Even thirty years of marriage isnt a reason to tolerate betrayal
Helen twirled a tiny box between her fingers the velvet worn thin, the golden letters faded almost to nothing. Inside, three delicate stones caught the light. Beautiful, she had to admit.
Five hundred pounds, said Oliver, scrolling through the news on his tablet. Got it at Goldsmiths, with a loyalty card.
Thank you, love.
Helen felt something tighten in her chest. Not because of the money what did that matter at their age? It was the way he said it. Almost indifferent. As if he was reporting buying a pint of milk.
Thirty years together. Their pearl anniversary rare these days. Shed risen early and dug out the fancy lace-trimmed tablecloth from the wardrobe a wedding gift from her mother-in-law. She started making Angels Breath, a cake Oliver used to call a piece of heaven.
Now he sat buried in his screen, barely grunting answers to her questions.
Oliver, do you remember promising to take me to Italy for our thirtieth?
Hm, he murmured, eyes still on the tablet.
I thought, maybe, at least a weekend in Cornwall? We havent had a proper holiday together in ages.
Hel, Ive a burning project at work. No time right now.
Always a project. These days, even more so especially since Oliver had suddenly caught the bug for youth about a year and a half ago. Signed up at the gym, bought expensive trainers, switched up his wardrobe. Even his haircut was trendy now a fringe swept to the side, shaved temples.
Midlife crisis, said her friend Suzanne. All men go through it. Itll pass.
It didnt. In fact, it got worse.
Helen slipped the ring onto her finger it fit perfectly. At least after thirty years, he remembered her size. The stones shimmered with a cold sort of shine.
Its pretty, she repeated, studying the gift.
Yeah. Modern setting. Young folks style.
That evening, they sat mostly in silence at their anniversary table. The cake came out as it always did soft and light as air. Oliver ate a slice, praised it out of habit. Helen watched him and wondered: when had her husband become a stranger?
Who is she? she suddenly asked.
Who? Oliver looked up from his plate.
The girl who helped choose this ring.
Whats she got to do with anything?
Oliver, her voice was calm, Im not a fool. A woman picked this ring. No man says young folks style.
A long, awkward pause.
Hel, come on, dont be ridiculous.
Her names Alicia, isnt it?
Oliver paled. He didnt even ask how she knew. So shed struck gold.
I saw your messages by accident, last month, when you asked me to find your insurance number on your phone. Sweetheart, see you soon ring a bell?
He was silent.
Twenty-eight. Works at your office. She posted a picture from a restaurant yesterday the table by the window, you know the one. I recognised the tablecloth.
How do you know about the restaurant?
Suzanne saw you. By chance. You think in this town no one will notice?
Oliver sighed heavily.
Fine. Yes, theres Alicia. But its not what you think.
Then what is it?
She understands me. With her, its easy, and interesting. We talk about books and films.
And with me, theres nothing to talk about?
Hel, look at yourself! You just talk about the kids, your health, how prices have gone up in Tesco. With Alicia, I feel alive.
Alive, Helen echoed. I see.
I never meant to hurt you.
Oliver hung his head.
Does she know youre married?
She does.
And that doesnt bother her? Happy to see a married man?
Shes modern. No illusions.
So, modern. Helen gave a bitter laugh. And thirty years with you, is that just an illusion?
She got up and cleared the table, hiding her shaking hands.
Hel, cant we just talk reasonably?
Theres nothing left to say. Youve made your choice.
I havent chosen anyone!
You have. Every day. When you come home late. When you make up trips away. When you buy her gifts with my money.
With our money!
Its mine too. I work, remember?
Helen washed up, stacked the dishes neatly to dry, carefully folded away the tablecloth. Everything as usual, except her hands still trembled.
Hel, what do you want? Oliver asked, leaning in the kitchen doorway.
I want to be alone. Tonight. To think.
And tomorrow?
I dont know.
She didnt speak for two days. Oliver tried to start a conversation, but got only polite, curt replies. On the third day, he snapped:
How long is this going to go on?
What exactly bothers you? Helen asked, ironing his shirt. Im still doing everything. Cooking, cleaning, laundry. Just like always.
But you wont talk to me!
Why? Youve got Alicia for talking.
Helen!
What, Helen? You said it yourself Im boring, nothing to say. Why force it?
That evening, he left. Said he was off to see friends. She knew perfectly well where hed gone.
Helen sat at the computer, pulled up Alicias social media. Pretty, young, holiday snaps from fancy hotels, the latest fashions, a glass of champagne in hand.
One post, just yesterday: Life is wonderful when youre with someone who valu es you. The hashtags: love, happiness, maturegentleman.
Mature gentleman. Helen almost laughed. Like a brand label.
Her friends messaged beneath: Ali, whens the wedding?, Lucky you such a great man!, What about his wife?
Alicia replied: Theyre just married on paper. Like neighbours now.
Thirty years like neighbours.
The next morning, Helen booked a meeting with a solicitor. The young man in glasses listened thoughtfully as she talked.
Right. Joint assets split fifty-fifty: house, cottage, car. If we can prove adultery, you could claim a larger share.
I dont want more than my fair part, Helen replied. Fair will do.
At home, she made a list:
House sell and split the money.
Cottage his. Im done with it.
Car mine. He can find himself a new one.
Bank accounts divide.
Oliver came home late, spotted the list on the kitchen table.
Whats this?
Divorce.
Have you lost your mind?
No. Ive come to my senses.
Hel, I explained! Its just a fling. Itll pass!
And if it doesnt? Am I supposed to wait another thirty years while you get over yourself?
He sank onto the sofa, face in his hands.
I never meant to hurt you.
But you did.
What do I do now?
Choose, Helen said. Family or Alicia. Theres no third way.
For three months, they lived as literal neighbours. Oliver moved into the guest room. They spoke only when necessary. Helen took up English classes, started swimming, and finally found time for all the books shed put off.
Alicia called now and then, crying to Oliver on the phone. Hed go out to the balcony, whispering to her for ages.
One evening, he came home early, sat opposite Helen.
Ive broken up with her.
Why do I need to know this?
Hel, Ive realised I was an idiot. I made a terrible mistake.
I agree.
Can we try again? Ive changed.
Helen put her book down.
Oliver, you split up with her not because you appreciate me. Just because she got boring. Another Alicia will show up in a year or two.
She wont!
Oh, she will. Because its not me youre losing its your youth. And I cant help you with that.
Hel.
The papers are ready. Sign them.
He signed. No fights, no drama over the house. Helen took only what was on her list.
Six months later, she met Richard her age, a widower, an English tutor. Theyd met at her classes. He invited her to a play at the theatre.
You know, Helen, he said over coffee after the show, I enjoy talking with you. Youre interesting.
Really? My ex-husband found me boring.
Then he never learned to listen.
Richard listened well. He valued her opinions, laughed at her jokes, shared his stories never pretending to be younger than he was.
What do you like in women? Helen asked one day.
Brains. Kindness. Being genuine. And you?
Honesty. And the courage to be himself, age and all.
They both laughed.
Oliver called sometimes. Sent greetings on holidays, asked after her health. Like two old acquaintances.
Are you happy? he asked once.
Yes, Helen answered without thinking. And you?
Dont know. Probably not.
Well, everyone makes their choices.
She kept the five hundred pound ring. Never wore it it lay in her jewellery box, a reminder of how easily thirty years can be devalued.
For her birthday, Richard gave her an antique brooch from a flea market simple, nothing expensive, chosen with real thought.
Beauty isnt in the price, he said. Its in the feeling with which its given.
And Helen realised after fifty, life doesnt end. It begins again, with a new chapter.
What do you think? Is it possible to start afresh later in life?











