I managed to get my mother-in-law back on her feet. But Im still fuming because I never weeded the vegetable beds.
What on earth do you think youre doing? My mother-in-law bellowed, standing right in the middle of the parsnip patches. Never in all my years has there been such disgrace here! I never needed to hide behind a child, you knowI raised seven of my own, and not a single weed ever dared show its face!
Her shouting had already attracted the neighbours. They pressed themselves to the garden gate like a flock of jackdaws, whispering about everything they overheard. Seeing her audience, my mother-in-law reveled in her performance. The things she said, I can barely recall it now, I was so stunned. She only paused for breath when wearied by her own noise, then announced, loudly and clearly so all in the terrace could hear:
I said nothing. I walked quietly past her, hugging my son tighter in my arms. Once inside the house, I went to the wardrobe, packed everything my mother-in-law was meant to take that evening and the next morning into a special box. Without bothering to fold them, I threw both my son’s and my own clothes into a bag. I left the house without a single word to her.
Three days later, she rang:
What did you do with all those things the doctor put together for me? I asked Mrs. Carter next door to buy a few bits, but she said one jar cost a small fortune. And the rest, well, theyre all labelled in some foreign languageno one here will take them or swap them for anything useful. So what am I supposed to do? Youve gone off in a sulk, over who knows what, and now Im left here to meet my maker?
Again, I said nothing. I turned off my phone, took out the SIM card, and left it. That was it. I couldnt go on, not in mind or body.
A year earlier, just before my son was born, my husband lost control of his car on a slippery lane. I only half remember how I followed the ambulance taking him away, how I said my last goodbye, and then, by morning, I was suddenly a mother. I didnt want to do anything; nothing around me mattered without my beloved husband. I fed and rocked my baby simply because I was told to.
The phone call that jolted me was brief.
Your mother-in-laws not well. Word is she wont survive long after her son.
I made my decision at once. I moved out straight away and sold my flat in London. I put aside some of the money to build a new home, so my son might have something of his own one day. Then I went to look after my mother-in-law.
That year, I didnt liveI merely existed.
Sleep was almost a luxury; I spent every waking hour tending to her and my restless son. My mother-in-law needed me at all times, day and night.
Thank goodness I had the funds. I found the finest specialists from across the country to come and examine her. I bought every medicine prescribed, and eventually she returned to her former self. At first, I wheeled her around the parlour, then into the garden. By summers end, she was strong enough to walk without helpthen things changed.
I have no wish to know or hear from her anymore. Let her figure out what she needs for her health on her own. At least, I had the sense not to spend every last penny on her. My son and I now live in our new flat. I never expected our lives to look like this.
I thought I might belong in my husbands mothers home, as I am an orphan myself. But now I see I already belongto myself and my son. He must learn this: not everyone is worthy of kindness. Some people care more about a tidy vegetable patch than those who care for them.












