Dad Is Better
Alex, we need to talk.
Emma fussed with the tablecloth, smoothing out imagined wrinkles with restless fingers. She tried to sound calm, but my mums hands betrayed her nerves. I sat opposite, absorbed in my phone, thumbs moving a bit too quickly, feigning interest. Ignoring her was my favourite defence.
Son theres something important I want to explain to you.
I kept tapping away, offering nothing but the clicks of my screen.
Mum took a deep breath, bracing herself for words shed delayed for a week.
When your father and I separated it was half a year before I introduced you to Graham. I took my time, you know? I wanted to be sure it was something real.
My thumbs froze. I looked up slowly, and I know my glare made her pull back probably more than I meant.
Real? I spat out. You think its so serious with him? With that stranger? Hes not worth the dirt under my dads fingernails. Dads always the best nothing beats him!
The memory of that first meeting came flooding back, painful and sharp: a tall stranger in our hallway, mums awkward smile, the unfamiliar scent of cologne. An invader, standing where Dad shouldve been.
Hes not a stranger, Mum replied softly. Hes my husband now.
Exactly. Yours. I threw my phone on the table. Hes nobody to me. My dad is Dad. Not him.
I didnt need to finish; my tone made everything obvious.
Graham tried Lord, he tried. Every evening he disappeared into the garage, hunched over my bent bicycle, oil smudging his hands, sweat on his brow, stubborn smile on his lips, determined to win me over at any cost.
Look, straightened the frame, hed say, wiping his palms on a rag. Want a ride tomorrow?
Silence. Just cold, ringing silence.
Hed sit beside me at my desk, explaining equations like I was seven again.
Right, so if you move the X across
I get it, Id cut him off, even when I didnt. Anything to end the conversation.
Every morning, the kitchen smelled of fresh pancakes with honey my favourite. Graham stacked them neatly on a plate and set them in front of me.
Dads were thinner, Id mumble, barely touching the food. And he bought proper honey. This is tasteless.
Every act of kindness bounced off a wall of indifference. I collected reasons for sarcasm, turning every detail into a comparison.
Dad never shouted.
Dad always knew what I liked.
Dad got everything right.
Mums wedding to Graham cracked our fragile truce. I saw the marriage certificate as betrayal final and complete. Home became a minefield; every morning began in strained silence, every night ended with a slammed door.
I turned into a secret agent without realising. Every slip from Graham was noted like evidence. A snapped comment at dinner recorded. A sigh of frustration over my homework banked. A tired not now after work into my store of grievances.
Dad, he shouted at me again, Id whisper into the phone, locked in my room.
Really? Dad, Pete, his name would cluck with false sympathy. Poor lad. Remember how we went to the park? Every weekend, right?
Yeah, I remember
That was a proper family. Not like now.
Dad turned every family spat into epic tragedy, painting a past where the sun always shone, the grass was greener, and Dad was flawless.
Graham felt like a guest in his own home. Just one look from me screamed: you dont belong. Youre in someone elses place. Youll never be family.
Fatigue built up, layer on layer, weighing everybody down.
Then it all shattered one usual evening at dinner.
Youve no right to tell me what to do! I exploded after Graham asked me to put my phone away. Youre nothing to me! Right? Nothing!
Mum froze, fork in hand. Something snapped inside her. I stared pure hate at Graham; it made the air thick.
My dads better than you in every way. And you Dad says you ruin everything! Id be better off with him!
Thats enough, Mum said quietly. I mean it.
Next morning, she dialed Dad. Her fingers shook but she was determined.
Pete, she began, voice steady, since you say youre the better parent, you can have Alex. For good. Im willing, Ill even pay child support.
The silence on the line was endless.
Well you see right nows a bit Dad started blustering. Work, you know, and there are trips I would, but
He trailed off, papers rustling, a cough.
You know, Emma its tricky. The flats only got one bedroom, Ive started renovating. And you know my job, hours are mad.
Mum said nothing, letting him flounder.
And then theres Charlotte my girlfriend shes not really ready for a kid around. We only just moved in together, settling, you know
It was pathetic. This man who stoked me against her and Graham calling, feeding poisonous words, turning sparks of resentment into flames. Now: a one-bed flat, renovations, Charlottes not keen.
I get it, Pete, Mum said calmly. Thanks for your honesty.
She hung up before he could reply.
That evening, Mum called me into the lounge. I flopped into the armchair with my usual defiance, but something about her expression made me hesitate.
I talked to your father today.
Every muscle tensed; I leaned forward.
What did he say?
She sat opposite me.
Hes not willing to take you. Not now, not ever. He has a new life, a new girlfriend, and youre not a part of it.
Youre lying! You always lie! I snapped. Dad loves me! He told me himself
Its easy to say things. Mums voice was quiet and steady. When I offered for you to live with him, he remembered renovations and his one-bedroom flat.
I was speechless.
Listen carefully. Mum leaned in. No more comparisons. No more spying, reporting back to Dad, no more rudeness to Graham. Either were a family all three or you go to your father, who doesnt want you. Ill make him take you if necessary. And youll see for yourself what your dads really like.
I sat there, frozen. My world kind dad versus evil stepdad shattered instantly. Dad didnt want me. Dad chose Charlotte and DIY. Dad just used me to spite Mum?
The truth stung, slowly sinking in. All those evening calls, the dramatic sighs, the questions What did he do now? werent care. They were ammo. Pete was stockpiling tales for his own little war on Mum, and I delivered them, ready-made.
I swallowed the lump in my throat.
And Graham? The same Graham Id tormented for months? Who patiently fixed my bike frame while I stomped past the garage? Who got up half an hour early to fry pancakes every morning? Who never gave up, never left, never stopped trying no matter how cruel I got?
Change wasnt easy. For weeks, I hid in my room, avoiding Grahams eyes. I was too ashamed to admit how childish Id acted. Every sight of him reminded me Id snarled Youre nothing to me, and I only wanted to disappear.
Everyone tiptoed around each other, speaking in cautious phrases. Our house felt like a hospital ward: fragile, holding on by a thread.
The first real step came with my physics homework. Id spent two hours on it, chewed my pencil, and finally, desperate, surrendered.
Graham The name stuck in my throat. Can you help? Somethings off with these vectors.
He looked up from his laptop. No surprise, no triumph just calm acceptance.
Lets have a look.
A month later, we went fishing together. We sat by the riverbank watching the floats, and I started talking: about school, mates, a girl in the next class whod caught my eye. No complaints. No comparisons. Just conversation.
Graham listened, nodded, sometimes adding his own story. And I understood: family isnt about dramatic declarations or perfect memories. Its made in quiet breakfasts, in patience, in staying close even when it feels impossible.
I made my choice. The right one.












