On Christmas Eve, I set the table for two, even though I knew Id be sitting alone. I took out the pair of crystal glasses from the cupboard, placing them gently beside each other, then stepped back and inspected the arrangement. Two place settings. Two plates. Two starched napkins, crisp as new. As if, at any moment, he might walk in, say it was time to sit down, mention the chill outside, and remind me that Christmas waits for no one.
But he wasnt coming through that door. Hes been gone for a year now. The house was silent, save for the occasional hum from the radiator. My phone was equally quiet. My daughter wouldnt be visiting. The grandchildren wouldnt be calling either.
I ran my hand slowly along the white tablecloth embroidered with daisies. Id sewn it myself back in my youth. He used to say it reminded him of my eyesbefore the years placed their lines. I smiled, just for a momentthe first real smile of the day.
I cooked his favourite dishes. Not because anyone would arrive, but because it’s what Ive always done. Because my heart isnt ready to accept that the seat across from me is empty, and always will be.
I sat down and admired the table. It was beautiful, as it always was at Christmas. My mind wandered back to our last holiday together. He was frail but managed to sit opposite me, offering a gentle smile. He told me not to shut myself away when he was gone. To live. Not to give up.
Id made that promise.
The clock ticked on. Lights glittered in the street outside. Laughter rang up and down the lane; I saw children dashing through the frosty patch of snow. There was celebration somewhere out there just not in my softly lit sitting room.
Much later, the phone finally rang. A cheerful, hurried conversation, no time for questions or long chats. Then silence returned, settling in beside me.
I picked up the glass from his place, raised it gently, and whispered thanksfor all the years, for the love, for having belonged to someone and being loved in return.
Afterwards, I began to clear the table, slowly and calmly. The sort of careful tidying you do for something you know wont happen again.
I sat by the window in the dark. Outside, Christmas carried on. Indoors, only memories lingered. The table was set for two. But one place remained empty.
Have you ever set a place for someone who wont be coming backnot because you believe theyll walk through the door, but because your heart cant quite bring itself to let go?












