Go Away and Don’t Come Back
Go, do you hear me? I whispered through tears, my voice shaking. Go, and don’t come back! Not ever.
With trembling hands, I unclipped the heavy iron chain, pulled Bessie towards the gate, flung it open, and tried to nudge her out onto the lane.
But she couldnt understand what was happening.
Was she really being sent away? But why? She hadnt done anything wrong
Please, Bessie, just go, I said again, hugging her tightly. You can’t stay here. Hell be back any minute and
At that very moment, the front door crashed open, and my father, Martin, stumbled onto the porch, drunk and wielding an axe.
*****
If only people could even imagine, just for a moment, how hard a street dog’s life can be, perhaps they would treat them differently. At the very least, they might look at them with sympathy, not with anger or disgust, as so often happens.
But how could people know what our four-legged friends endure, or truly understand their struggles? Dogs cant tell us their stories.
Nor can they complain about their fate. They carry their pain in silence.
But perhaps I can share this one storya tale of love, betrayal, and loyalty.
It began with Bessie, who was unwanted from the very start.
Why her first owner didnt favour hernobody really knows.
Perhaps it was as simple as the fact that she was born at all.
Instead of caring for the two-month-old pup, her owner drove to the nearest village and left her at the roadside.
Yes, just left.
He didnt bother to take her into the village, where surely someone would have adopted her.
Instead, he abandoned her beside a busy road, then drove back to the city with a clear conscience.
Cars, lorries, and coaches roared past at high speed. One wrong move and it could all have ended in an instant.
Perhaps the owner hoped that would be the case.
And even if it hadntwithout food or water, she couldnt have lasted long on her own. She would have died soon enough. She was only tiny, after all.
But fate intervened that day.
By chance, I was out riding my new bicycle. It was my fourteenth birthday, and Dad had only just given it to me. I was eager to try it out.
Dont you go past the end of the village, Mum called after me just as I was mounting my new steel horse, all boyish excitement and spinning wheels. Did you hear me, Will?
Alright, Mum I shouted back, overjoyed. Everything will be fine, I promise!
But of course, I went past the village. The lanes there were riddled with potholesriding was hardly possible; walking was bad enough. On the main road to the city, though, theyd just put down smooth new tarmac. I just wanted to feel the wind for once.
There were hardly ever any cars on a Sundayall the locals stayed home.
I had almost reached the road before turning around, and thats when I spotted the little pup, running back and forth along the verge, frantic.
Dashing towards each car, only to leap aside at the very last second. It was painful to watch.
What on earths the matter with it, I wondered, getting off my bike.
I laid the bicycle carefully on the grass and started towards the puppy.
*****
Mum, Dad, look who I found! I said, smiling as I brought the pup inside. Someone’s dumped her by the road. Can we keep her? Shes lovely.
Will, did you go out of the village? Mum demanded, instantly cross. I told you not to!
II only wanted to see the road and come right back, I mumbled, staring at my shoes. And as you can see, it was worth it. She might have died.
And you? Mum sighed. What if something had happened to you, Will? Its dangerous for kids, especially on bikes.
Sorry, Mum. I promise it’ll never happen again. So, can we keep her? Ill look after her, I promise. Ive always wanted a dog, and it is my birthday today.
Birthday or not, youre not too old for a telling-off, you know, Mum shook her head.
I hugged the pup close, sure they would take her away.
Dad finally intervened, cheerful from a pint at the pub. Leave the lad alone, Sue. Fourteen today, isnt it? Remember the things we got up to at his age. Besides, shes not just any muttshes a proper dog. Let him have her. Shell watch the garden and everything.
Mum gave in with a smile. Well, if Dads alright with it, then so am I.
Thank you! Youre the best parents ever!
My heart soared. Mum and Dad let me keep her.
That very day, I named her Bessie.
At first, I thought she was a boy, but soon realised otherwise. She was the best sort of girlgentle, affectionate. She and I were inseparable almost from the start.
The shiny new bike was soon forgotten; I spent each day with my fluffy friend.
Everything was perfectwhat could ever go wrong?
Saved from death, I had the dog Id dreamed of, and my parents were happy to see me happy. The end of the storyor so I thought.
But things changedsix months later.
It began when Dad, Martin, lost his job. It broke him, and he turned to drink.
He drank away our savings, the money he and Mum had put aside for tough times.
No pleading from Mum could change him. Tears, tantrums, nothing worked. She only irritated him, and in time, he turned cruel, even raising his hand to her, for any or no reason at all.
No food in the fridge, the roof leaking, cigarettes or drink too expensiveit was always Mums fault.
But nothing would get through. Me? My fault? hed shout at her.
The truth was plain: it was all him. He hadnt had to drink. He couldve found work, even in the cityeven as a driver or a loader, but he wouldnt try. Not after the farm went under, where hed been a tractor man for two decades.
Soon, our house was heavy with anger and threat.
Sue! Where have you hidden the gin, eh? Martin would roar each morning, eyes wild.
Mum did everything to slow him down, but nothing helped.
She even forbade me from getting involved. Dads hand was heavy; best to keep out of the way.
So in those awful moments, Id slip off to find Bessie, stroke her head and stare at the house while Mum and Dad screamed inside.
Bessie would lick the tears from my cheeks, always salty, always wet. She supported me, and sometimes looked at the house as though she understood it all.
One day, I got caught up in Dads fury myself. Mum was out shopping; I was in the yard, just playing with Bessie.
He called me over, grabbed my arm, clipped me round the headagain and again. I tried to hold out, but it hurt so much I cried out and tried to break free. But his grip was vice-like.
Suddenly, Bessie, usually so calm and gentle, started barking furiously at Dad. She barked so fiercely that he lost his grip in shock. I broke free.
Dad swayed into the house, shouting threats about coming backhed return, and hed have something heavy. I knew he meant to do something truly awful. I panicked.
Go, Bessie, please go! I begged through tears, shaking as I unclipped her chain and dragged her to the gate, pushing her out onto the lane.
She only stared, confused. Was she really being sent away?
Please, girl, you cant stay. Hell be back, and I cant protect you
Just as I finished, the front door burst open, and Dad staggered out, wielding the axe.
Will! he bellowed. Whyve you let that blasted dog off? Who said you could?
Dad, dontplease, I stammered, stepping back. I wanted to flee with her, but I couldnt leave Mum in there alone with him.
Dont what?! Dad thundered, eyes wild, glaring at me, then at Bessie.
Leave the dog, Dad. Go and sleep it off. Youre not yourself
Oh really? Not to be touched, eh? After I fed her, and she barks at me? Ill teach her a lessonand you too, for having no respect for your elders.
He lurched forward, nearly fell, then grabbed the porch rail and started down the steps.
Bring her here!
Martin, dont, please Mum cried, appearing, shopping bags in hand. Shes only a little thing. You’ll kill her.
Dont start with me. This wretch needs to know whos boss round here! Will, bring her hereI said now!
There was no more time.
I turned, looked Bessie in the eye, kissed her soft nose, and shoved her through the gate towards the road.
Go! Go now! Forgive us, Bessie, please forgive me. I never wanted this
You little! Dad exploded with rage as he realised what Id done.
And Bessie, glancing back at me one final time, ran off towards the woods.
It was the only place she could hide.
Dont come back, Bessie, or hell kill you! I shouted after her, sobbing.
What happened after, she never saw.
She could only hope her beloved boy, and his mother, would survive.
*****
From that moment…
…it wasnt a month, not even a yearit was seven long years that Bessie lived in hope of a miracle.
She always wished she might see me again.
But with each year, that hope faded. I, and Mum, had long since left the village.
Half a year after she fled, Bessie dared to return. She nosed open the gate, now half off its hinges, and found the house burnt to the ground. No one left. Not me. Not Mum. Not even Dad, whom she didnt want to see.
She visited the spot a few more times, but never found us there. Yet she didnt feel that we had diedmore likely, wed just moved on. When, or where, she didnt know.
But she understood: we would not return.
No home left for usor for her.
So she wandered, village to village, never staying long.
Until an old man picked her up near the same village as beforea bit of déjà vu, that.
Lost, are you? he chuckled, grey-haired, beard down to his chest. Come on, then, you can live with me.
And so Bessie didshe had no other choice.
He turned out to be kind, though he did take to the drink now and then.
He fed herbroth, porridge, juicy bonesnever spared a penny on her.
He even took her to work.
He was the local cemetery caretaker, and night watchman.
At first, Bessie found wandering amongst gravestones unsettling, but she got used to it, to the quiet and even to Mr. Tomlinson.
He was good to her, but terribly lonely, and sad, much like she was.
When he drank, he didnt become a beast, unlike Martin. Instead, hed sigh and tell Bessie all his woeshow his wife had left him, his daughter wouldnt speak to him, called him a failure.
Bessie would snuggle close, resting her nose against his knee, listening intently. Sometimes, the only thing a soul needs is someone to listen.
And when hed gone silent, Bessie would remember her own happy daysMum, me. She tried her hardest to forget Dad.
And wouldn’t you know itone day, making rounds in the graveyard, Bessie stumbled upon his grave.
She couldnt believe it at first, but even though hed gone, the scent still lingeredhate and drink, all mixed together.
Whats got you spooked, then? Mr. Tomlinson had noticed her staring at the headstone. Ah, Martin Burned up in his own house, he did. Thats the one all the village talked about. Wife and son moved to the city, lucky for them. Served him right, people said, after all he did. But thenone shouldnt speak ill of the dead. Come on, Bessie. May he rest in peace.
Bessie lived with Mr. Tomlinson for nearly five more years. But when he died, she was alone again.
Where could she go? She was no longer a puppywho would take her?
So, she stayed at the cemetery. There was food, now and then, andif it was a resting place for people, well, she would settle there and wait for the end. She didnt need another masterMr. Tomlinson had been more of a companion in sorrow, after all.
Then, one chilly day, just as the first snow dusted the earth, something most unexpected happened.
She was on her usual rounds in search of scraps when voices reached her ears.
Weekends seldom brought visitors to the graveyard. Yet there were two voicesa man and a womanstanding by Martins grave.
That seemed odd, so she crept closer out of curiosity.
I told you, Emily, it wasnt a good idea coming here. What are we doing at my fathers grave? After everything he did, what am I supposed to forgive? For putting Mum in an early grave?
You must, Willforgive and let go. How much longer will you suffer these nightmares? Im sure as soon as you forgive, things will change. Whatever kind of man your father was, hes still your father. They say if the dead visit you in dreams, it means theyre troubled.
And how would you know?
My Nan always told me. Forgiveeveryone will find peace. You, your father as well.
Maybe youre right
I looked at the headstone, then softened.
I forgive you, Dadfor me, for Mum, and for Bessie Its only a shame I had to send my best friend away because of you. I hope shes alright.
All that while, Bessie stood behind me, scarcely believing her eyes.
It was meher boy.
So many years had passed, I was a man now; but she knew me at once.
Did I recognise her? I turned around, feeling her gaze burning into my back.
Will, what is it? Emily asked, concerned. You look like youve seen a ghost.
Not a ghost, I murmured. A dog
What? Graveyards are full of stray dogsdont tell me youre scared?
No, I I think Wait, its
I took a few steps toward Bessie.
Stopped, hesitated. She wagged her tail, hesitated too. But thensuddenlywe both leapt forward.
Emily barely had time to react before I dropped to my knees and Bessie threw herself at me, licking my cheeks, my nose, my chinher dream of seven long years had come true.
She was with her beloved person again.
*****
I, of course, took Bessie home. She got on famously with Emily, and we became a family.
At first there were three of us, then fourBessie once found a stray kitten, and without question, we brought him home. Then, five: our little boy, Harry, joined the world.
Eventually, I rebuilt the familys old house in the country, and every summer wed return for holidays, all together.
Through all the hardship, all the painBessie and I found happiness at last.












