I married a woman with a baby. Eighteen years later, she left me. But her daughter chose to spend Christmas with me.
It was three in the afternoon on 22nd December, and there I was, still in my pyjamas, shovelling cereal straight from the box, when I heard a key in the lock.
Bloody hell. Kate still had a key.
But it wasnt Kate. It was Emily standing in the doorway, burdened by two massive suitcases and her university rucksack.
Hi, Dad.
The cereal box slipped from my hands.
Emily? What?
Im moving in. She let the suitcases drop with a satisfying thud. Well, if youll have me. If not, its a bit awkward since Ive already dragged them all the way here.
I leapt off the sofa so fast the room spun.
To move in? Does your mum know?
Of course. We had the talk. She did air quotes. Told her I want to live here. That this was always home. Kate cried, I cried, it was all a proper mess. But she understood.
But
Dad. She fixed me with that stern look she reserved for when she really meant business. Mums got her new life now, her sleek little flat where everythings white and youre scared to touch anything. And youve got this housewhere I can leave a coffee mug wherever I like and no one has a meltdown.
Hey, I do clean, you know.
Sure you do. Thats why there are three mugs just in the living room.
She was right. There had to be another half a dozen lurking in the kitchen too.
Anyway, she said, peeling off her coat, someones got to make sure you dont survive on Chinese takeaways and misery.
I laughed, despite the lump swelling in my throat.
I use chopsticks. Thats a skill.
Thats basic survival, not actually living.
Emily strode into the kitchen and started inspecting the place like it was a crime scene.
Oh God, this is worse than I thought. She flung open the fridge. Soy sauce, three cans of lager, and yoghurt from the Stone Age? Dad, honestly.
The yoghurts only a couple of weeks old.
It says March.
March was all right, point taken.
She turned, hands on hips just like when she was eight and lectured me about her pigtails.
Right. Tomorrow, were going shopping. Tonight, pizza like civilised people. Still got the number for that place with the extra cheese?
Its on speed dial.
Of course it is.
While we waited for the pizza, she wandered around the house like an estate agent sizing me up.
Your rooms an absolute train wreck, but mines just the same as I left it. She grinned, stepping into her old bedroom. Youve even kept all my cringey school posters.
Theyre yours. Id never touch your stuff.
She grew quiet, scanning the walls, the photos, the desk piled with battered books.
Funny thing, you know? Mum said I could sort out her spare room, decorate any way I wanted. Exactly how you like it, she said. But She sat on the bed. It already is, here. This is as I like it. This is mine.
I sat next to her.
Emily, you dont have to stay here out of pity. Im fine, honestly.
This isnt pity, you muppet. She nudged my shoulder. Its because, when I was a toddler learning to walk, you were always there with open arms. When the nightmares came, you let me crawl into your bed. When I finished school, you cried more than I did.
I wasnt that bad.
Dad, you went through three tissues.
Ive got allergies.
To feelings, maybe.
She smiled, leaning her head on my shoulder.
Youre my Dad. Not the bloke who gave me half my DNA, but the one who gave me everything else. And now that you have this big house to yourself, eating tragic cereal in pyjamas, you think Im going to let you fall apart? Not a chance.
My voice cracked.
I love you, poppet.
I love you, old man. But seriously, tomorrow were cleaning. It smells weird in here.
Christmas Eve dawned and Emily made good on her threat. She marched me to the supermarket.
Were cooking a proper dinner tonight. No takeaways.
But tradition
New tradition: real food. Come on!
We loaded up our trolley, Emily tossing things in with a somewhat worrying enthusiasm.
Do we even know how to cook any of this? I asked.
Course not. But weve got YouTube and courage. Thats enough.
It wasnt.
The turkey was raw in the middle and burnt on the outside. The mash looked like builders putty. The veg was practically charcoal.
We stared at the mess on the table in silence.
Well, Emily said eventually, we could always
Order Chinese?
Lets order Chinese.
So we ate straight from the cartons, howling with laughter at our epic culinary failure, and it was the best Christmas Eve Id had in months.
You know what? I said. I think this is our new tradition.
Try to make fancy dinner, fail spectacularly, order Chinese.
Perfect.
After dinner, she handed me a small box.
Here. Your present.
Inside was a key, with a wonky homemade keyring that said Home.
Copy of my key. Officially moving in. She smiled, a little shy. Its bent, but its made with love.
I hugged her, tight.
Its perfect.
Oi, youre suffocating me.
Shush, let me have this.
She giggled and hugged me back.
Thank you for everything, Dad. For these eighteen years. For never leaving. For being you.
Thank you for choosing to stay.
Always.
That night, I lay awake, turning the new key over in my hands.
Kate was goneand that hurt.
But Emily stayed.
And that that was everything.












