My sister and I have an age difference of only three years. She is younger than me. My dad worked as a manager in an electronics store and my mom worked in a bank. We lived in a well renovated apartment. Parents always wore new, respectable clothes, and we were bought clothes to grow up, we wore jeans and shirts until they had holes in them. As a child, I didn’t think much about it. Only when I went to school, I began to notice that the parents of my classmates treated their children differently.
My classmates’ parents bought beautiful new clothes, and I wore the same clothes for several years. We also ate poorly. Sweets and meat rarely appeared in our house. But then, coming back from school, I saw my mom and dad sitting in a cafe and eating cakes. Mom and dad always reacted quite sharply when we asked them to buy something for us. Mom would look at us sternly and say that we didn’t have any money, and they already spend so much on us.
I remember that I was even ashamed that we were causing so much discomfort. My parents refused to pay for my education, so I had to try very hard to get on a budget. I have achieved everything in my life by myself. I am already an adult woman, I have children. I still do not understand why my parents treated me and my sister like that. If they did not want children, why did they give birth to them at all? The resentment prevents me from communicating with them, although I understand that I need to work and let go.
