I called out the window, Mum, what are you doing up so early? You’ll freeze! She turned and waved her spade in greeting. Just making life easier for you lazy lot! she chuckled. The very next day, Mum was gone.
Even now, I cant walk past our garden gate without my heart aching. Every time I see that little path she made, it feels as though someone is gripping my heart tightly. It was me who took that photo on the second of January. I was just walking by, noticed the footprints in the snow, and stopped. I snapped a picture, not knowing why. Now its all I have left from those days.
Wed spent New Years Eve just as we always did, all together as a family. Mum was up early on the thirty-first. I awoke to the smell of sizzling sausages and her voice drifting in from the kitchen.
Come on, love! You need to help me with the salads! Otherwise, your fatherll eat all the bits before we finish!
I wandered in, still in my pyjamas, hair everywhere. There she was, at the cooker, wearing that old apron with the peachesthe one I gave her back at school. She smiled, cheeks flushed from the oven. Mum, just let me have my tea first, I grumbled.
Tea later! Chop up the veg first, nice and smallnone of those boulder-sized bits like last time! she laughed, tossing me a bowl.
We chatted about anything and everything as we chopped away. She told us stories about her childhood New Yearsno fancy salads, just a herring pie and some clementines that her dad brought home from work.
Later, Dad arrived, dragging in a tree so enormous it nearly scraped the ceiling. Alright, ladies, your Christmas beauty has arrived! he called with pride.
Blimey, Dad, did you chop down half the forest? I teased.
Mum came to have a look too, shaking her head but smiling, Shes a stunner, but goodness knows where shell go. We could barely fit last years one in.
Still, she fetched the decorations. My sister, Daisy, and I strung up garlands, while Mum unwrapped the old glass baubles. I remember her picking out a tiny glass angel and saying softly, I bought this one for your very first Christmas, remember?
Of course I do, Mum, I replied, even though I didnt. She shone with happiness at my words.
My brother turned up later, as loud and boisterous as ever, his arms full of shopping bags, gifts, and a bottle of sparkling wine. Look, Mum! Proper stuff this year, not like last year’s sour disappointment.
Just dont get everyone tipsy, Mum laughed and gave him a squeeze.
At midnight, we all gathered in the garden. Dad and my brother set off fireworks, Daisy shrieked with joy, and Mum stood beside me, arms wrapped tight around my shoulders.
Look at that, darling, she whispered. Arent we lucky?
Were the luckiest, Mum, I told her, hugging back.
We passed the bottle round, giggling so much when a firework zipped off toward the neighbours shed. Mum, a little merry, danced in her slippers singing Rockin Around the Christmas Tree. Dad swept her up, and we all laughed until there were tears.
On New Years Day, we none of us moved much. Mum was back in the kitchen, this time with a batch of homemade pies and some brawn for Dad.
Oh, Mum, havent we eaten enough? I moaned.
Dont fuss, youll finish it eventually. The New Years not just one day, you know! she shooed me away.
By the second of January, she was up before dawn yet again. I heard the back door close and peeped out. There was Mum in her faithful old coat and a scarf tied over her ears, carefully clearing a path from the gate to the steps, spade moving neatly through the snow. Neat and straight, just as she liked itpiling the snow away from the house, just so.
I called out, Mum! Why so early? You’ll catch your death out there! She turned, grinned, and waved her spade. If I dont, you lot will be wading through drifts till spring! Put the kettle on!
I smiled and went to make the tea. She came in half an hour later, cheeks red from the cold, eyes sparkling.
There, all sorted, she said, sitting down at the table for her tea. Looks good, doesnt it?
It does, Mum. Thank you.
That was the last time I heard her voice so full of life.
On the morning of the third, she woke up quietly. Girls, my chest feels funny. Not too bad. Just not right.
I was worried. Mum, should we call for the doctor?
Oh, dont be silly, love. Just overdone it a bit. Ill have a rest and be fine.
She lay down on the sofa, Daisy and I sitting nearby. Dad raced off to the chemist to fetch some tablets. Mum still tried to make light. Dont look at me like thatIll outlive you all!
Then, suddenly, she went pale and clutched at her chest. Oh I dont feel well. Not well at all
We called for an ambulance. I held her hand and whispered, Hold on, Mum, helps coming
She looked at me with tears in her eyes and barely whispered, Love, I love you all so much I wish I didnt have to say goodbye.
The paramedics were quick, but it was no use. A massive heart attack, they said. It all happened so fast.
I sat on the hallway floor and howled. It didnt seem real. Only yesterday she was dancing beneath the fireworks, laughing and hugging us all, and now
Barely able to stand, I walked outside. The snow had all but stopped. There were her footprintstiny, careful, straightjust as she always made them, from the gate to the doorstep and back.
I stood there a long time, staring. I found myself asking, How is it possible that just yesterday, a person could walk here, and today nothing? The footprints remain, but shes gone.
It felt, in some strange way, as though that was her final walkher last act was to leave us a clear path through the snow, so we could walk on after her.
I wouldnt let anyone sweep the path away. I asked that we leave it be, until the snow covered it for good.
That was Mums last gift to us. Even when she was gone, her love was still visible in the simplest acts.
A week later, there was a heavy snowfall. I keep that photo of her last footprints tucked away. Every third of January, I look at itand then I look at the empty path outside the old house, and the ache returns. Under all that snow, I know she left her final marks.
And though shes gone, I still follow softly in her tracks.
Theres a lesson therelove is never lost. The footprints of those we cherish remain, guiding us gently onward, even long after theyve gone.












