Onward
Mornings in Margaret Wilkinson’s flat always began the same. The kettle went onto the hob, two teaspoons of loose leaf tea into the bulbous old teapot shed cherished since her children were little and the world felt wide open. As the water heated, she switched on the radio in the kitchen and listened to the morning news, half-absorbed in the familiar voices of the presentersvoices she knew better than she knew most faces these days.
On the wall, a clock hung with yellow hands ticking reliably on. Beneath it sat the once-busy landline phone. There was a time it rattled loud every evening, friends calling to chat about the latest soap or compare their blood pressure. Now, her friends were either unwell, off visiting family in distant towns, or sometimes gone entirely. The phone sat heavy in the corner with its receiver fitting comfortingly in her palmMargaret would stroke it as she passed, as if checking whether this link to the outside world was still alive.
Her children called on their mobiles. Rather, she knew they were always calling each other, because whenever they visited, those gadgets rarely left their hands. Her son could drift out of a conversation mid-sentence, gaze fixed on the screen, mutter, “Hang on,” and tap away furiously. Her granddaughter, Alicea wraith of a girl, always with a long ponytailalmost never let hers go, fulfilling her social life, games, studying, and listening to music all in that little device. It seemed everyone else lived inside their phones.
Margaret herself had an old brick of a mobile, the kind with buttons. Her children bought it after her first blood pressure scare landed her in hospital.
“So we can always get through,” her son had said.
The phone lay in a grey case in the hall. Sometimes she forgot to charge it. Sometimes it got buried under scarves and receipts at the bottom of her bag. When it did ring, it was so rare that Margaret often fumbled with the right button, scolding herself later for slow reactions.
That day marked her seventy-fifth birthdaya number that didnt feel hers. She felt more like sixty-five inside. Maybe, on a good day, even sixty. But one cant argue with the passport. The morning followed its usual rhythm: tea, radio, a brief round of exercise for her joints, as demonstrated long ago by the GP. She pulled from the fridge a salad shed prepared the day before, set out a cake, and waited. The children were meant to arrive by two.
She still found it odd that birthdays these days were discussed not over the phone, but in a mysterious “chat.” Her son once explained:
“We sort everything out in the family chat with Charlotte. Ill show you sometime.”
But he never did. To Margaret, the word “chat” sounded like something from another reality, a place where people lived in tiny windows and spoke in letters.
At two, the Wilkinson branch arrived. First grandson Oliver crashed into the hall, backpack and headphones slung over, followed quietly by Alice. Then came her son Michael and daughter-in-law Charlotte, laden with shopping bags. Suddenly, the flat filled with noise, the scent of bakery goods, Charlottes perfume, and a quick, fresh sort of aroma Margaret couldnt place.
“Happy birthday, Mum,” Michael said, giving her a swift, almost businesslike hug.
Gifts piled on the table. Flowers went into a vase. Alice asked immediately for the WiFi password. Michael grimaced, fished a slip of paper out of his pocket, and dictated a cryptic string of letters and numbers that left Margarets head ringing.
“Gran, why dont you ever join the chat?” Oliver asked, slipping off his trainers and heading into the kitchen. “Thats where everything happens.”
“What chat?” she brushed off, pushing a plate of cake his way. “My old phones plenty for me.”
“Mum,” Charlotte chimed in, glancing at Michael, “actually, thats a good segue Weve got you a present.”
Michael pulled out a neat little box. White, shiny, with a bright pattern. Margarets stomach tightened. She could guess what was inside.
“Its a smartphone,” Michael announced, as if prescribing pills. “Decent, not flashy but solid. Camera, internet, all the essentials.”
“What on earth for?” she asked, maintaining a steady voice.
“Mum, reallyso we can video call you,” Charlotte explained, sounding as breezy as ever. “We do everything in our family chat, share photos, news… Plus, you said booking appointments and checking bills at the surgery is a pain. Its easier now.”
“I manage” Margaret started, catching Michaels restrained sigh.
“Itll put our minds at ease,” he said. “If anything comes up, you message or we message. No fiddling about with your old mobile and hunting for the green button.”
He smiled apologetically, softening the words. Still, she felt the sting. Remember where the green button is Like she was already beyond it.
“All right,” she said, looking down at the box. “If you must.”
They opened it together, as they had done with childrens gifts long ago. Only now, the children were towering adults, and she felt more the student at exam time than the lady of the house. Inside was a sleek black rectangle, cold and slippery. No physical buttons on its face.
“Its all touch,” Oliver explained, running his finger over the screen. Icons bloomed, glowing. Margaret blinked. The device seemed sly, ready to demand codes, logins, and other newfangled tricks.
“Dont fret,” said Alice gently. “Well set it up. Just dont start poking things until we explain.”
Oddly, that stung most of all. “Dont poke things.” Like a toddler forbidden from touching the china.
After lunch, the whole clan moved to the lounge, where Michael sat beside her, smartphone on her lap.
“Right, pay attention,” he started. “That’s the power button. Press and hold. See? You get a welcome screen, then the lock screen. To unlock, just swipe your finger. There you go.”
He moved too fast, leaving a jumble in her mind. Power, lock, swipe. It might as well have been French.
“Wait,” she said. “Slow down. Ill forget all this.”
“Youll get used to it,” he assured. “Its straightforward, honest.”
She nodded, but knew shed need time. Needed to accept the world had moved into these shiny rectanglesand now she had to squeeze in.
By evening, her new phone was loaded: childrens numbers, grandchildren, her neighbour Mrs Valentine, and Dr Turner at the surgery. Michael installed a messaging app, made her an account, added her to the family chat, even set an extra-large font.
“Lookthis is our chat,” he showed her. “We type things here. Ill send something now.”
He tapped a message. On screen, it popped up as if by magic. Then a reply from Charlotte: “Hooray, Mums finally here!” Alice followed with a flurry of colourful emojis.
“So how do I?” she asked. “How do I reply?”
“Tap here,” Michael pointed. “Keyboard appears. Type. Or, if you fancy, use voice messagesjust press the mic and talk.”
She tried. Her fingers wobbled. Instead of “Thanks,” she typed “Tankss.” Michael chuckled, so did Charlotte. Alice sent another spray of emojis.
“Dont worry,” said Michael, seeing her tense. “Everyone slips up at first.”
Margaret nodded, shame prickling nonetheless. Like shed failed an easy quiz.
After the family left, silence crept back. On the table: leftover cake, flowers in the vase, the smartphone box. The device lay nearby, screen down. She turned it over, pressed the side button. The screen glimmered gently, showing the photo Alice pickeda snap of the whole family at last years Christmas. Margaret glimpsed herself, blue dress and doubtful eyebrow, as if wondering then: should I really be in this crowd?
She slowly swiped the screen. Icons blinked up: phone, messages, camera, and more. She remembered Michaels advice: “Dont press unless you know.” But what counted as “knowing”?
She set the smartphone back down, opting to wash up. It could settle in for now. Get used to the flat.
Next morning she rose early. Instinctively, she checked the new phone. It still felt like an intruder. Yesterdays fright had fadeda little. It was just an object, after all. She had learned to use the microwave (she was terrified that would explode once, too).
She made tea, sat by the kitchen window, drew the smartphone close, switched it on, hand sweaty. Again, the Christmas photo. Swiped the screen. Icons. She found the green “phone” iconat least, something familiarand pressed.
Her contacts appeared: Michael, Charlotte, Alice, Oliver, Mrs Valentine, Dr Turner. She chose Michael, pressed the button. It whirred, stripes flickered. She held the phone to her ear, as she would a landline, and waited.
“Hello?” Michael sounded surprised. “Mum? Is everything okay?”
“All fine,” she answered, oddly proud. “Just checking. It works.”
“You see?” he laughed. “Told you so. Well done. But call on the app next timeits cheaper.”
“How do I do that?”
“Ill show you later, Im at work.”
She hung up, found the red “end call” button. Her heart thudded, like after brisk walking. But shed done it. Without help.
A couple hours later, her first message pinged in the family chat. The phone bleeped, screen lit up; she flinched. It read: “Alice: How are you, Gran?” Below, a tiny box beckoned for a reply.
She stared long, pressed it at last. The keyboard appeared. Letters small, but decipherable. She typed: “All fine. Having tea.” “Fine” came out “fie,” but she sent it anyway.
Alice responded in moments: “Awesome! You did it yourself?” Heart emoji followed.
Margaret realised she was smiling. Her words, in their thread. Hersnot just others.
That evening, Mrs Valentine popped in with homemade raspberry jam.
“So, I hear the young ones gave you that, ah clever phone,” she said, pulling off her shoes.
“Smartphone,” Margaret replied with cautious pride.
“Does it bite?” the neighbour teased.
“So far it just beeps,” Margaret sighed. “No buttons. Everythings different.”
“My grandsons always going on about itsays I need one too. I keep thinking, Im too old. Let them play with their internet.”
That word”too old”jabbed at Margaret. Shed thought the same. But there, on her table, lay proof to the contrary: not too late. She might as well try.
Two days later, Michael rang to say hed booked her doctors appointment online.
“Online?” she asked.
“On the Government Gateway,” he said. “Thats how its done now. Actually, you can log in yourselfI wrote your code and password on a slip. Its in the drawer under the phone.”
Margaret found the notenumbers and letters meticulously pennedand held it as she would a prescription. Clear in theory; mysterious in practice.
Next morning, she steeled herself, switched on the smartphone, found the browser icon Michael had briefly shown her, carefully typed the web address from the slip. Each character demanded concentration. Mistook symbols twice, erased, tried again. At last, the site loadedblue and white bars, plenty of buttons.
“Enter login,” she read aloud. “Password.”
The login, she managed. The password, a jumble. Letters and figures, all mixed. The keyboard flickered, kept vanishing. She hit the wrong place, wiped the whole field. She cursed softlyshocked at her own irritation.
Finally, she put the phone aside and picked up the landline. Phoned Michael.
“I cant figure this out,” she grumbled. “These passwords are impossible.”
“Dont get worked up, Mum,” he soothed. “Ill pop in tonight, walk you through it again.”
“Youre always popping in and explaining,” she replied, surprising herself with sharpness. “Then you go, and its just me staring at it all over again.”
A pause. “I know,” Michael said. “But you know how busy work gets. ListenIll bring Oliver. He explains tech better than me.”
She agreed, but setting down the receiver, she felt heavya burden who always needed tech rescue.
That evening, Oliver came over, kicked off trainers, joined her on the sofa.
“Right then, Gran. Show me whats got you stuck.”
She opened the site, pointed to the screen.
“Its all far too complicated,” she admitted. “Words, buttons Im afraid Ill break something.”
“Theres nothing to break,” Oliver shrugged. “Worst case, you log out. Then we log you in again.”
His tone was patient; fingers danced across the touchscreen with easy confidence. He showed her the layout, toggling the language, finding her appointments.
“Seeheres your booking. If you need to cancel, just tap here.”
“But what if I cancel by accident?”
“Book again, no drama,” Oliver grinned. “Its an easy fix.”
Margaret nodded. For him, perhaps. For her, each click felt momentous.
After he left, she sat long, turning the phone in her hands. It was as though the little screen tested her, one hurdle after anotherlogin, password, “connection error.” The world used to be simple: phone, arrange, visit. Now it needed navigating digital mazes.
A week later, disaster struck with her GP booking. Shed woken groggy, unsteady, blood pressure fluctuating. Her appointment was the day after tomorrow. She tried to check the time on the siteno sign of her name.
Heart sinking, she scrolled frantically. Nothing. Had she pressed something wrong last night? Remembered experimenting, just to see how cancellation workedperhaps she had tapped the wrong option.
She thought about calling Michael, but his busy week loomed. She pictured him, flustered, fielding her call at the office: “Sorry, thats mum again, confused with the phone.” The image made her wince.
Instead, she sat quietly, breathing, reminded of Oliver. But he had college. She was determined not to call for help.
She regarded the smartphone. Both a nemesis and, possibly, her salvation. She reopened the site, logged into her account, hands trembling.
Her booking, vanished. She closed her eyes, breathed deep, tapped “Book Appointment.” Doctors appeared. She picked GP, chose a datethe closest was three days out. Morning slot. She tapped Confirm and waited, holding her breath.
The screen paused, reported: You are booked. Her surname, date, and time. Margaret read it thrice. Relief opened in her chest. Shed done itunaided.
To be sure, she tried something else. Opened the chat app, found Dr Turners threadMichael had added the contact once. She stared at the microphone, gathered herself, tapped, and spoke.
“Hello, this is Margaret Wilkinson. My blood pressures been oddI rebooked online for the morning after next. If thats alright, please check.”
She released the button. The message sent, with a tick. Silence reigned. Minutes later, the phone beepedreply from Dr Turner, in block letters: “GOT IT, SEE YOU THEN. IF IT WORSENS, CALL STRAIGHT AWAY.”
She felt her anxiety ebb. Booking sorted, the doctor informed. All through that unassuming black rectangle.
That evening, she messaged the family chat: “Booked doctor myself online.” Still a typo, but she left it. The message mattered more.
First came Alice: “Wow! Youre ahead of me.” Next, Charlotte: “Mum, brilliant, I’m proud of you.” Finally, Michael: “Told you, youd get there.”
Margaret read and reread the responses, feeling a quiet stretch within her. She was no social media queen, but shed woven a slim thread between them and herself. She could tug it, and know someone would answer.
After the smooth GP visit, she decided a new challenge was due. Alice had chatted about sharing silly photosfood, cats, random stuffwith her mates. Margaret had found it daft, even ridiculous, but envied the fact: their days joined up with pictures, while hers were limited to the radio and a window onto the street.
On a sunlit afternoon, glass jars of seedlings gleaming on the windowsill, she picked up the smartphone and opened the camera. Her kitchen appeared on screen, boxed in digital borders. She moved closer to the jars, tapped the button. A gentle click sounded.
It wasnt the sharpest photo, but decent enough: green shoots emerging from soil, sunlight striping across the table. She stared at it. The tiny plants reminded her of herself, reaching for something brighter through the heavy dark earth.
She posted the picture to the family chat, typing: “My tomatoes growing.” Sent it.
Replies arrived in a burst. Alice sent a photo of her desk swamped in textbooks. Charlotte showed off a salad: “Learning from you!” Michael snapped a grin from his office: “Mums tomatoes or my reportswhich wins?”
Margaret laughed aloud. The kitchen, emptied of voices, felt alive. As if several loved ones crowded round the table, spread across England but all present.
Not everything went smoothly. Once, she accidentally broadcast herself grumbling about the news to the whole chat, thinking she was practising the mic. The grandkids roared; Michael said, “Mum, youre a natural radio host.” Margaret cringed, then joined the laughter. Why not? Her real voice, no less.
She mixed up chats, sometimes sending private questions to everyone. Like, “How do you delete a photo?” in the group chatreceiving precise instructions from Oliver, a “No clue!” from Alice, and a meme from Charlotte: “Mum, youre trending!”
She still blundered about. Software updates made her nervous”Update system” always seemed threatening, suggesting her hard-won habits would be replaced.
Yet, over time, the fear faded. She found herself able to check bus timetables, weather forecastsnot only via the radio, but with a tap. Once, she searched up a cake recipe her own mother used, eyes growing misty at the familiar list.
She didnt write about this. She baked the cake, snapped a photo, added it to the chat: “Remembered Nans way.” The replies came with hearts, exclamations, and requests for the recipe. She photographed her handwritten list and sent that too.
At some point, she realised she glanced at the old landline less and less. It remained, hanging in the hall, but was no longer her lifeline to the world. Now, she had an invisible string, strong as ever.
One darkening evening, as windows lit across neighbouring flats, Margaret read the family chat. Photos from Michaels work, Alices selfies, Olivers jokes, Charlottes news. Sprinkled among theirs, her own posts: tomatoes, a voice recipe, medicine advice.
She recognised she was no longer just a spectator. Shed never quite catch all Alice and Olivers slang, nor send emojis at their speed. But her replies were seen; her questions answered; her snapshots “liked,” as Charlotte said.
The phone chimednew message. Alice: “Gran, algebra test tomorrow. Can I call and moan after?”
Margaret smiled, typing slowly but carefully: “Ring me anytime. I always listen.” Sent.
She set the smartphone by her tea mug. The flat was quiet, but the quiet felt full. Out there, past bricks and streets, her messages and calls waited for her. She might not join “the young ones scene,” as Oliver joked, but shed claimed her own place in this world of screens.
She finished her tea, tidied up, switched the kitchen light off, pausing to look once more at the phone. The small black rectangle sat peacefully. She knew now, with a touch, she could reach her family whenever she wished.
That, for now, was all she needed.
Today, I learned that sometimes, even an unfamiliar door leads you closer to those you loveand all it takes is the courage to push it open.












