My Dearest. A Story
Only recently did I learn that I grew up in a foster family.
Even now, its hard for me to believe. But theres no one left to discuss everything with both my foster parents passed away, one after the other. My father went first; he took ill, and never got back on his feet. Soon after, my mother followed him.
I remember sitting by my mothers bedside, clutching her frail, lifeless hand. She was terribly weak. Suddenly, I noticed her eyes flicker open:
Emily, love, theres something your father and I never managed to tell you. We just couldnt bring ourselves to say it We well we found you. Yes, found you in the woods. You were crying, lost. We waited, thinking someone would come looking. We even called the police. But nobody came. Perhaps something happenedI honestly dont know. Eventually, they allowed us to adopt you.
In my old bureau drawer, with all my papers, youll find some letters and documents Do go through them. Forgive us, darling. Mums so tired now.
She closed her eyes in exhaustion.
Oh, Mum, I said, pressing her cold hand to my cheek, unsure what else to say, my dear Mum, I love you so much. I just wish you could get better.
But a miracle never came. My mother slipped away quietly just a few days later.
If only shed never told me anything at all.
Back then, I didnt share any of this with my husband or children. It was as if Id forced my mothers last confession into the deepest corner of my memory.
The children adored their grandma and granddad. I couldnt bear to upset them with a truth no one really needed.
One day, though, led by some vague impulse, I opened that folder Mum had mentioned.
Newspaper clippings. Letters. Replies. I started reading, and couldnt stop. My lovely, wonderful parents!
Theyd found melittle Emily, just over a year oldcrying alone in the woods. They were already over forty, childless, when suddenly, a tiny, sobbing girl reached towards them.
The local constable shrugged helplesslyno one had reported a missing child.
So, they adopted me. But Mum never stopped looking for my birth family.
Not, it seemed, to find them, but to be sure nobody would come and take me away from her.
I slammed the folder shut and shoved it at the back of the cupboard. Who needed that sort of truth?
A week later, I was unexpectedly called into Human Resources at work:
Emily Robinson, someone from your previous job is making enquiries about you.
Another woman, about my age, was sitting with the HR manager:
Good morning, my names Hope. I really must have a word with you, she glanced at the manager its about some letters from your late mother, Mrs. Robinson. You are her daughter, arent you?
They said it was about my old job, the HR manager protested, personal matters should be dealt with on your own time.
Hope, lets step outside and talk, I suggested, and we left under the HR managers disapproving stare.
Forgive me, its a bit odd, but I made a promise, Hope began anxiously. Three years ago, I ran into my old primary school teacher in Little Waltham. Shed left years before, and by then she was all on her own, quite frail. She invited me round for tea and asked if Id help her with something. She claimed shed lost her daughter years ago, when the girl was just a toddler. Shed been corresponding with your mother.
Im sorry, Hope, Mum has passed away and Im really not involved in this, I answered coldly, turning away.
I understand, Emily, I do. But you see, my old teacher, Vera Watson, is now very ill with cancer. She hasnt got much time left, and shes desperate to find her daughter before its too late. Shes even given me a lock of hair for a DNA test. Can you imagine?
I was about to end the conversation, but something stopped me.
Did you say shes very ill?
Hope nodded.
I took the little envelope of hair from Hope and agreed to keep in touch.
A week later, we were travelling together to the hospital to visit Miss Watson.
We entered her room and she peered at us, her eyes cloudy but hopeful.
Oh, Hope, is that you? Thank you, dear, she smiled shyly, her eyes flicking to me with a question.
Mrs. Watson, Ive found her. This is Emily. She wanted to come herself, Hope handed her an envelope.
Whats this? Even with my glasses, I cant quite see, her gaze was terribly vulnerable.
Its the DNA results, Hope explained, carefully unfolding the paper. It says youre related. Emily is your daughter.
Her face lit up and softened, tears of happiness spilling onto her cheeks.
My dearest, thank you both, she whispered, stretching her arms towards me. My own child, what a joy to have found you. Alive, beautiful, just like me when I was young. My darling girl. All these years, I would wake in the night, certain I could hear your cries, calling for me.
Theres no forgiveness for me.
Alive. Youre alive. Now I can rest.
After a while, Hope and I left her room; Mrs. Watson had fallen asleep, utterly spent.
Thank you, Emily, youve made her happy. You can see how poorly she is
A few days later, Mrs. Watson was gone.
I burned all the papers from Mums folder. I didnt want anyone unearthing an unnecessary truth.
Theres nothing more to know, really. For me, there was never any other mother but Mum.
And Mrs. Watson? In my heart, I think of it as a holy lie. Was I right? I believe it was the only choice.
But in the end, we all answer to Godeach for what weve done.
Reflecting on these events, I understand now that sometimes, mercy matters more than the truth. And love, after all, is what truly makes a family.












