Move to ‘Your Own Space’ – Declared the Husband

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Move out to your own place, he told me, flatout.

Victor started the serious talk over dinner. I couldnt keep putting it off.

Emily, sit down, he said, his voice low.

I turned off the gas and faced him slowly.

Whats wrong? I asked, worried.

Victor didnt meet my eyes it was a little embarrassing.

Im leaving. Ive got another woman, Julia. We work together. This isnt just a fling, Emily. Its real love. I cant keep lying to you or to myself.

I took the news about my husbands affair as best I could. I didnt burst into tears, smash dishes or beg him to stay. I accepted his choice.

One thing was a hard pill to swallow: he still wanted me to take the kids my daughter from my first marriage and our son and move to your own place. Because he needed somewhere to sort out his new love life?

That night I lay awake, turning everything over in my head. Seventeen metres of flat, two kids, my accountants salary that barely covered the bills, and help where possible from the man whod just walked out on us.

How was I supposed to survive? Why should I be the one to suffer, to break myself and the children for his comfort and his new romance?

Enough was enough.

In the morning I told him, Alright, Victor. Ill move out.

He brightened. Good girl. I always knew you were sensible

But theres a condition, I cut in.

Whats that? he asked, wary.

You love someone else, Im not the one to stop your heart. I wont split the flat, even though the law would let me have half. Keep it for yourself.

Really? he exclaimed, relieved. Thanks!

Really. Lucy and I are moving into my studio. Itll be cosy for the two of us. Well shuffle the furniture, get a bunk bed, make it work.

What about little Tom? Victor blinked, confused.

I stared straight at him. The boy stays with you.

You mean with me? he laughed nervously. Youre joking! Hes tiny! He needs his mum!

In England we both have equal rights and duties as parents, Victor. Youre his father. You wanted him, you begged me to have him, remember? I want an heir, a lad to play football. So go on, play the dad role.

Ill pay child support as the law requires, and Ill collect him on weekends when I can.

You cant do that! Youre his mother! No mother would abandon her child!

Im not abandoning him. Im leaving him with his proper father, in a spacious flat near the garden, not cramming him into a tiny studio. You said the conditions werent ideal, so let the boy have a decent home with you and Julia. Let her learn to be a stepmum if shes serious about building a life with you.

My job! Im busy all day! Who will take him to nursery? Wholl pick him up? Wholl feed, wash and put him to bed?

I have a job too, I replied calmly. Im busy as well, but Ive managed for four years. Now its your turn. The boy needs a proper male role model. You always said I spoil him. So raise him, make a man of him.

Victor clutched his head, pacing the bedroom. This is nonsense! Julia wont agree! Shes twentyfive, why would she want a kid she didnt have?

Thats your problem, dear, I said, crossing my arms. Youre the head of the household. Deal with it.

Double standards wear me out. If you want a new life, take the responsibility.

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Packing took two days. Victor drifted like a ship without a rudder, alternating between guilt trips, threats and pleas to my conscience.

Emily, think about what people will say! he hissed as I boxed Lucys clothes. Your parents, my parents theyll gossip, theyll curse us!

Let them talk, I taped a box shut. I dont care. I cant afford two adults on one salary in one cramped room.

Do you want the mother of your children to end up in hospital? he whined.

The hardest part was the call from my mum, who rang three times that evening, sobbing into the phone. Girl, pull yourself together! How can you leave Tom with his dad? Hell be alone!

Mum, you live in Manchester. What can you do? Send money? I sighed. Your pension is a joke. Ive made my decision. Victor is the father, so he should be there, not just in words.

On the day of the move, Tom ran around the flat as if it were a game. I knelt, tucked his hair back, and felt my heart split. I wanted to scoop him up and run off, but I knew if I showed any weakness Victor would use it against me, and Id be left with two kids, no money, and a roof over my head while he offloaded his life elsewhere.

Sweetheart, I said, looking into his bright eyes, Mum and Lucy will be staying somewhere else for a bit. Youll be with Dad. He loves you a lot.

Will you come back? he asked, clutching his stuffed bunny.

Ill be there on Saturday. Well go to the park and have icecream. Listen to Dad, alright?

Lucy was already by the door, headphones around her neck, silent but supportive. Victor stood in the hallway, pale as a wall.

Leaving for real? he asked. Just like that?

The keys are on the nightstand, I said. The list of meds is on the fridge hes got a slight sore throat, needs gargling. Dont forget the parents meeting on Thursday.

And I was out.

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Victors first week on his own was a disaster. Mornings didnt start with coffee and a kiss from Julia; they began with Dad, Im hungry! followed by frantic searches for missing socks, burnt porridge, and milk that seemed to vanish. Tom refused to eat, spat, and demanded cartoons.

Eat it, you hear me! Victor shouted, late for work. Tom began to whine, and Victor, feeling like a broken man, grabbed his belt, tossed it aside, and fed the boy a chocolate bar just to quiet him.

The nursery staff gave him a hard time: Dad, whys the kid in a dirty tee? Did you forget his changeover? You need to sort out the curtains.

At work his performance slipped. His boss called him to the carpet twice, hinting that personal drama shouldnt bleed into the office.

Evenings turned into a second shift picking Tom up, dashing to the shop, cleaning, cooking. Tom would scatter toys across the floor the moment Victor tidied up.

Julia turned up on day three, sniffed the air, and said, Victor, we were supposed to go to the cinema. He was in one sock, hair a mess. Tom cant be left alone.

Then well get a nanny! she suggested.

On what money? My halfsalary goes to a mortgage! he retorted. Tom burst out, covered in marker, and slammed into Julias trousers.

Watch out, Auntie! Im a tiger! he shouted.

Oi! Julia squealed, jumping back. What are you doing? Victor, move him! Thats a Dolce toy, its priceless!

Hes a child, Julia! Victor barked. Stop overreacting! Help me!

Im not a nanny! she snapped. I need attention, not a babysitter for your mess!

Victor exploded, My ex spent four years looking after the boy while I was at work! He was stunned by his own words.

Julia huffed, slammed the door and never came back.

By Saturday Victor looked like a ghost gaunt, stubbly, dark circles under his eyes, his flat a battlefield. When the doorbell rang he scrambled, tripping over Toms toy cars.

Emily and Lucy stood there, Lucy clutching a tote.

Tom! he heard a scream as his son raced to them. Emily scooped him up, kissed his cheeks. Hey there, my loves. How are you holding up?

Victor leaned against the wall, knees trembling, watching her as if for the first time. He finally saw the massive load shed carried all these years, smiling through the strain.

Emily he croaked.

She raised an eyebrow. Take him, please. I cant manage, Im about to lose my job. Julias gone. I I cant.

She set Tom down. Go on, show Lucy your new drawings.

The kids vanished into the bedroom. Emily surveyed the mountain of dirty dishes, the crusty buckwheat on the stove, and sat on the same stool shed been on a week before.

Im not coming back, Victor, she said flatly. After everything youve done, I wont live with you.

Victor threw his hands up. Forget Julia! I get it now. I was wrong, I was blind. But Tom I cant be a good dad, Emily

Learn, she snapped. But I know the child cant keep suffering. I have a proposal.

Victor lifted his head, hope flickering like a beaten dog.

What is it?

Im taking Tom, well stay in this flat. You move out to my studio that tiny seventeenmetre space. You can have it, bring whoever you like.

Youll rewrite the deed so the flat is split equally between the kids, so I cant just yank us out again for some new love? he asked, voice shaking.

Emily nodded. Exactly. Alimony will be set, youll cover half the activity fees. You can see Tom whenever you want I wont stop you. But well live here, without you.

Victor opened his mouth to argue, to call it theft, but the weeks chaos, the sleepless nights, the endless cries, the empty flat, all of it flashed back. He stared at Emily, who wasnt bluffing.

If he refused, shed walk away, and hed be left alone with his responsibility, totally unprepared.

Alimony will be fixed, she continued, seeing his hesitation. Youll pay half the clubs and classes. You can visit whenever you wish.

Victor swallowed, a minute of silence, then exhaled. Alright. Ill agree.

Emily gave a small nod. Pack your things, Victor. The studios ready. Ill hand you the keys now.

He trudged to the bedroom, grabbed his suitcase. Hed lost his family, his son, his pride. Yet, as he zipped his bag, a strange relief settled in after seven tumultuous years, it felt like the right step forward.

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“Late Again After Work?” he barked, his voice edged with jealousy. “I Know Everything Now.” Lena froze in the doorway, clutching the cold handle as damp snow melted on her boots. The flat felt stuffy, thick with the smell of fried onions and heavy, lingering resentment—a bitterness that clung to every curtain and thread these past three weeks. She took a shaky breath and turned to her husband. Andrew stood in the kitchen doorway, arms folded, dressing gown open over a crumpled t-shirt. The face she’d known for twenty years, now twisted by disgust, looked utterly unfamiliar. “Andrew, the trains are packed…” she began her tired spiel. Her voice sounded muffled, as if through cotton wool. “There’s snow, traffic on the North Circular…” “Enough!” A sharp smack against the wall sent flakes of plaster to the floor. “Enough of this. Traffic? At nine in the evening? Out of town?” He stepped closer and she shrank against the coat rack, wet mac chilling her back. “I called your work,” he said, crisp and clipped. “At quarter past six. Security said you left at five. Where were you for three and a half hours?” That ball of icy dread in Lena’s stomach grew heavier. She’d lied before—harmless ones to keep the peace, smooth things over. But this lie was different, monstrous, hungry for more secrets with every day. “I… I went to the chemist’s. Then to Mum’s—she needed her medicine…” Eyes down, fiddling with her boot zip, she tried to buy time. “Mum, is it?” sneered Andrew. “I called her half an hour ago. She hasn’t seen you all week.” The silence in the hallway rang in her ears. Lena straightened. No escape now. She was just so tired—every evening a minefield, every phone ring a small heart attack. “Met someone, haven’t you?” Andrew’s voice dropped to a chilling softness. “Having an affair? A young workmate? Or that old friend you mentioned last month?” He closed the gap, the stale tang of cigarettes on his breath—he’d started again, despite quitting years ago after his father’s heart attack. “Andrew, there’s no one else—please believe me.” “Believe you?” He gripped her shoulders, shaking her. “Look at you! Lost ten kilos, jump at every noise, locked your phone, never meet my eyes. Classic for a two-timing woman terrified of being caught out. But do you know the worst part?” Tears stung Lena’s eyes. “The worst,” he said bitterly, “is that you’re not even trying to save our family. You come home like it’s a prison sentence. You couldn’t care less about me or our home. Your mind’s always somewhere else—with whoever he is.” “It’s not true,” she whispered. “I love you. I’m doing it all for us—for our family.” “Sleeping around for the family, is that it?” he spat. “Don’t you dare!” Lena’s voice broke from her. “Don’t you dare say that! You don’t know anything!” A door creaked open behind them; the pale, drawn face of their nineteen-year-old son, Kieran, poked through, looking gaunt and hollow-eyed. “Mum, Dad… please don’t shout,” he pleaded, voice shot with panic. Andrew spun on him: “Go to your room! This is between grown-ups—or do you know where your mum disappears at night too?” Kieran flinched, darted a fearful glance at Lena, and slammed his door; the lock clicked shut. Andrew turned back, anger cooling into a cold resolve. “I’m giving you one last chance, Lena. Now. Tell me the truth. Who is he?” Lena shut her eyes. The memory flickered sharp and unrelenting: wet tarmac; headlights catching a small figure in a pink coat; a sickening thud; the screech of brakes fusing into Kieran’s screams, bursting through the flat three weeks ago. “Mum, I didn’t mean to! She ran out, I swear! Don’t call the police—they’ll lock me up, my life’s over! Dad’ll never forgive me, he’ll kill me—Mum, please, save me!” She’d saved him. Or she thought she had. “There’s no one, Andrew,” she said, voice steady as she opened her eyes. “I’m exhausted. Work’s a mess—redundancies—they might let me go. I didn’t want to worry you.” He stared at her, then let her shoulders drop with a look of disgust. “You’re lying,” he said flatly. “I found the pawn shop receipt in your coat yesterday. The gold bracelet I gave you for our anniversary, gone.” Lena’s world shifted beneath her. That blasted receipt—she’d forgotten, distracted, desperate for yet another bundle up… “Needed the money for your lover?” Andrew sneered. “Or is it his debts, and you’re rescuing your precious boy?” “It’s for… for medical bills—a colleague with cancer, we were pitching in…” “The pawnshop?” he cut her off. “Get out, Lena.” “What?…” “Pack a bag and go—to your mum’s, a friend’s, anywhere. I don’t want to see you tonight. I need to decide whether to file for divorce straight away, or if I’ll give you time to confess.” “Andrew, please—it’s night…” “Go!” he roared, shaking cupboard glass. Lena knew this was the end. If she stayed, he’d push until she broke—or Kieran did, listening from behind the door. And then everything she’d fought for these three weeks would collapse. She turned, grabbed her bag (the one hiding another envelope—not cash, but photographs obtained earlier today), and, not even removing her soaked shoes, slipped out onto the stairwell. The door closed behind her with finality. She slumped against the wall. Her phone vibrated—a text, not from her husband: “Tomorrow’s the final deadline. No money, I go to the police. Tell your son I said hello.” She slid down to the floor and sobbed silently into her hand. Snow stormed outside as Lena stumbled down the icy high street. Nowhere to go—not her mother’s (Andrew would call), not to friends (too many questions). Her only option: the all-night café by Paddington, a mug of limp tea for company. She sat hunched in the corner, hands curled around the cup, staring at the phone’s wallpaper—family, tanned and smiling in Corfu just a year back, Kieran grinning beside his father, Andrew looking at Lena with tenderness… How fast it all turns to dust. She thought back: Kieran borrowing the car without asking—to give a girl a lift. No license, just field practice at the cottage. Andrew at work. Kieran back an hour later, white-faced, hands shaking, headlight cracked. He’d wept, collapsed at her feet, swearing it was pitch-black, the girl had come from nowhere, a village road, pure terror, pure panic—he ran. Lena decided in a heartbeat: motherly instinct, obliterating reason, conscience, law. She knew Andrew’s principles: confess, consequences, justice above all, especially as a paramedic. He would’ve called the police instantly. She hid the car in the garage. Ordered Kieran to silence. Next day, she tracked down the other child’s father—Nick—through police friends, using “just want to help” as her cover. A grim block of flats, a kitchen heavy with grief and vodka. She couldn’t pretend long. She confessed: her son, young, stupid, and she would do anything not to destroy his life. Nick didn’t shout. Just named a price—a brutal one. “For the headstone,” he said. “So I can leave this place and forget.” He also made her promise that Kieran would suffer, that they’d live in terror till her debt was paid. Now she sat in the plastic-lit café, pawned bracelet, sold fur coat, credit cards maxed, still short. The next day, Lena called in sick. She had to find another two grand by evening. She took out payday loans, pawned her laptop, borrowed from an old classmate—another lie about emergency surgery. By five, she had it: a thick wad of cash in a brown envelope. She rang Andrew, but he ignored her. Texted Kieran—“It’ll be fine, hold on. Dad won’t know”—he didn’t reply. She went to Nick’s estate. Cluttered, grimy, booze fumes in the air. When she handed the money over, he sneered. “Our deal, you leave, take back your complaint. Leave us alone.” Nick rolled the envelope in his hand. “Think money can fill a hole in the heart?” “I don’t think anything,” Lena said quietly. “I just want to save my son. You promised.” “I did…” He hurled the envelope back at her. “But I’ve changed my mind.” Lena froze. “What do you mean?” “Not enough,” he slurred. “Saw your husband’s posh car last night. You bring me pennies, he’s minted.” “You don’t understand—he has no idea! The car’s the only expensive thing we own. We live on our wages—” “Let him find out!” Nick shouted. “Let him see what a scumbag he raised. My daughter’s cold in the ground, and your boy comes home for tea?” “Please…” Lena begged. “Give me time—I’ll find more, sell the car, anything…” “No more time!” He grabbed her wrist. “Call your husband now, tell him he needs to bring another five grand—or I’m phoning the police!” At that moment, heavy footfalls sounded in the hallway; Andrew, pallid, phone raised (family tracker app glowing), entered. “Knew it,” he whispered, seeing Nick’s grip on Lena and the envelope on the table. “Didn’t even bother switching the tracker off.” Andrew looked from Nick to the money and back. “Well,” he said, voice tight with fury, “How much for a night with my wife?” Lena wrenched free. “Andrew, no—” “Be quiet!” he barked. “I saw you enter this dump. I thought you had taste. I imagined a colleague, your boss… but this—” Nick roared with wild laughter. “Her lover? You think I’m her lover?” “Shut up!” screamed Lena, flinging herself at Nick to muffle him. “Andrew, just go—I’ll explain everything at home!” Andrew shoved her aside. “No. I want to hear it. Now I’m here.” Nick wiped his mouth and stared at Andrew with bitter pity. “Mate—are you blind or just stupid? Your wife isn’t sleeping with me. She’s buying me off.” “What?” Andrew frowned. “She’s buying your peace of mind,” Nick said, waving a black-ribboned photo in Andrew’s face. “Know her?” Andrew took the picture, eyes widening. “That’s… that’s the girl. In the news. Three weeks ago. Run over in Finchley. Driver never found.” “Bingo,” Nick sneered. “Now ask your precious wife—who was driving? And whose car was it?” The silence was thunderous. Andrew turned slowly to Lena, horror etched on his face. “Lena?” he whispered. “You said the battery was dead—you took the keys…” Lena collapsed to her knees. “I’m sorry—it was Kieran. He took the keys. It was an accident, Andrew, please—he’s our son!” Andrew didn’t shout, didn’t move—just stared. A paramedic who’d met death daily; now death wore his son’s face. “Kieran?” he repeated in a hollow voice. “My son killed that child?” “He didn’t kill her!” Lena cried. “It was an accident, a crash!” “He drove off,” Nick said harshly. “Left her dying. The ambulance came fifteen minutes later. If he’d stopped, called straight away… might’ve saved her.” Andrew clung to the doorframe, swaying. “And you knew?” he asked Lena dully. “Three weeks—you knew?” “I was protecting him!” she wept. “I’m his mother! He couldn’t survive prison! I tried to pay, tried to make it go away…” “Pay?” Andrew eyed the envelope. “A child’s life for two grand? Or however much?” Nick looked away. “I gave you everything I could. I just wanted you to suffer. But it’s not enough. I want him locked up.” Andrew picked up the envelope. Paused. Then threw the money at Nick, notes fluttering across the grubby floor. “Keep your blood money,” he said quietly. “I won’t buy my soul.” He turned to Lena, hauled her up from the floor. “Home. Now.” “Andrew—please—let’s talk…” “Just shut up. Be quiet till we get home or God knows what I’ll do.” They left under Nick’s silent glare. At home, Andrew drove recklessly, fingers white on the wheel. The flat was dead quiet—Kieran sat at the kitchen table, untouched tea cooling. He jumped at their entrance. “Dad? Mum? Are you… is everything okay?” Andrew faced him—Kieran looked a child again, despite being a head taller. “Put your coat on,” Andrew said. “Where? Why?” Kieran’s gaze flitted from mother to father—Lena sobbed in the hallway. “To the police,” Andrew said calmly. Kieran sagged. “No, Dad! I can’t! Mum sorted it! Please!” “Mum sorted it?” Andrew laughed bitterly. “She bought you a ticket to hell. For three weeks you’ve eaten, slept, played knowing what you did?” “I’m not sleeping!” Kieran’s voice cracked in tears. “I see her every night! I’m terrified!” “Terrified? Think about that girl dying alone, or her father living in an empty flat.” Lena rushed in. “He’s just a boy, Andrew!” “He’s not a boy!” Andrew shouted, shoving her away. “He’s a grown man who committed a crime and hid behind his mummy’s skirt. And you—” he looked at Lena with agony—“you betrayed me. Not with another man, but by making me the fool. You thought I couldn’t handle the truth; you put a price on our family’s honour.” “I was afraid you’d turn him in!” she shouted. “I would have,” he nodded. “I’d have stayed by his side. We’d get a lawyer, fight for leniency, pay compensation the honest way. We’d look people in the eye. But now? Now we’re cowards—and killers.” Kieran slid to the floor, sobbing. Andrew knelt before him. “Look at me, Kieran.” Through tears, his son met his gaze. “If we don’t go now, you’ll never be whole. This fear will rot you. You want to jump at every siren forever? Wait to be hunted by that man?” Kieran shook his head. “I can’t do this anymore, Dad—I really can’t.” “Then get up. I’ll be with you. But you have to answer for this.” Kieran slowly stood. Something like resolve straightening his posture. “Let’s go,” he whispered. Andrew nodded, then turned to Lena. “You stay here.” “I’ll come with!” she pleaded. “No,” Andrew signaled her firmly. “You’ve done enough. You tried to buy his soul. Now let me see if I can save it.” “Will you forgive me?” she whispered, already knowing the answer. He looked at her for a long, lingering moment, as if memorising the face he’d loved half his life. “I’d have forgiven an affair, Lena. That’s just human weakness. But this… For three weeks you watched me break under suspicion and said nothing. You saw me in agony—and you didn’t care, as long as you could cover your crime.” He opened the door and ushered his son out. “I don’t know how to live with this. Or if I can ever share a bed again with the woman you’ve shown yourself to be.” The door closed. Lena was alone in the silent flat. A pawn shop receipt lay on the hallway floor, dropped from Andrew’s pocket. She went to the window. Below, in the yellow streetlights, two figures—one broad and upright, the other slight and hunched—crossed the snowy car park together, not touching, but walking side by side. Lena pressed her forehead to the freezing glass. The truth had emerged—and it was far darker than Andrew had ever suspected. Not only had it shattered their past, but erased any chance of a future. Yet down below, a father and son trudged on, determined to fight for at least the right to an honest present. Lena slid down the wall, and for the first time in weeks, her tears were not from fear—but from the knowledge that there was no way back. The courts would take their time. The sentence would be real. But the harshest judgement had already been passed here, five minutes ago, and no appeal was possible.

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