The last time I saw my son was over six years ago.
How long has it been since you last spoke with your son? I asked my neighbour. In that moment, my heart just broke.
Its been six years since I last saw him. After he left with his wife, hed call me once in a while, at least at the beginning. But then, gradually, he stopped keeping in touch. There was a birthday onceI bought him a cake and went round to visit She dropped her gaze and tears welled in her eyes.
What happened then?
My daughter-in-law answered the door and told me I wasnt welcome in their home. My son just looked at melike Id done something wrongand then looked away. That was the last time I saw him.
He hasnt rung you since? I could hardly believe what I was hearing.
I tried calling him once, when I decided to sell my three-bedroom flat and buy something smaller. Of course, I gave him a bit of money from the sale. He came round, signed the paperwork, took the money, and that was itnever phoned me again.
Do you feel lonely, or have you made peace with being on your own? I asked the old lady.
Oh, Im alright! When I was much younger, I was left alone with my son after my husband walked out on us for another woman. I raised my boy by myself. He grew up surrounded by love and care. Later, he told me he wanted to rent a place of his own. To be honest, at first I was pleasedI thought it meant hed grown up and wanted some independence.
But really, it was all about his girlfriend. She was the one who insisted they should have their own flat, so no one interfered with their fun. And then she fell pregnant.
You tell me this so easily. Arent you hurt that your sons left you all alone in your old age? I was taken aback.
Ive grown used to it. I enjoy living in a new block. I have enough money for what I need. Each morning, I wake up, pop the kettle on, and go out on my balcony to sip my tea. I love watching the city wake up. When I was younger, all I dreamed of was a decent nights sleepI was always working two shifts. I had hoped to grow old surrounded by family, but I suppose solitude was simply meant for me.
Why dont you get a pet? It might be livelier with two.
You know, love, even cats sometimes leave their owners behind. And I cant take on a dogwho knows if Ill even wake up the next morning? I couldnt look after someone I might not be able to protect. Ive already made enough foolish choices in my life…
She tried to hold her head high, but after a moment she gave in, and tears slipped quietly down her face.
