I had been dating Anna since I started university. She was my first serious relationship, my mother really liked her as a future daughter-in-law, and my parents themselves pressured me to propose. Immediately after graduation I was full of hopes for a wonderful future, so I decided to give Anna a ring and a promise of a future wedding. She was very happy, she said she had been waiting a long time for the proposal and was ready to play a wedding almost next month, but such a speed of preparation kind of scared me.
I asked her to hold off so that we could get into a work schedule and save up some money first. Anna was ready for a meager wedding for her own, and I lied that I wanted to gather all my friends and relatives, which is why we need money in the first place.
We packed for almost a year, lived together and it was perfectly fine and comfortable, Anna, in any case, did not change her mind to marry me. But I quickly got bored with our life together. It is always the same, and with a new job and new colleagues I got the feeling that I need something new in love affairs. In addition, we transferred to the department of a very beautiful girl, my same age. It was very interesting with her, and although she had a boyfriend, I have not abandoned the hope that we can still have something, if I parted with Anna.
So while she was getting ready to get married, I was getting ready to break up.
Neither my parents, nor my friends, nor Anna herself understood why I broke up with her. My ex followed me around for another month or so, and eventually she gave me the ring back, even though I told her I shouldn’t. We split up, I went back to my parents for a while, and they pecked me so hard for missing out on a girl like that. And I don’t know how to explain that I just burned out. I don’t want to get married, definitely not to Anna. And the one I like is busy and I will not fight with anyone for her hand and heart.
I found myself at a dead end. I lost everything, but I don’t regret it. I have some savings, soon I will move away from my parents again, maybe things will get better than they were with Anna. I hope so.
