I all know that words sometimes hurt worse than the sharpest knife. The other day my spouse told me that I was crazy, and he said a lot of other things that hurt me.
– When I met you, you were a slender beauty, and now you babyshe babyshe. – Said my spouse to me. I’m thirty now, and I’m not that old to be saying those words.
I met my spouse ten years ago, we were out with the same company that day. Of course, I looked a little different at the time: I was ten years younger, and I weighed almost twenty kilograms less. But at that time I was a young girl who was on her own, and now I am a mother of two children. At that time, many men sought me out, but I gave my heart to my husband.
Right after we became husband and wife my spouse started to insist on having a baby:
– I have been dreaming of a daughter since my childhood, I even came up with a name for her, – my beloved shared with me then.
Then we had a little girl, my husband soared on the wings of happiness and love. But his joy quickly faded. The problem was that after giving birth I looked bad, because I gained more than twenty pounds. After the baby was born, my mother began to insist that I eat well, because I needed to breastfeed the baby.
Gradually my spouse started hinting that I needed to get in shape. Of course I lost weight over time, but my figure really floated.
Our daughter became the meaning of my life and I no longer had time to go out with friends. I didn’t see the point in doing makeup for shopping or going for a walk with my daughter. And I didn’t have anyone to do it for.
– At least you cleaned yourself up before I came home,” my husband pleaded with me.
Well, what is he all the same interesting! I am an excellent wife, a wonderful hostess, I cook good, and the apartment we always clean. What else does he want from me?
Then I found out that I was going to have another baby. After giving birth I got fat again. My predisposition to obesity is genetic and there is nothing I can do about it.
My spouse reproached me more and more and kept telling me that I needed to lose weight. I repeatedly went on a diet, but I could not lose a pound because of my hormonal imbalances.
However, my spouse wouldn’t stop bugging me, he kept making complaints:
– Do you have any other clothes besides a robe? Is it really difficult to clean up and wear something other than this robe?
– Do I have to walk around the house in an evening gown? And maybe also put on high heels?
Then he brought me a beautiful silk set, which I really liked, but I had nowhere to wear it. Spouse does not want to understand me and wants me to be at home smart and beautiful, as a picture of a glossy magazine, but it’s not real! A million times I told my spouse that I now do not do beauty, because for our children need constant supervision, and he always blames me for what I neglected myself.
And the other day he told me that he began to look at other women, as I have ceased to please his eyes.
– Today I saw a girl with a stroller, she was all so beautiful: with makeup, in a fancy dress, with sandals on high heels. I could not even contain myself not to look after her.
What a statement! Of course, I was really hurt by his words. Of course, I did not see this lady with a stroller, but maybe she has less work and she is not as tired as I was. Maybe she can afford not to save money on his own beloved, and I’m here such an opportunity is not.
I’d rather buy something tasty for the kids than an update for myself, but I have no time to twirl in front of the mirror in the morning. My husband and has no intention to calm down, and his complaints every day sounds more and more sharply. For me the last straw was when he said that he was even talking to me now has become uninteresting, and the general topics of conversation we have no more. I suggested to my husband. That he sat with the kids, and I went to the beauty salon and clean up myself, but he said he had no time to do it.
I perfectly understand that in this situation I am alone to blame, I understand that I ran myself, but her husband could help me, and sit with our children, while I will do myself. I already have a nerve, because he even refuses to sleep with me. Spouse only goes around reproaching me that I was not the same as before.
I can not leave my spouse, as I have absolutely nowhere to go, and no one needs me with two babies in their arms. And I can’t run away from my husband with my present appearance!
