Not Expected
Our dad left for work somewhere and disappeared completely when I was in Year Five and my sister was just starting Year One. Before that, hed just vanished for months at a time, drifting from city to city, always coming back with pockets full of cash and bags of presents. He and mum never marriedhe was very much his own man, always restless. Mum put up with it, though, because she adored him, completely and utterly.
Come home soon, Stephen, shed beg.
Oh, dont get teary. Wait for me, Ill have presents, hed reply, giving her a quick kiss before vanishing again.
When he was away, it was Dads brother Uncle Colin who watched over us. I think he liked Mumthough he never said anything and never showed it. But we could always rely on him.
Hows things, Theresa? Uncle Colin would ask, popping his head round to check up. How are the little ones?
Yaaay, Uncle Colins here! Id yell and race over for a hug.
Good to see you, Daniel, hed say, squeezing me briefly.
Honestly, I sometimes wished he was my real father. On weekends, Uncle Colin took us out for walks while Mum had a break. Sometimes she joined in, but more often shed stay home and contemplate her endlessly complicated life.
As I got older, Uncle Colin brought a climbing frame home and installed it in our hallway. By then, Dad hadnt been home in half a year. I helped him bolt everything together while my sister, Sophie, watched with her arms folded, studying how deftly he fitted the bar, the rope, and the rings.
Uncle Colin, why arent you married? Youre handy enoughany woman would snap you up for those golden hands, Sophie commented, her childish wisdom echoing things shed overheard from Mum and her friends.
No ones caught my eye, Sophie. If someone does, Ill marry them.
And you dont want kids of your own? Sophie spread her arms dramatically.
Colin paused his work and answered seriously, You two are plenty for now. What, trying to get rid of me already? squinting playfully at her.
Me? Never, she replied, eyes wide and innocent. Youre always welcome here.
That night, I said to her, Why were you teasing him? He might take offence and stop visiting.
But Dad brings presents Sophie said, dreamy-eyed. Hell be back soon, I bet.
Youre so daft. You’re bought off by gifts. Do you know how much this kit he brought cost?
I dont care about that. I want dresses, dolls. Im not a monkey to swing about on your climbing frame.
But this time, Sophie waited for Dad in vain. He didnt come back. One day, Uncle Colin appeared and closed himself off in the kitchen with Mum. He explained something to her while Mum wept bitterly.
Come on, Theresa, dont cry. Im not leaving. You know what hes likealways chasing whatevers easier and sweeter.
Mum wailed loudly, then sobbed for ages.
Uncle Colin still came round, helping, fixing, taking us for walks. Eventually, he plucked up the courage to tell Mum how he felt. I shamelessly eavesdropped.
Colin, you dont need me! Youre such a good man. You deserve real happiness.
Well, I know what I need, he stubbornly replied.
What if Stephen comes back?
Colin said nothing.
Ill still wait for him. I love him, Colin! I cant help it. If you really want someone like mea woman with half a heart.
I crept away from the door, furious. Mum, what on earth are you doing? Waiting for a man like him? Ridiculous.
Life went on. Sophie, all her fathers daughter, fawned over whoever put food on the table. Could I blame her? Deep down, she knew better than to hope for presents and Dads return. Uncle Colin did everything for us, working hard for our growing family. Mum had a son, Bradley, with him. Colins joy knew no bounds. They finally married, and life steadied itself.
I finished school, passing all my exams, lined up to attend university with a scholarship. Mum glowed with pride.
Therell be a scholar in our family now, eh Colin?
Weve done alright, love. Not exactly thick as mince! he replied, grinning.
Oh, stop it! Im no scientist, Id blush, waving her off. Pour me some of that champagne, please. Just a taste.
As if you never tried before, Sophie scoffed, and I glared at her theatrically.
Bradley was clambering around, intent on getting onto the table and knocking everything off. Colin grabbed him and set him on his lap.
Alright, lad, behave. Youre not a baby anymore!
Bradley immediately snatched up a spoon, pressed it to his nose, and went cross-eyed to make us all laugh. The room erupted in laughter.
Is that the doorbell? Sophie perked up.
Mum answered and staggered backwards. Standing at the door was our father.
Silence. He looked around, then said, Well? Carry on with your party.
No one spoke. Bradley wriggled free from Colin and wandered toward the strange man. Dad ignored him, while Mum scooped up Bradley, holding him close like a shield. Uncle Colin stood, unsteady.
Where are you going? Mum said, voice trembling.
I need some air, he replied, quietly pushing past his brother.
I got up to follow him. Sophie was right behind me.
Look, love, Ive brought you those stylish new outfits, Dad called.
To my surprise, Sophie didnt even look at him. She hurried after me and whispered in the hall,
Ill go after Uncle Colin, Dan. You listen in, see what happens.
But
Oh, come on, Dan! Youre a master eavesdropper!
Well, she wasnt wrong. I crouched in the corridor, torn by the thought that Mum had finally waited for her great love. What would happen to our family now?
Theresa, whats this? Youve married Colin? Dad sneered.
Mum was silent.
Oh, come on, its all in the past. Who hasnt sinned? Enough now, Im home!
There was a scuffle, the sound of a slapped cheek, and Bradleys frightened cry.
You should leave, Stephen. Just go away
Theresa, come on.
Thats it! Leave. No ones been waiting for you.
Youre lying. I can see it in your eyes. Eyes never lie.
I said what I said, Mum replied flatly.
Dad exited a moment later and spotted me lurking in the hallway.
“Eavesdropping? Hmmm Youll go far.”
I couldnt care less what he thought. I walked into the room expecting Mum in tears, but she was busy consoling Bradley and setting the table, looking like a multitasking Julius Caesar.
Well, he nearly ruined our party, didnt he? Mum smiled, crookedly. Where are they, then?
Bradley had already forgotten the argument, content fussing with a chair now that all was calm.
I stepped outside. Sophie and Uncle Colin sat together across the road at the park. She clung to his arm and rested her head on his shoulder, as if afraid letting go might make him vanish. I approached and watched them for a moment. Id wanted to say this for ages. Walking round the bench, I looked at Colins anxious face.
Dad, dont just sit here. Lets go home. Mums calling.
Colins hands trembled. Sophie covered them gently with her small palms, lifting her head to look him in the eyes:
Come on, Dad. Lets go.
We went home. After all, we had a celebration. Id finished school.












