Honestly, I still dont understand why I ended up marrying him.
So, weve only just tied the knot. I was convinced my husband was head over heels for me. If it werent for this peculiar incident, I wouldnt have doubted it at all. Its not even about cheatingits something much stranger and, to be honest, quite unsettling.
Looking back now, I reckon it happened because I cared a bit too much. I put him on a pedestal, loved him immensely, and forgave anything and everything. Naturally, he got used to this treatment, his confidence soared, and his self-worth shot up. I bet he thought he could just snap his fingers and any woman would crawl after him. Although, in reality, its not as if he turns heads wherever he goes Anyone else would have told him where to go and wouldnt have blindly trusted him.
Just before the wedding, he said he needed some time alone, wanted a bit of a break, and needed to prepare himself for married life. There was nothing I could do about it, so I let him go on this little holiday of his.
He later told me he wanted to escape civilisationto go somewhere with no internet or phone reception. So he took himself off to the Lake District, wandered around the hills and just soaked up the outdoors. Meanwhile, I stayed home, missing him terriblycounting the minutes and desperate for him to come back.
After a week, he returned. I swear, Ive never been happier. I welcomed him with all the warmth and love I could muster and cooked him his favourite dishes.
But the very next day, he started acting strangely. Dashing off to the hallway every ten minutes or popping into the guest room for no reason. Then he started going out several times a day, always with some half-baked excuse. One afternoon, when I was heading out to Sainsburys, I found a letter in our postbox. At first, I thought it was just ordinary mail. It was addressed to me, from him, and posted while he had been away.
What he wrote really knocked the wind out of me. He said:
Hello. I cant keep leading you on. Youre not the right person for me. I dont want to spend the rest of my life with you. There wont be a wedding. Please forgive medont try to find me or ring me. I wont be coming back.
Short, sharp, and absolutely crushing
It hit me thenhed been checking the post every chance he got, waiting to see if Id discovered the letter. I destroyed it, didnt say a word, and acted like nothing had happened. I couldnt let on that I knew. But honestly, how can I live with someone who doesnt want to be with me? Why did he even go through with marrying me and then pretend everything was fine? I still cant wrap my head around any of it.












