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Two Columns She’d already slipped off her boots and put the kettle on when a message from her manager flashed up: “Could you cover Svetlana’s shift tomorrow? She’s got a fever, and there’s no one else to take it.” Her hands were wet from the sink, smudging the screen immediately. She wiped them on a towel and glanced at the calendar on her phone. Tomorrow was her one free evening—the one she’d planned to turn in early, ignore everyone, and rest before reporting in the morning, her head still throbbing. She typed, “I can’t, I have…” and stopped. Up surged that sickly feeling she knew so well: say no and you’ve let them down—you’re not that kind of person. She erased it and typed simply: “Yes, I’ll do it.” Sent. The kettle rumbled. She poured a mug of tea, sat on the stool by the window, and opened the note on her phone simply titled “Good Deeds.” The date was there already, with an entry: “Covered Svetlana’s shift.” She put a period and added a little plus sign, as if it somehow balanced the scales. She’d kept that note for almost a year. It had started on a January day, when the world felt especially hollow after Christmas and she needed proof her days weren’t just dissolving into nothing. The first entry: “Gave Mrs. Newton a lift to the surgery.” Mrs. Newton from the fifth floor walked with difficulty, medical papers pinched in her fist, and the bus ride was daunting. She’d rung the intercom: “You’ve got a car—could you take me? I won’t make it otherwise.” So she had. Waited outside while Mrs. Newton had her bloods done, drove her home. On the journey back she caught herself stewing with irritation. She was running late for work, her mind already circling other people’s complaints about waiting rooms and doctors. The irritation shamed her; she swallowed it down, washed it away with a cheap coffee at the petrol station. In the note, she wrote it up neatly, as if it had been pure. In February, her son had a work trip and dropped her grandson off for the weekend. “You’re home anyway, it’s no bother,” he said—not asking, just telling her. The child was sweet, noisy, always after her attention: “Look, Gran,” “Play with me,” “Come on, let’s do this.” She loved him, but by evening her hands shook with tiredness, her mind rang like after a rock concert. After putting him to bed, washing up, collecting toys in the box—only for them to be dumped out again at dawn—she greeted her son, who chuckled: “Come on, you’re a grandma.” He kissed her cheek. In her note: “Looked after my grandson for two days.” She added a heart, hoping it might blot out the obligation. March: her cousin phoned, asked to borrow some money until payday. “It’s for prescriptions, you understand,” she said. And she did understand. She sent the money, never asked when it would be returned. Then sat at her kitchen table, wondering how to get by till her own payday—skipping the new coat she’d long needed; the old one was worn shiny at the elbows now. On her list: “Helped out my cousin.” She didn’t add: “Put off something for myself.” That seemed too petty to record. April at work: one of the girls, young, red-eyed, stuck crying in the loo after being dumped, saying no one cared. She knocked: “Let me in, I’m here.” Later, they sat on freshly-painted stairs, the girl repeating herself. She just listened, long into the dark, missing her back-strengthening class the doctor had ordered for her pain. At home, her lower back throbbed. She wanted to be angry at the girl, but the anger was for herself: why aren’t you able to say “I need to go home”? The note: “Listened to Katie, offered support.” She wrote her name; that made it warmer. But she didn’t write: “Cancelled my own plans.” June: she drove a colleague out to her allotment with bags when her car broke down. The whole drive, the woman bickered with her husband on speakerphone, never once checking if it was convenient. She just stared at the road in silence. At the plot, the colleague unloaded quickly: “Thanks, you were heading this way anyway.” Only, she wasn’t. The detour meant she missed seeing her mother, who was cross about it later. In her note: “Drove Tanya to her allotment.” “On my way” stung her. She stared at the screen until it blacked out. August, late at night, her mum rang. Thin, anxious voice: “I don’t feel well, my blood pressure’s up, I’m scared.” She rushed to her mother’s flat in a taxi through empty streets. The flat was stifling, blood pressure monitor on the table, pills scattered on a saucer. She took a reading, gave her the tablets, and sat close until her mother slept. Next morning: straight to work, not home. In the tube, she kept nearly missing her stop, eyelids heavy. The note: “Stayed with Mum overnight.” She put an exclamation mark, then erased it—sounded too loud. By autumn, the list had grown. It was now a ribbon you could scroll through endlessly. And the longer it became, the more she felt that odd sensation: as if she lived only by submitting reports; as if love itself was handed out by receipt, and she was stashing them on her phone, just in case anyone asked: “Do you actually do anything?” She tried to remember when there’d last been anything on the list for her. Not “for her,” but “because of her.” Every entry was about others—their pains, their requests, their plans. Her own wishes seemed like petty tantrums to be hidden. October brought a sting—there was no row, but it left a scratch. She dropped off documents her son needed, standing in the hall as he searched for keys and took a call. Her grandson ran in circles, shouting for cartoons. With the call on hold, her son said, “Mum, since you’re here, could you pop to the shop? We’re out of milk and bread, and I just won’t have time.” She said, “I’m tired, too, you know.” He didn’t even look up, just shrugged: “But you can. You always can.” And went back to his conversation. Not a request—an expectation. She felt heat rise inside her, and shame with it: the shame of wanting to say “no.” Of not wanting, suddenly, to be endlessly convenient. She went anyway. Bought the bread, milk, and apples—her grandson’s favourite. Put the bags on their table, heard: “Thanks, Mum.” The thanks was flat, like a tick in a register. She smiled and left. Home again, she wrote: “Brought shopping for my son.” She stared at the words. Her fingers trembled—not from tiredness, but from anger. The list, she realized, was no longer a prop. It was a leash. In November, she booked a doctor’s appointment; her back pain had become unbearable. She scheduled it Saturday morning—no need to call in at work. But Friday night, her mum phoned: “Will you come round tomorrow? I need the chemist, and I’m all alone.” “I have my appointment, Mum.” A pause. “Oh, right. I guess I don’t matter, then.” That always got her. She never failed to leap in, reassure, rearrange her life. She nearly did it again, was about to say, “I’ll come after”—but stopped. It wasn’t defiance—just exhaustion, like realising her life also counted for something. She said softly: “Mum, I’ll come in the afternoon. I need to see the doctor.” Mum sighed, as if left out in the cold: “Alright, then.” In that “alright” was everything—hurt, pressure, habit. She slept badly that night. Dreamed of running down hallways with files, doors shutting in her face. Next morning, she made herself porridge, took pills from her cupboard, and left. At the clinic, surrounded by conversations about check-ups and pensions, she thought less about her diagnosis and more about this: for once, she was doing something for herself, and it frightened her. Afterwards, she kept her promise. Picked up the prescription, trudged to the third floor. Her mum greeted her in silence, then asked, “Did you go?” “Yes.” And, not apologising: “I needed to.” For a second, her mum really looked—not at her as a function, but as a person. Then turned away. That night, heading home, she felt a strange relief. Not joy, but space—space where she might fit. By December, as the year closed, she found herself waiting for weekends not as a break, but as an opportunity. One Saturday morning, her son texted: “Could you watch your grandson for a few hours? We need to run some errands.” She read it, her fingers hovering automatically at “yes.” Sitting on the bed, phone warm in her hand, the flat silent except for the radiator ticking, she remembered her plans: that day, she’d wanted to go into town, visit a museum, see the exhibition she kept putting off. Just walk among the pictures in peace—no one asking where the socks were or what was for tea. She wrote: “I can’t today. I’ve got my own plans.” Sent, flipping the phone face-down as if that made saying it easier. Reply came a minute later. “Okay,” her son said. Then: “Are you upset with us?” She turned the phone over, read it, and felt that old urge—to explain, defend, smooth everything over. She could have typed a long reply: that she was tired, too, that she needed to live a little. But she knew explanations always covered her in guilt—and she didn’t want to haggle for her own time anymore. She wrote: “No. It just matters to me.” And nothing more. She packed for her day out as carefully as for work. Checked the iron, the windows, grabbed her purse and charger. At the bus stop, standing among people with their shopping bags, she felt a new, unfamiliar ease: she didn’t owe herself to anyone, not right now. At the museum, she took her time—watching the faces on the portraits, the hands, the way the painted light gathered in the windows. She felt as if she was learning all over again to be attentive, not to other people’s needs, but to herself. She had coffee in a small café, bought a postcard of her favourite painting, and slipped it into her bag. Sturdy card, pleasing under her fingers. Back home, she left her phone in her bag, only fetched it after her coat was hung and her hands washed, the kettle on again. Sitting at the table, she opened “Good Deeds.” Scrolled all the way to today’s date. She stared at the empty space. Then pressed the plus and typed: “Went to the museum alone. Chose my own company instead of someone else’s errands.” And paused. The words “instead of someone else’s errands” seemed too harsh, as if she were pointing fingers. She erased them and wrote, simply: “Went to the museum alone. Looked after myself.” And then she did something she’d never done before: at the top of her list, she added two columns. On the left: “For Others.” On the right: “For Myself.” At first, under “For Myself,” there was just the one line. She looked at it, feeling something inside realign—like a spine stretching out at last. She didn’t need to prove to anyone that she was good. She just needed to remember she was here. Her phone buzzed again. She didn’t rush. She poured her tea, took a sip, and then checked the message. Mum, short and to the point: “How are you?” She replied: “I’m fine. I’ll bring you some bread tomorrow.” And before sending, added: “I was busy today.” Sent it and put the phone down, screen up. The flat was quiet, but the silence wasn’t heavy. It was a space—and for the first time, that space belonged to her.

She had just slipped off her boots and put the kettle on when a message from her manager popped up: Any

Two Columns She’d already slipped off her boots and put the kettle on when a message from her manager flashed up: “Could you cover Svetlana’s shift tomorrow? She’s got a fever, and there’s no one else to take it.” Her hands were wet from the sink, smudging the screen immediately. She wiped them on a towel and glanced at the calendar on her phone. Tomorrow was her one free evening—the one she’d planned to turn in early, ignore everyone, and rest before reporting in the morning, her head still throbbing. She typed, “I can’t, I have…” and stopped. Up surged that sickly feeling she knew so well: say no and you’ve let them down—you’re not that kind of person. She erased it and typed simply: “Yes, I’ll do it.” Sent. The kettle rumbled. She poured a mug of tea, sat on the stool by the window, and opened the note on her phone simply titled “Good Deeds.” The date was there already, with an entry: “Covered Svetlana’s shift.” She put a period and added a little plus sign, as if it somehow balanced the scales. She’d kept that note for almost a year. It had started on a January day, when the world felt especially hollow after Christmas and she needed proof her days weren’t just dissolving into nothing. The first entry: “Gave Mrs. Newton a lift to the surgery.” Mrs. Newton from the fifth floor walked with difficulty, medical papers pinched in her fist, and the bus ride was daunting. She’d rung the intercom: “You’ve got a car—could you take me? I won’t make it otherwise.” So she had. Waited outside while Mrs. Newton had her bloods done, drove her home. On the journey back she caught herself stewing with irritation. She was running late for work, her mind already circling other people’s complaints about waiting rooms and doctors. The irritation shamed her; she swallowed it down, washed it away with a cheap coffee at the petrol station. In the note, she wrote it up neatly, as if it had been pure. In February, her son had a work trip and dropped her grandson off for the weekend. “You’re home anyway, it’s no bother,” he said—not asking, just telling her. The child was sweet, noisy, always after her attention: “Look, Gran,” “Play with me,” “Come on, let’s do this.” She loved him, but by evening her hands shook with tiredness, her mind rang like after a rock concert. After putting him to bed, washing up, collecting toys in the box—only for them to be dumped out again at dawn—she greeted her son, who chuckled: “Come on, you’re a grandma.” He kissed her cheek. In her note: “Looked after my grandson for two days.” She added a heart, hoping it might blot out the obligation. March: her cousin phoned, asked to borrow some money until payday. “It’s for prescriptions, you understand,” she said. And she did understand. She sent the money, never asked when it would be returned. Then sat at her kitchen table, wondering how to get by till her own payday—skipping the new coat she’d long needed; the old one was worn shiny at the elbows now. On her list: “Helped out my cousin.” She didn’t add: “Put off something for myself.” That seemed too petty to record. April at work: one of the girls, young, red-eyed, stuck crying in the loo after being dumped, saying no one cared. She knocked: “Let me in, I’m here.” Later, they sat on freshly-painted stairs, the girl repeating herself. She just listened, long into the dark, missing her back-strengthening class the doctor had ordered for her pain. At home, her lower back throbbed. She wanted to be angry at the girl, but the anger was for herself: why aren’t you able to say “I need to go home”? The note: “Listened to Katie, offered support.” She wrote her name; that made it warmer. But she didn’t write: “Cancelled my own plans.” June: she drove a colleague out to her allotment with bags when her car broke down. The whole drive, the woman bickered with her husband on speakerphone, never once checking if it was convenient. She just stared at the road in silence. At the plot, the colleague unloaded quickly: “Thanks, you were heading this way anyway.” Only, she wasn’t. The detour meant she missed seeing her mother, who was cross about it later. In her note: “Drove Tanya to her allotment.” “On my way” stung her. She stared at the screen until it blacked out. August, late at night, her mum rang. Thin, anxious voice: “I don’t feel well, my blood pressure’s up, I’m scared.” She rushed to her mother’s flat in a taxi through empty streets. The flat was stifling, blood pressure monitor on the table, pills scattered on a saucer. She took a reading, gave her the tablets, and sat close until her mother slept. Next morning: straight to work, not home. In the tube, she kept nearly missing her stop, eyelids heavy. The note: “Stayed with Mum overnight.” She put an exclamation mark, then erased it—sounded too loud. By autumn, the list had grown. It was now a ribbon you could scroll through endlessly. And the longer it became, the more she felt that odd sensation: as if she lived only by submitting reports; as if love itself was handed out by receipt, and she was stashing them on her phone, just in case anyone asked: “Do you actually do anything?” She tried to remember when there’d last been anything on the list for her. Not “for her,” but “because of her.” Every entry was about others—their pains, their requests, their plans. Her own wishes seemed like petty tantrums to be hidden. October brought a sting—there was no row, but it left a scratch. She dropped off documents her son needed, standing in the hall as he searched for keys and took a call. Her grandson ran in circles, shouting for cartoons. With the call on hold, her son said, “Mum, since you’re here, could you pop to the shop? We’re out of milk and bread, and I just won’t have time.” She said, “I’m tired, too, you know.” He didn’t even look up, just shrugged: “But you can. You always can.” And went back to his conversation. Not a request—an expectation. She felt heat rise inside her, and shame with it: the shame of wanting to say “no.” Of not wanting, suddenly, to be endlessly convenient. She went anyway. Bought the bread, milk, and apples—her grandson’s favourite. Put the bags on their table, heard: “Thanks, Mum.” The thanks was flat, like a tick in a register. She smiled and left. Home again, she wrote: “Brought shopping for my son.” She stared at the words. Her fingers trembled—not from tiredness, but from anger. The list, she realized, was no longer a prop. It was a leash. In November, she booked a doctor’s appointment; her back pain had become unbearable. She scheduled it Saturday morning—no need to call in at work. But Friday night, her mum phoned: “Will you come round tomorrow? I need the chemist, and I’m all alone.” “I have my appointment, Mum.” A pause. “Oh, right. I guess I don’t matter, then.” That always got her. She never failed to leap in, reassure, rearrange her life. She nearly did it again, was about to say, “I’ll come after”—but stopped. It wasn’t defiance—just exhaustion, like realising her life also counted for something. She said softly: “Mum, I’ll come in the afternoon. I need to see the doctor.” Mum sighed, as if left out in the cold: “Alright, then.” In that “alright” was everything—hurt, pressure, habit. She slept badly that night. Dreamed of running down hallways with files, doors shutting in her face. Next morning, she made herself porridge, took pills from her cupboard, and left. At the clinic, surrounded by conversations about check-ups and pensions, she thought less about her diagnosis and more about this: for once, she was doing something for herself, and it frightened her. Afterwards, she kept her promise. Picked up the prescription, trudged to the third floor. Her mum greeted her in silence, then asked, “Did you go?” “Yes.” And, not apologising: “I needed to.” For a second, her mum really looked—not at her as a function, but as a person. Then turned away. That night, heading home, she felt a strange relief. Not joy, but space—space where she might fit. By December, as the year closed, she found herself waiting for weekends not as a break, but as an opportunity. One Saturday morning, her son texted: “Could you watch your grandson for a few hours? We need to run some errands.” She read it, her fingers hovering automatically at “yes.” Sitting on the bed, phone warm in her hand, the flat silent except for the radiator ticking, she remembered her plans: that day, she’d wanted to go into town, visit a museum, see the exhibition she kept putting off. Just walk among the pictures in peace—no one asking where the socks were or what was for tea. She wrote: “I can’t today. I’ve got my own plans.” Sent, flipping the phone face-down as if that made saying it easier. Reply came a minute later. “Okay,” her son said. Then: “Are you upset with us?” She turned the phone over, read it, and felt that old urge—to explain, defend, smooth everything over. She could have typed a long reply: that she was tired, too, that she needed to live a little. But she knew explanations always covered her in guilt—and she didn’t want to haggle for her own time anymore. She wrote: “No. It just matters to me.” And nothing more. She packed for her day out as carefully as for work. Checked the iron, the windows, grabbed her purse and charger. At the bus stop, standing among people with their shopping bags, she felt a new, unfamiliar ease: she didn’t owe herself to anyone, not right now. At the museum, she took her time—watching the faces on the portraits, the hands, the way the painted light gathered in the windows. She felt as if she was learning all over again to be attentive, not to other people’s needs, but to herself. She had coffee in a small café, bought a postcard of her favourite painting, and slipped it into her bag. Sturdy card, pleasing under her fingers. Back home, she left her phone in her bag, only fetched it after her coat was hung and her hands washed, the kettle on again. Sitting at the table, she opened “Good Deeds.” Scrolled all the way to today’s date. She stared at the empty space. Then pressed the plus and typed: “Went to the museum alone. Chose my own company instead of someone else’s errands.” And paused. The words “instead of someone else’s errands” seemed too harsh, as if she were pointing fingers. She erased them and wrote, simply: “Went to the museum alone. Looked after myself.” And then she did something she’d never done before: at the top of her list, she added two columns. On the left: “For Others.” On the right: “For Myself.” At first, under “For Myself,” there was just the one line. She looked at it, feeling something inside realign—like a spine stretching out at last. She didn’t need to prove to anyone that she was good. She just needed to remember she was here. Her phone buzzed again. She didn’t rush. She poured her tea, took a sip, and then checked the message. Mum, short and to the point: “How are you?” She replied: “I’m fine. I’ll bring you some bread tomorrow.” And before sending, added: “I was busy today.” Sent it and put the phone down, screen up. The flat was quiet, but the silence wasn’t heavy. It was a space—and for the first time, that space belonged to her.

She had just slipped off her boots and put the kettle on when a message from her manager popped up: Any

“I Know About Your Affairs,” Said His Wife. Victor Went Cold. No, he didn’t flinch. He didn’t even pale—though inside, everything clenched up tight, like scrap paper before it’s tossed into the bin. He simply froze. Lorraine stood at the stove, stirring something in a saucepan. The usual picture—back to her husband, a polka-dot apron, the smell of sizzling onions. Cosy, homely. But her voice, her voice was as cold and matter-of-fact as a BBC newsreader. Victor even wondered if he’d misheard. Maybe she was talking about the cucumbers—knew a good place to buy them? Or the neighbour from upstairs who’s selling his car? But no. “All your affairs,” Lorraine repeated, not turning around. That’s when the chill really hit him. Because in her tone, there wasn’t a trace of hysteria or accusation. None of what he’d dreaded—no tears, no broken crockery. Just a plain statement, as if she’d announced they were out of milk. Victor had been on this earth for fifty-two years. Twenty-eight of those with this woman. Knew her as well as his own hands: the mole on her left shoulder, the way she wrinkles her nose when tasting soup, the sigh she gives in the morning. But he had never heard that tone from her. “Lorraine—” he began, but his voice gave out. He coughed. Tried again. “Lorraine, what are you talking about?” She turned. Looked at him for a long moment, calm, as if seeing him for the first time. Or rather, as if she was looking at an old photograph that had faded beyond recognition. “About, say… Marianne from Accounts,” she said. “2018, if I’m not mistaken.” Victor felt the ground disappear beneath his feet. Not a figure of speech—he really felt as if he was floating, unsupported. God. Marianne?! He could hardly remember her face. There’d been something—at a work do? Or afterwards? Brief, nothing serious. He’d promised himself: never again. “And Sophie,” Lorraine continued, unruffled. “The one from the gym, who came up to you. That was two years ago.” He opened his mouth. Closed it again. And how did she know about Sophie? Lorraine turned off the heat. Removed her apron—neatly, calmly, folded it in half. Sat down at the kitchen table. “Do you want to know how I found out?” she asked. “Or is it more important to you why I haven’t said anything?” Victor was silent. Not because he didn’t want to speak—because he couldn’t. “The first time,” Lorraine began, “was nearly ten years ago. You started staying late at work. Fridays especially. Came home cheerful, a spark in your eyes. Smelled of perfume.” She gave a humourless little smile. “I thought: maybe I’m imagining things? Maybe someone in the office got new perfume? Lied to myself for a whole month. Then I found the receipt in your jacket pocket—a dinner for two. Wine. Dessert. We’ve never even been to that restaurant, the two of us.” Victor wanted to say something—to explain, to lie, as he always did. But the words stuck in his throat. “You know what I did?” Lorraine looked him in the eyes. “Cried in the bathroom. Then washed my face. Made dinner. Greeted you with a smile. Didn’t say a word to our daughter—she was fifteen then. Exams. First love. Why let her know her dad…” She fell silent. Ran her hand across the table, as if wiping away invisible dust. “I thought: I’ll get over it. It’ll pass. All men go through a midlife crisis—hormones, stupidity. He’ll come back, it’s fine. The main thing is the family stays together.” “Lorraine—” Victor forced out. “No,” she cut him off. “Let me finish.” He obeyed. “Then there was a second. A third. A fourth. I stopped counting. Your phone—never had a password. Thought I didn’t look? I read the messages. Those silly texts: ‘Miss you, bunny,’ ‘You’re the best.’ The photos—how you hugged them, grinned. Her voice faltered—but only for a moment. Then she pulled herself together. Took a deep breath. “And I’d ask myself: what’s the point? Why live with someone who doesn’t love me?” “I do love you!” Victor blurted. “Lorraine, I—” “No,” she said firmly. “You don’t. You love convenience. A tidy flat. A hot dinner. Ironed shirts. The kind of wife who doesn’t ask questions.” She stood up. Walked to the window. Stood, looking out into the darkness. “Do you know when I made my decision?” she asked, not turning. “A month ago. Our daughter came home for the weekend. We sat in the kitchen, drinking tea. She said, ‘Mum, you’re different. Quiet. Not yourself, somehow.’ And I thought: my God, she’s right. I really don’t feel like myself. It’s been ten years since I lived for me.” Victor looked at her stiff, straight back—and suddenly realised: he was losing her. Not might lose—he was losing. Here and now. “I don’t want a divorce,” he croaked. “Lorraine, please.” “But I do,” she answered simply. “The papers are in. The hearing’s in a month.” “But why now?!” Victor exploded. “Why not before?!” Lorraine turned. Looked at him for a long, thoughtful moment. Then smiled, sadly. “Because I realised: you never betrayed me, Vic. Because you can only betray someone who matters to you. And for you, I was just… there. Always. Like air.” And that was the truth. Victor sat on the sofa—hunched, suddenly ten years older. Lorraine stood by the front door. Between them: twenty-eight years of marriage, a grown daughter, a flat where every corner remembered them both. And a chasm. Huge, unbridgeable. “You know,” he said quietly, “I’ll be lost without you.” “You won’t,” she broke in. “You’ll manage. Somehow.” “No!” He sprang up, stepped towards her. “Lorraine, I’ll change! I swear! No more—” “Vic,” she raised a hand, stopping him. “It’s not about them. Not at all.” “Then what is it?” She paused. Gathering words—ones she’d wanted to say for years, but was afraid. Or didn’t know how. Or maybe just never thought she deserved to be heard. “You know how I felt? Every time you came back from one of your Mariannes or Sophies—I’d lie beside you and feel completely invisible. You didn’t even try to hide it! Your phone in plain sight. Shirts tossed into the laundry with lipstick on the collar. You honestly thought I was a fool. Blind.” Victor swayed, as if struck. “I didn’t mean—” “Didn’t mean?” She stepped right up to him. There were tears glimmering—not of sorrow, but of fury. Years, decades of fury, finally breaking the surface. “You simply didn’t think of me at all. What did you think as you kissed someone else? ‘My wife won’t find out?’ Or ‘What difference does it make?’” He was silent. Because the truth was worse. He really hadn’t thought of her. At all. Lorraine was just a given in his life. He was certain: she wasn’t going anywhere. She always would be. “You’d come home after your little adventures and feel fine. Because in your mind, nothing had changed. Wife—check. Family—check. All good.” She turned away. “But I wasn’t there. Not in your world. Not at all.” Victor stepped forward. Reached out—to touch her shoulder, to hold her, to keep her. Lorraine pulled away. “Don’t,” she said wearily. “It’s too late.” He grabbed her hands instead. “Lorraine, please! Give me a chance! I’ll change! I swear it!” She looked at their entwined fingers. At his face—drawn, desperate. And suddenly understood: he really was afraid. Only not of losing her. He was afraid to be alone. “You know,” she said quietly, freeing her hands, “I was afraid too. Afraid to be alone. Without you. Without family. But you know what I realised?” She took her bag from the table. Keys. “I’ve already been alone. For years. With you beside me—but alone.” And headed for the door. Three weeks later. Victor sat in an empty flat—Lorraine had moved in with their daughter right after that conversation—and flicked through his phone. Marianne from Accounts. Sophie from the gym. Two, three other names in his contacts, once meaningful. He dialled Sophie’s number. She hung up. He texted Marianne—read, no reply. The rest didn’t even open it. Funny—when he was a married man, they’d all wanted to see him. Now, suddenly single… Nobody wanted him. He sat on that sofa, in a flat that now felt enormous and alien—and, for the first time in fifty-two years, truly felt alone. He picked up the phone again. Found “Lorraine.” Stared at the screen for a long time. His fingers trembled. Typed a message. Deleted it. Typed again. Deleted. Then, finally, simply wrote: “Can I see you?” Reply came an hour later: “Why?” Victor paused. What could he say? “Sorry”? Too late. “Come back”? Pathetic. “I’ve changed”? A lie. He told the truth: “I want to start again. May I try?” Three dots flickered. Disappeared. Reappeared. Finally, a reply: “Come round on Saturday. To our daughter’s. Two o’clock. We’ll talk.” Victor exhaled. He didn’t know what would happen. Whether she’d forgive him. Whether she’d ever come back. If he even deserved a second chance. He looked at his wedding ring. And, for the first time in years, felt truly ready to start afresh. If she’d let him. Should Lorraine have turned a blind eye to her husband’s affairs? Or should she have confronted the truth and drawn the line at the first betrayal? What do you think?

I know about your little adventures, said his wife. Matthew went cold. No, he didnt flinch.

Olga Spent All Day Preparing to Celebrate the New Year: Cleaning, Cooking, and Setting the Table for Her First New Year Away from Her Parents and with Her Beloved for the First Time—But When Her Older, Penny-Pinching Boyfriend Tolik Showed Up Drunk with His Rowdy Mates, Her Dreams of a Romantic Night Collapsed, and She Learned Some Hard Truths About Love, Family, and Herself

Olivia had spent the whole day preparing for New Year’s Evecleaning, cooking, laying out the table

My Husband’s Family Forgot My 40th Birthday, So I Gave Them a Taste of Their Own Medicine: How I Finally Stood Up for Myself After Years of Being the Family Fixer

Why has my phone been silent all evening? I remember asking, swirling a glass of red by the fire.

VIC, PLEASE DON’T TAKE THIS PERSONALLY, BUT I WANT MY DAD TO WALK ME DOWN THE AISLE. HE’S MY REAL FATHER, AFTER ALL. A DAD’S A DAD. AND YOU… WELL, YOU KNOW, YOU’RE JUST MY MUM’S HUSBAND. IT’LL LOOK BETTER IN PHOTOS IF I’M WITH DAD. HE LOOKS SO DISTINGUISHED IN A SUIT. Victor paused, teacup in hand. He was fifty-five, with the calloused hands of a long-haul truck driver and an aching back. Opposite him sat Alina. The bride-to-be. Gorgeous. Twenty-two. Victor remembered her at five, when he first came into their lives—how she’d hidden behind the sofa and shouted, “Go away, you’re a stranger!” But he’d stayed. He taught her to ride a bike. Sat by her bed when she had chickenpox, while her mum Vera was exhausted. He paid for her braces—selling his motorcycle to do so. Paid her university fees—working double shifts and risking his health for it. And her “real dad”, Igor, came by every few months. Brought her a teddy bear, took her out for ice cream, told tall business tales and disappeared again. Never paid a penny in support. “Of course, Alinka,” Victor said softly, setting his cup down with a clink. “Real is real. I understand.” “You’re the best!” Alina kissed his bristly cheek. “By the way, the restaurant needs the rest of its deposit. Dad said he’d send it, but his accounts are frozen for some tax reason. Could you lend me a hundred grand or so? I’ll pay you back… from the wedding money.” Victor silently walked to the old sideboard, took an envelope from under a pile of linen. It was for repairs to his battered old Toyota. The engine was knocking, the overhaul overdue. “Take it. No need to pay me back. It’s my gift.” The wedding was extravagant. At a country club. A flower arch. An expensive master of ceremonies. Victor and Vera sat at the parents’ table. Victor wore his only suit, a bit tight in the shoulders. Alina was radiant. Down the aisle, Igor led her. Igor looked dashing: tall, tanned (just back from Turkey), in a razor-sharp tux. He strode proudly, smiled for the cameras, pretended to wipe away a tear. Guests whispered, “Such elegance! She’s her father’s image!” No one knew the tux was rented—paid for by Alina herself, secretly. At the banquet, Igor grabbed the microphone. “Daughter!” his baritone dripped honey. “I remember the first time I held you—you were a tiny princess. I always knew you deserved the best. May your husband carry you through life as I did!” Applause. Tears. Victor hung his head. He didn’t recall Igor ever carrying Alina—just not turning up to collect her from the hospital. As the party raged, Victor slipped out to smoke, his heart acting up from the noise and heat. Round the veranda in the shadow, voices drifted. Igor, speaking on his phone. “It’s all good, Serge! The wedding’s a blast. Suckers are paying, we’re just partying. Daughter? Sure, she turned out cute. I already chatted up her fiancé—wealthy, dad’s in the council. Hinted I could use some backing for my business—he’s biting. After the drinks I’ll squeeze him for a couple hundred thou ‘as a loan’. Alinka? She’s a lovesick fool, hero-worships her daddy. I threw her two compliments and she melted. Her mum, Vera, is there with her loser driver. Looks ancient. Man, glad I ditched her when I did.” Victor froze. His fists clenched. He wanted to smash that smug face. But he didn’t move—because he saw, in the ivy’s shadow, Alina herself. She’d stepped outside for air. She heard every word. Standing there, hand pressed to her lips, perfect make-up running. Staring at the “real dad” Giggling on the phone, calling her “a resource” and “idiot”. Igor ended the call, straightened his bow tie, beamed, and returned to the party. Alina slid down the wall, wedding dress crumpling on the dirty tiles. Victor came quietly. He didn’t say, “I told you so.” He didn’t gloat. He just took off his jacket and wrapped it around her. “Up you get, sweetheart. You’ll catch cold on the tiles.” Alina looked up, shame and heartbreak in her eyes—so raw she wished she could disappear. “Uncle Vic…” she whispered. “Dad… Vic… He…” “I know,” Victor said calmly. “Don’t worry, come on. It’s your wedding. The guests are waiting.” “I can’t go in!” she sobbed, smearing mascara. “I betrayed you! I invited him, shoved you in the corner! I’m so stupid. God, I’m so stupid.” “You’re not stupid. You just wanted a fairy tale,” Victor held out his hard, warm, rough hand. “But sometimes the ones writing fairy tales are crooks. Come on. Wash up, fix your nose, then go dance. Don’t let him see he broke you. This is your day, not his.” Alina re-entered, pale but holding her head high. The MC announced, “And now—the father-daughter dance!” Igor gleamed and strode out, arms wide. The hall fell silent. Alina took the microphone. Her hand shook but her voice was clear. “I want to change tradition,” she said. “My biological father gave me life, and I thank him for that. But a father–daughter dance isn’t just with the one who gave you life, it’s with the one who protected it. With the one who nursed my scraped knees. Taught me not to quit. Gave up everything so I could stand here in this dress.” She turned to the parents’ table. “Dad Vic. Come dance with me.” Igor froze, smile faltering mid-step. A ripple of whispers swept the room. Victor stood, red with embarrassment. He made his way out—awkward, pigeon-toed, suit too tight. Alina hugged him and pressed her face into his shoulder. “Forgive me, Daddy,” she whispered as they shuffled to the music. “Please forgive me.” “It’s all right, little one. It’s all right,” Victor soothed, stroking her back with his heavy, gentle hand. Igor stood a moment, realising the show was over, then quietly slunk to the bar, and before long slipped out of the reception altogether. Three years later. Victor lies in hospital. His heart ultimately failed him—a heart attack. He lies beneath a drip, weak and pale. The door opens. Alina enters, holding the hand of a tiny boy, not yet three. “Grandad!” shouts the little one, running to the bed. Alina sits beside Victor, kissing his calloused hand again and again. “Dad, we brought you oranges. And soup. The doctor says things look good—you just rest and don’t worry. We’ll get you back on your feet. I even booked a place for you at the spa.” Victor smiles. He doesn’t have millions. Only an old car and a bad back. But he’s the richest man in the world. Because he’s Dad—with no “step” in front of it. Life put everything in its place. Pity that sometimes the price of seeing clearly is humiliation and regret. But it’s better to realise it late than never: fatherhood isn’t about a name on a certificate, but about the hand that lifts you when you fall. The Moral: Don’t chase pretty packaging—inside it’s often empty. Value those who are quietly there for you on ordinary days, who give their shoulder without asking anything back. Because when the music ends and the party’s over, the only one left at your side is the one who genuinely loves you, not the one who just loves being in your spotlight. Did you have a stepdad who became closer than your real father? Or do you think blood is everything? 👇👨‍👧

Ben, please dont take this the wrong way. But I want my dad to walk me down the aisle. After all, hes

Two Columns She’d already kicked off her boots and put the kettle on when a message from her manager popped up: “Can you cover Svetlana’s shift tomorrow? She’s running a temperature and there’s nobody else.” Her hands were wet from washing up; the touchscreen instantly blurred. She wiped her palms on the tea towel and glanced at her phone calendar. Tomorrow was the one evening she’d carved out just for herself—an early night, ignoring the world—ahead of a report due first thing, with her head already buzzing. She started typing, “I can’t, I have…”—then stopped. That familiar wave—guilt, almost nausea—rose inside her: say no and you’re letting someone down. You’re not the reliable one. She deleted her words and simply wrote, “Yes, I’ll cover,” and sent it. The kettle rumbled to a boil. She poured a mug of tea, sat down by the window, and opened a note she called “Good Things.” Today’s entry was already ready and waiting: “Covered Svetlana’s shift.” She put a full stop, then added a little plus sign at the end, as if it somehow balanced things out. This note had lived with her for nearly a year. She’d started it that January, during the empty lull that settles in after the Christmas holidays, needing proof that her days didn’t just melt into nothing. Back then she’d written: “Gave Mrs Peterson from upstairs a lift to the clinic.” Mrs Peterson, fifth floor, always walking slow with a bag of prescriptions, too nervous to brave the bus. She’d rung the doorbell, said, “You’re driving—could you take me? Otherwise I won’t make it.” So she took her, waited in the car while blood was drawn, drove her back. On the return she’d caught herself being irritable—late for work, everyone at the office already grumbling about queues and GPs. The irritation felt shameful, so she swallowed it and bought coffee at the petrol station. In her note, she logged it delicately, as if the act was pure, unmixed. In February, her son landed a work trip and dropped her grandson off for the weekend. “You’re home, it’s no bother for you,” he said, not asking but assuming. The boy was lovely—loud, non-stop: “Watch, come play, let’s do…” She adored him, but by evening her hands trembled from exhaustion and her head rang like after a gig. After bedtime, she washed up, gathered toys into the box, only for them to spill out again at dawn. On Sunday, when her son returned, she admitted, “I’m worn out.” He smiled, as if it were a joke: “Well, you’re a grandma.” Kissed her cheek. In her note: “Looked after my grandson for two days.” Next to it, a little heart, so it wouldn’t feel like just obligation. March—her cousin rang asking for money till payday. “I need it for medicine, you understand.” She did. She transferred the cash, didn’t ask when it would be paid back. Then sat in her kitchen, working out if she could get by till her next pay packet, shelving the new coat she’d long been eyeing. It wasn’t a luxury, just her old one’s elbows had worn shiny. In the note: “Helped out my cousin.” She didn’t add, “Put myself on hold.” That felt too trivial to record. April, work—one of the girls, young, eyes red, locked herself in the loo and couldn’t come out. “He’s left me. No one needs me.” She knocked and said, “Open up, I’m here.” Then they sat on the stairs, paint smell clinging from the recent refit, as the girl repeated herself. She listened, in the dark, missing the back exercise the doctor had prescribed. At home she lay on the sofa, lower back throbbing, angry at the girl, angrier at herself—why can’t you ever say, “I have to go home”? In the note: “Sat with Katie, comforted her.” She used the girl’s name, somehow it felt warmer. Again, she left out, “Skipped something for myself.” In June: Drove a colleague—bags and all—to her allotment when her car broke down. The woman argued with her husband over speaker the whole way, never asked if it was convenient. She kept quiet. At the allotment, her colleague unloaded in a rush: “Thanks, you were going that way anyway.” She wasn’t, but got caught in traffic, missing her mother, who later sulked. Noted: “Gave Tanya a ride to her allotment.” “On the way” stung, and she stared at the screen, unmoving, until it dimmed. August, late night, mum called. Frail voice, anxious: “I don’t feel good, my blood pressure’s off, I’m scared.” She jumped up, pulled on a jacket, ordered a taxi across the sleeping city. The flat was stifling, empty pill packets everywhere. She checked the pressure, gave medication, sat with her mum until she dozed. Next morning, straight to work, no time to go home. On the Tube her eyes closed, terrified of missing her stop. The note: “Went to mum’s in the night.” She nearly put an exclamation mark, then erased it—it felt like shouting. By autumn, her list had grown long as a roll of till receipts, endlessly scrolling. The longer it got, the more she felt that she wasn’t living, just submitting a report. As if any love coming her way came with a receipt, and she saved them all in case anyone asked, “So what have you actually done?” She tried recalling if she’d ever logged something just for her—not “for her,” but “because of her.” The entries were all about others: their pain, their needs, their plans. Her wants looked like selfish whims—best hidden. October brought a sharper scene, quiet but wounding. She’d brought documents her son needed printing; stood in his hallway, folder in hand. He was searching for keys, talking on the phone. The grandson zoomed around, yelling for cartoons. Son half-covered the receiver, tossed out, “Mum, since you’re here, fancy popping by the shops? We need milk and bread—I won’t have time.” She answered, “Actually, I’m tired too.” He didn’t look up, just shrugged: “You can though. You always can.” Then carried on talking. Those words were a seal: not a question, just a statement of fact. Something hot pooled inside her—shame that she wanted to say no, that she suddenly didn’t want to be agreeable. Still, she bought the bread, the milk, threw in apples—her grandson’s favourite. Delivered them, heard the monotone, “Thanks, Mum,” like a headmaster’s tick in a register. She smiled the way she always did and headed home. At home, she logged: “Picked up shopping for my son.” And stared at the line. Her hands shook not from tiredness but from anger. Suddenly, she saw the list was no longer support—it was a leash. November: She finally booked a GP appointment—her back worse now, can’t stand long in the kitchen. Booked it online, Saturday morning, to avoid asking for time off. Friday evening, mum rang: “You coming round? Need the chemist, and anyway, I’m lonely.” She said, “I’ve got a doctor’s appointment.” Her mum paused, then sighed, “Alright. I suppose I don’t matter.” That line always worked. She’d launch into apologies, promises, shuffle her priorities. This time she opened her mouth—to say she’d come after—but stopped. It wasn’t stubbornness, just weariness; her life, she realised, had weight too. Quietly she said, “Mum, I’ll come in the afternoon. I need the doctor’s, it’s important.” Her mum sighed, wounded, “Alright then,” full of disappointment, pressure, habit. Sleep came badly that night—dreams of running office corridors with folders, doors slamming. In the morning, she made herself porridge, took the painkillers that had sat too long in the cupboard, and headed out. At the surgery, waiting, she listened to strangers chat about blood tests and pensions—not thinking about diagnoses, but about how brave it felt, doing something for herself. Afterwards, she made her promised stop at her mum’s, picking up medicine along the way. Her mum met her with silence, then at last, “So, did you go?” She replied, “I did. It was important.” Mum examined her closely—as if, for a moment, she was a person, not an extra pair of hands. Then turned away, walked to the kitchen. That evening, home again, she felt an unfamiliar relief in her chest—not joy, but space. December now—year almost done—she realised she was looking to weekends not for a breather, but a chance. Saturday morning, another message from her son: “Could you take the grandson for a couple of hours? We’re busy.” Her fingers hovered, ready to type “yes.” She sat on the edge of the bed, phone warm in her hand. The flat quiet, just the radiator ticking. She remembered her plan for the day: head to town, visit the new art exhibit she’d kept postponing. To walk amongst paintings in silence—no one asking about lost socks or dinner. She replied: “Sorry, I can’t today. I’ve got plans.” Sent it at once, phone face down—easier that way. His reply came in a minute: “Alright, you upset with me?” Another: “Are you cross?” She turned it over, read, and felt the familiar urge to explain, to soften the blow, to justify. Instead of the long answer—tired, needing time for herself—she kept it simple: explanations always became bargaining, and she didn’t want to haggle for her own life. She wrote, “No. It’s just important to me,” and nothing else. She got herself ready calmly, like clocking into a shift. Checked the iron, windows, purse, train card. Waited at the bus stop among shoppers, suddenly struck by freedom—nobody to rescue, right now. Unusual, not frightening. The museum was slow and golden. She lingered before portraits, hands, light in painted glass. It felt like relearning attention—not for others’ needs, but for her own. Coffee in the small café, a postcard with a print, rough paper pleasant under her fingertips. When she got home she left her phone in her bag, didn’t check it straight away. Hung up her coat, washed her hands, put the kettle on. Then, at last, sat down and opened her “Good Things” note. Scrolled down to today. She looked at the empty line a long while. Then pressed “plus” and wrote: “Visited the museum on my own. Looked after myself.” Then did something new. At the top, she split the list into two columns. On the left: “For Others.” On the right: “For Myself.” There was only one entry in the “For Myself” column so far, but it was something essential, straightening inside her like a realigned spine. No need to prove to others she was good; she only needed to remember she was here. The phone buzzed again; she didn’t rush. Poured tea, took a sip, only then checked. A short message from her mum: “How are you?” She replied, “I’m fine. I’ll bring you some bread tomorrow.” Then added, before sending, “I was busy today.” Sent it, put the phone down, screen up. The room was quiet, but the silence didn’t press in. It was space, at last, she’d made for herself.

Two Columns She has already kicked off her boots and put the kettle on when her managers message pops

Who Slept in My Bed and Left It in a Mess… A Story My Husband’s Mistress Was Barely Older Than My Daughter — Chubby Baby Cheeks, Naive Eyes, a Nose Piercing (the Same Kind My Daughter Wanted, and He Furiously Forbade). I Couldn’t Even Be Mad at Her — As I Looked at Her Bare, Bluish Legs and Short Jacket, I Wanted to Snark: “If You’re Planning to Have Kids with that Idiot, Get Yourself a Warm Coat and Wear Tights under Your Jeans.” But I Kept Quiet. I Simply Handed Arina the Keys, Grabbed My Two Bags of Belongings, and Headed for the Bus Stop. “Mrs. Harris, What’s That Thing Under the Kitchen Counter?” the Girl Called After Me, “Is it for Storing Dishes?” I Couldn’t Resist and Tossed Back, “I Usually Hide My Husband’s Lovers’ Bodies in There, But You’re Welcome to Wash Plates.” Without Waiting for an Answer or Even Looking at Arina’s Frightened Face, I Walked Down the Stairs Pleased with Myself. Well then — that’s it, twenty years of marriage down the drain. It was my daughter who first discovered that Henry was cheating. She’d skipped classes, expecting nobody to be home, and stumbled upon a young nymph sipping cocoa from her favourite mug. With barely any clothes on the nymph, and Dad splashing in the shower, my clever daughter, Ellie, quickly put two and two together and rang me: “Mum, I think Dad’s got a mistress, and she’s wearing my slippers and drinking from my mug!” Just like in a fairy tale, I thought, remembering Ellie was more upset about her things being touched than Dad’s betrayal. Who slept in my bed and crumpled it… Unlike my daughter, I took it all in stride. Of course my pride was wounded — the girl was young and beautiful, while I had extra pounds, cellulite, and all the not-so-kind badges of a forty-something woman. But really, I felt relief — after all those years of mysterious late-night calls, erratic schedules, coffee shop receipts (never for me!), and not once had I caught him red-handed. Henry was so slick that I ended up feeling guilty for suspecting him. “It’s the first time,” Henry brazenly lied. “I don’t know, some eclipse, like a comet fell out of the sky.” The “comet” turned out to be a hotel worker from Henry’s business trip. She was twenty, with nothing to offer but a pretty face — and apparently not much sense, because she chased Henry to London and rented a grim bedsit with her savings. That’s why they met at our flat — with hot water and the washing machine. No wonder my quick wash was always on instead of “mixed fabrics!” The flat belonged to Henry, left to him by his father before marriage, and since I’d decided to file for divorce, my daughter and I moved out to my grandmother’s old council flat on the outskirts. Ellie was appalled — how would she get to college? “Well, why don’t you stay with us then?” Henry suggested, earning fresh insults. At least my daughter could tell him what she really thought now. At first it was a pain — new routes, shops, an hour’s journey to work and school. But we got used to it — I found a new job, Ellie applied to a nearby college, halving her commute. There wasn’t time to dwell on sadness — everyday problems and exams kept us busy, and when life settled down, we didn’t feel like mourning at all. Arina called me several times — to ask about baking settings and the dishwasher tablets. Once, she even came round carrying forgotten photos needed for graduation. Henry couldn’t manage it (or was afraid), I was out with a cold, and Ellie flatly refused to enter the old flat, sure it would wreck her mental health (she still had computer science exams). “It’s rather cosy,” Arina murmured, surveying the faded wallpaper and dated lamps. I smirked — yes, cosy, what else can you say? There, everything was modern and convenient. I spent twenty years building up that home. Let them have it. That visit, though, would come back to bite me. About a year after the infamous day, one night, the door lock clicked. “Expecting anyone?” I asked Ellie. She just stared. Arina stood in the doorway, mascara streaked down her cheeks, clutching a sports bag. “Has something happened with Henry?” I worried. “Something did!” Arina sobbed. “I caught him with the secretary! Wanted to surprise him since he said he was working late…” She broke down, crying like a child, hidden in her hands. “So what do you expect from me?” I asked, eyeing the bulky bag. “Could I stay here tonight? I haven’t any money. I’ll take the train to my mum’s in the morning.” “How will you travel if you’ve no money?” “I hoped you’d lend me some.” I didn’t know whether to cry or laugh. Ellie made the choice for me. “Why don’t you get out!” she sneered, adding a string of words she’d never used in front of me before. I gave her a stern look. “Come in, Arina,” I said. “It’s late. I’m not about to turn you out on the street.” From there, things got worse. Ellie was so furious she declared — it’s her or me. I shrugged, her choice, she’s an adult now. If she wanted, she could go to her father. “Oh, as if! I’ll stay at Nat’s!” We got her a taxi to her friend’s. Then I played host to a regretful mistress who had no friends, no job, just another piercing — in her tongue this time. I lent Arina money for the train, what else could I do? Even drove her to the station so she wouldn’t get lost. Arina thanked me for ages, asked forgiveness, and promised to sort her life out, go study, stop messing with married men. “Mum says I’m hopeless. She was right, I guess.” I didn’t see her off at the train — it was unnecessary. I reconciled with Ellie soon, though she couldn’t fathom how I could let “the homewrecker” stay. I stroked her soft hair, smiled and said: “When you’re older, you’ll understand.” Henry rang a week later. Said he’d seen the error of his ways, kicked out Arina, and was ready for a happy reunion. “Run out of clean shirts?” I asked, biting back. “Well, yeah…” my ex sighed. “Besides, she can’t wash — I’ve spent a year in greasy ones.” Obviously, I didn’t go back. Nor did I gloat. But I couldn’t help noticing that, after all this, my spirits had lifted: I felt lighter in head and heart, smiled more often. I got a dog, walked him in the evenings. Met a nice neighbour — so what if he’s ten years older, I’m not a girl myself. And life rolled on as it should.

Whos been lying on my bed and crumpled it A Story. My husbands lover was barely older than our daughterround

A Parent’s Unbreakable Love: An Emotional Taxi Ride, a Heartfelt Family Gathering, and the Fierce Instinct to Protect When Danger Strikes

Ellie let out an exhausted yet contented sigh as she bundled her two little ones into the back seat of the taxi.

I Miss Him—I’ve Never Missed Anyone Like This Before, Even Though I Wasn’t Truly Happy With Him and There Were Things I Didn’t Like: From a Facebook Encounter, Late-Night Messages, and a Park Hug That Felt Like Home, to Unraveling Truths, Financial Strains, and Painful Goodbyes—My Honest Story of Loving, Learning, and Letting Go

I miss him. Ive honestly never missed anyone in this way before, and I cant put my finger on why especially