Every Tuesday
Helen hurried down the steps of the underground, gripping an empty shopping bag in her hand. The plastic bag was a token of todays failurea whole two hours wandering through shopping centres without a single decent idea for her goddaughters present. Ten-year-old Emily had fallen out of love with ponies and was now obsessed with astronomy, and finding a proper telescope within a sensible budget had proven to be nearly impossible.
It was already evening, and the stale air below ground was filled with that particular fatigue of the days end. Helen squeezed past the exiting crowd towards the escalator, lost in her own thoughtsuntil a voice broke through the citys white noise, clear and trembling with emotion.
I never thought Id ever see him again, honestly, came the voice of a young woman behind her, delicate and uncertain. But now, every Tuesday, he collects her from nursery. Himself. Pulls up in his own car, and they go straight to that park with the merry-go-rounds…
Helen froze mid-step on the moving escalator. She even turned, just for a moment, catching a flash of a bright red coat, an animated face, eyes sparkling with feeling. Next to her, a friend listened intently, nodding.
Every Tuesday.
Once, shed had a day like that herself. Three years ago. Not Monday, with its heavy start, not Friday with its breathless rush for the weekend. But Tuesdaythe day her world revolved around.
Every Tuesday at precisely five, she would dash out of the secondary school where she taught English and literature, hurrying to the other end of the city. To the Royal Academy of Music in that old manor house with the creaking parquet floors, where she would collect Marcusher seven-year-old nephew, so earnest for his age, almost hidden behind the violin case as tall as he was. Not her child, but the son of her brother Anthony, whod died in a terrible car crash three years earlier.
Those first months after the funeral, Tuesdays became a lifeline. For Marcus, withdrawn and nearly silent. For his mother Olivia, broken and barely able to get out of bed. And for Helen herselftrying to hold together the fragments of their lives, the anchor, the steady hand in that storm of grief.
She remembered every detail: Marcus shyly leaving the classroom, not meeting anyones eyes, head bowed. How she would quietly take the heavy violin case, and he would hand it over wordlessly. Their slow walks to the underground, with Helen offering storiesfunny mistakes from dictation, or the tale of a crow stealing a schoolboys sandwich.
One sodden November afternoon, he suddenly asked, Auntie Helen, did Dad hate the rain too? Her heart twisted with pain and tenderness as she replied, He loathed it. Always dashed for the first bit of shelter. Then, Marcus slipped his hand into hers, gripped tightlynot to be led, but as if to clutch something quickly vanishing. Not her hand, really, but the memory of his father. The force of his small fingers told her everything: his heartbreak, and a sharp, almost-grown understandingyes, Dad was real. Running under shelter, hating the soaking cold, existing not only in recollection and his grandmothers quiet sighs, but here, alive in this rain-soaked November city.
For three years Helens life had split into before and after. And Tuesday was the axis. The other days faded backmere background. She prepared for Tuesdays: buying Marcus his favourite apple juice, loading up her phone with silly cartoons in case the train was packed, thinking up new stories to share.
Then things began to shift. Olivia slowly gathered herself, found a new joband eventually, a new love. She decided to start afresh in another town, far from old ghosts. Helen helped them pack, wrapped Marcuss violin in a soft case, held him tight on the platform. Ring me uptextanytime, Ill always answer, she promised, blinking away tears.
At first, Marcus still called every Tuesday at six on the dot. For a few minutes, Helen became Auntie Helen again, racing to ask him everything in that short quarter hour: about school, about violin, new friends. His small voice, a fragile line connecting them across hundreds of miles.
The calls dropped to every other weekhe was growing up, had new clubs, more homework, mates to play video games with.
Sorry, Auntie, forgot last Tuesday. We had a test, he wrote. She replied, Dont worry, love. How did it go? Her Tuesdays became marked less by a call, more by the hope of a textnot always sent. If not, she messaged first.
Later, only the big holidays: his birthday, Christmas. His voice grew firmer, more remote. He spoke in broad brushstrokesIm fine, All good, Just busy with school. His stepdad, Simon, turned out to be solid and kind; he didnt try to replace Anthonyjust quietly stood by. That was enough.
Recently, there was a new baby sister, Alice. In a photo online, Marcus cradled the tiny bundle, awkward but sincere. Lifeboth ruthless and generouscarried them forward, layering routine, caring for a newborn, navigating school, making new plans. Helens place, in this new world, became neat but gradually smaller: the aunt in the past.
Now, in the humming darkness of the underground, those wordsevery Tuesdayechoed not as reproach but as a gentle greeting. A reminder from the Helen who, three years ago, had carried fierce responsibility and love, a wound and a gift all at once. That Helen knew her place in the world: anchor, lighthouse, the essential piece in a little boys weekly pattern. She was needed.
The lady in the red coat had her own hidden sorrows and uneasy balance between memory and the demands of the present. But that rhythmevery Tuesdaywas a universal tongue. The language of presence, which says, I am here. You can depend on me. You matter to methis day, this hour. It was a tongue Helen had once spoken fluently, and now just faintly recalled.
The train pulled away. Helen straightened, watching her reflection shimmer on the glass in the black tunnel.
She got off at her stop, already sure of what shed do tomorrow: she would order two identical telescopesaffordable, but decent. One for Emily. One to be sent to Marcus. When it arrived, she would type: Marcus, now we can stargaze together, even from different towns. What do you saynext Tuesday, six oclock, if its clear, shall we look for Ursa Major at the same time? Lets synchronise our watches. Love from Auntie Helen.
Emerging onto the street, she breathed in cold, fresh city air. The next Tuesday was no longer just a blank spaceit was scheduled again, not as a duty but as a gentle pact between two people, bound by gratitude, memory, and that quiet, unbreakable thread of family.
Life moved on. And in her diary, there were still days to be claimednot merely survived, but appointed. Appointed for the small miracles, for memory that warms rather than wounds, for the kind of love that learns the language of distance and is all the stronger, all the wiser, for it.












