home.” He waited out front, the evening sun casting long shadows. “You were right,” said Zina. “She wrote for twenty years. Never married, always waiting.” He said nothing, but his right hand clenched and unclenched. “You’ve something in your safe,” Zina said, nodding to his blazer. “You never let go of the key.” A pause. “This way.” Ilya led her to an old safe in his study. Inside was an envelope, Regina’s handwriting—clumsy, angular. “She left this, two days before she died. I found it while searching for funeral papers.” Zina unfolded the letter. It ran to the margins. “Ilya. If you’re reading this, I’m gone and you’ve found the box. I knew you would, eventually. And still, I couldn’t stop. “I started intercepting her letters in 2004—five years after we married. You’d changed, became distant. I found her first letter, I realised: she never let go. I should have showed you, should have asked. But I was afraid—to lose you, for you to choose her. So I hid it, then the next, and the next… “For twenty years, I stole your mail. Read another’s love, hated myself, but couldn’t stop. “I loved you so much I destroyed everything. Your choice. Her hope. My conscience. “Forgive me, if you can. I don’t deserve it. But I ask anyway. Regina.” Zina lowered the paper. “Does Christina know?” “No.” “She should. You know that?” He turned away. “She idolised her mother. This would break her.” “She’s broken already,” Zina said. “She’s lost her mother, and now fears losing her father—so she lashes out at me. She needs a villain, or she’ll have to face her grief—and you can’t fight grief.” Ilya was silent. “If you tell her the truth, she may hate you for a while. But she’ll understand one day. Hide it, and she’ll never forgive—neither you nor herself.” He finally looked at her, tears in his eyes. “I don’t know how to talk to her. Since Regina fell ill… we stopped speaking.” “Then start learning. Tonight.” Christina arrived an hour later. Zina watched through the window as she stepped from her car, ripped the band from her ponytail, froze at the sight of her father on the porch. Their conversation lasted a long time. At first, Christina shouted; then she sobbed; then came silence. When Christina emerged, holding Regina’s letter, her face was blotchy from crying, and her eyes—no longer wild, but lost. She approached Zina. Zina braced for anger or blame. “I deleted the post,” she said quietly. “Posted a retraction. And… I’m sorry. I was wrong.” Zina nodded. “Grief makes us cruel.” Christina shook her head. “Not grief. Fear. I was terrified of being alone—mum left, then dad became a stranger. And you… You saw mum’s last days, you knew her in a way I didn’t. I thought you wanted to take her place, steal my father.” “I don’t want to steal anyone.” “I know. Now I know.” She offered her hand—awkward, as if she’d forgotten how. Zina shook it. “My mum—she was unhappy, wasn’t she? Her whole life?” Zina thought of the letter, of twenty years of fear and jealousy, of love turned into a cage. “She loved your father. In her way. Not well. But she loved him.” Christina nodded, sat on the steps, and wept quietly. Zina sat beside her, saying nothing, only present. Two weeks passed. The surgery gave Zina her job back—after Christina personally rang, vouching for her. Reputation is fragile, sometimes repairable with effort and truth. Ilya called that evening—his familiar velvet timbre. “Miss Paulson. I called to thank you.” “For what?” “For the truth. For not letting me run from it.” Pause. “I’m going to Manchester tomorrow—to see Larissa. I don’t know what I’ll say, or if she’ll even see me. But… I have to try. Twenty years is too long a silence.” Zina smiled. He couldn’t see, but likely heard. “Good luck, Ilya.” “Ilya. Just Ilya.” A month later, he returned—but not alone. Zina learned of it by accident: spotting them together at the market, Ilya with shopping bags, Larissa choosing tomatoes. An ordinary scene—two people picking out vegetables—but their ease together told another story. Ilya saw her and lifted a hand in greeting. The right hand, out of his pocket. Zina waved back and walked on. That evening, she flung open her little window. Outside, May smelled of lilac and diesel—ordinary. Alive. She thought about Regina—her lilies, her locked box of letters, her love turned prison. About Larissa—twenty years of patience, hope against hope. Ilya—his silence, his hidden key, the man who finally chose. And then she let the thoughts drift. She just sat by the window, listening to the city, waiting—though for what, she didn’t know. Her phone rang. “Miss Paulson? Ilya here. Just Ilya. We’re having dinner—Larissa’s making pie. Care to join us?” Zina looked at her flat—twenty-eight square metres of silence. Then at the open window. “I’ll be there in an hour.” She hung up, took her keys, and stepped outside. The door shut softly behind her, and over London’s rooftops, the sunset flared red and warm—promising a gentler tomorrow…