The fortuneteller curses me
What now, you scoundrel? the lady of the cosy cottage hurls at me a sharp glance, never stopping the spread of cards on the wooden table.
I cling to the chair in fear, nod, and stare cautiously into the old womans nightblack eyes.
You look just like Miss Nelly! Heavens own! she sighs and crosses herself. A faint nostalgic smile flickers on her lips. Your grandmother was something elsetall, regal, her neck and shoulders as graceful as a swans. She was clever, too, though she only finished primary school before the war stole her future.
Remembering something, Gran Evelyn falls silent, then straightens and continues: That girl was quicktongued! The women feared her, worrying about their husbands. Its obviousNell was married, but a glance from her could ruin any man, and shed laugh in his face. Yet your grandfather loved her fiercely and stayed faithful. Her looks at boys were just harmless teasing, she says with a kindly chuckle.
Gran June, were you friends with my grandmother? I press, curiosity bubbling.
Oh, dear, we were as close as a needle and thread, she winks, her eyes flashing like tiny gold embers. Do you know who taught me to read the cards? she asks, narrowing her eyes.
My eyebrows lift. Could it be Miss Nelly? I exhale, thrilled.
Shes the best, the old woman affirms.
What do you see in those painted cards at first glance? she sweeps a hand over the fan. Nell only needs a quick look to know everythingwhats happened, what will happen. She could tell a mans fate in a heartbeat. Ive been learning that craft from her, slowly.
Gran June, is any of this true? I laugh, pointing at the grey strands poking out from under her kerchief like tiny horns.
Dont laugh, child, the seer lowers her voice, fixing me with a steely stare.
A chill runs down my spine. Gran June, forgive meI was only joking! I plead, eyes wide.
Ah, foolish Thomas! she grumbles, less severe now. Fine, Ill let you off. Youre still young; what could I take from you? Just remember my words: you cant outrun your destined partner, even on horseback!
Gran June, do I have a destined one? I ask, eyes fixed on the fortuneteller.
Ah, you want a glimpse of the future, love? she smiles, every wrinkle deepening with amusement. We old women can see anything. She pulls a fresh deck from her lap. Maybe one day youll recall me and stop making such foolish jokes, she murmurs, laying out kings, regal queens, bearded gentlemen in berets, and waltzing couples on the cloth.
Poppy, look, the road ahead is long and winding. Will you go off somewhere with your suitor? Im sure youll have a fiancé, no doubt! the old woman mutters to herself. Your eyes are like two saucers, your face smoothyet its all empty. Those gallants wont touch your heart. But this redkinglove him, though hes a reckless fool. Better stay away, or youll weep bitterly, she warns, shaking her head. Can you stop lovers like that? she sighs, waving her hand hopelessly.
She flips a couple more cards and brightens. This second one, the crosscard, will be a decent fellow! Trust me, dear, everything will turn sweet with him, she says, rubbing my chestnut curls. We both burst into laughter.
I visit Gran June often. I never met my own grandmothershe passed long agobut Evelyn lives alone and loves me, her granddaughter of a dear friend, like a second child. Sometimes my heart trembles when shes in a sour mood.
Gran June is renowned as a fortuneteller. Folk travel from all over the county to see her. She never asks for money, but she gladly accepts tea and biscuitsshes everso hospitable.
Now we sit together, sipping tea and tucking away a steaming slice of hot cross bun with butter and chives.
Gran June, could I learn to predict fate? I ask cautiously, shoving another bite into my mouth.
The question catches her off guard. She stops chewing, fixes me with eyes as dark as soot. I hold her gaze, feeling the weight of it. She seems to soften. Yes you might just manage that, she muses. Come tomorrow, if you still want it, she adds sternly. Ill teach you.
Time flies like a swift swan. Yesterday I was splashing in puddles with friends, skipping rope, flying paper kites. Today weve just finished Year 7, completed our workexperience placement, and the summer wraps us in its warm embrace. Oh, summer! We swim, we sunbathe.
I race home with my report card, eager to brag about my mostly Agrades. As I step through the door, I see Mums teary face clutching a printed envelope. Ah, a letter from Aunt Nelly, I think. Shes trying to coax me again. Dad had always been adamant.
Anna, isnt life here wonderful? Our house, the chickens, the geese, the cow the river beside us! he says, a hint of bitterness in his voice.
Our girls never saw blossoming apple trees, never tasted cherries, never got their noses stuck in watermelons! Mum whispers. Tom, I want to return to the homeland! her goldenbrown eyes plead at Dad.
Yes, a womans tears are a mighty force, he sighs. Perhaps he loved her too much, his Anna I wonder how we suddenly left everything behind and fled to faroff, flowerfilled Ukraine.
On the first day of September the whole school watches us with interest. At the assembly we stand in elegant dresses, lace aprons, huge bows, standing out among the modestly clothed peers. I care less about the outfits and more about how the classmates will receive us. As soon as I sit, a girl approaches.
Im Molly, she says, smiling genuinely. Anna, dont worry, the boys here are good! She asks, Do you want to share a desk? I nod gratefully. Thats how I become friends with Molly, a friendship that lasts.
During a big break, Vicky grabs a guitar and a song spills out. A fairhaired, slightly plump lad sings with such longing that my heart flutters like the sea. He seems to sing only for the one who makes his guitar weep.
Has our little Vasili fallen in love? Molly whispers, eyeing his transformed face. Hes singing for you, she adds sadly.
Are you joking? I blurt, confused.
Molly shakes her head, her lips barely moving: Poor VasiliVasili! I wonder why life gives us one dream while we look for another. The second boy is shy, halfgrown, eager for a drink, with Cupids arrows always flying in his head.
He talks sweetly, If I could taste honey with your lips My soul, without asking, reaches for him like a bird to the sky. Im terrified and resolve, Ill avoid him at all costs! Im not planning to become another pretty boys victim.
A new boy, Tom, watches the slender, braidhaired girl with interest. His gaze hypnotises her, leaving her breathless.
The teachers board becomes a torment; Toms teasing glance slides up my legs. I hold my composure, but his coldness unsettles the heartbreaker. Then, at PE, Tommy dashes the 100metre sprint faster than the wind, launches the discus so far the PE teacher whistles in amazement. On the football field, he scores without rival, and every girl cheers, though one girls eyes remain unreadable. Tommy looks down, even losing a few pounds, clearly drawn to that unattainable girl, yet every attempt to talk fails miserably.
Autumn slips in, a mischievous redhaired rogue, followed by a snowwhite winter. School buzzes with excitementChristmas is near! We rehearse poems, songs, craft strange costumes.
Tammy and I pick characters from The Lari Sisters. Tom loves carefree, cheerful Olivia; I prefer thoughtful, gentle Eleanor. Aunt Nelly sews us flowing gowns that sweep the floor. Our hair becomes waterfalls of goldenbrown curls.
When we open the school halls doors, we step into a fairytale world. Gentry, bandits, princesses, sprites, monkeys and dwarfs whirl around. Even the fearsome Koschei and a hilariously wild Baba Yaga parade about.
Cinderellaour Mollyslides through the crowd: Girls, you look stunning! she beams, crowning us with smiles.
When the dancing begins, the first hand to reach for me belongs to Tommy. His unusually serious eyes plead. Anna, will you dance with me? he stammers.
I cannot resist. Every cell in my body leans toward him, my hands find his strong shoulder, and we spin in a waltz, soaring higher and higher on the music. That feeling of otherworldly bliss stays with me forever.
Our meetings are unforgettable, pure. I can never forget that first honeysweet kiss, the way his eyes held me, the way his words sang: I love you, Anna! I love you ever so much!
That evening I turn to the cards again. What does tomorrow hold for me? I ask, hopeful.
At first the kings and queens assure me that everything with Tommy will be fine. I picture a lavish wedding carriage. Then the queen of spades drops onto the table, her stare like poison. My heart aches.
By morning, Tommys loving eyes melt my worries like spring snow.
Six months later, a new trainee arrives at schoolblack curls, large eyes, a slender waist, a generous figure. Shes brilliant, and we, the older students, adore Miss Maya Vaughan. On Saturday, Tommy promises a datehe never shows. Hes a noshow again on Sunday.
Finally, I see him at school, smiling, rushing toward his sweetheart, a girl named Nia. Their eyes lock, and its clear theyll be together forever. My heart flutters like a trapped bird, but Veras steady hand saves me from falling.
Anna, forget that fool! says my friend Tom. Youre the best, hes not worth a penny! We both burst into tears, hugging each other tightly.
Veras birthday arrives on a Saturday. She invites us over; her mother bakes a Napoleon cake, fills the house with guests. After everyone leaves, Vera whispers, Anna, can you read for us? You can! I stare, surprisedhow did she know?
I saw you doing it once, she admits. Its fascinating! they both stare at me like hungry mice eyeing cheese.
I shuffle the cards. Tamara draws a flood of suitorstwo husbands! Why two? I protest, halfjoking. Your kings lie! she retorts, frowning. Then I tell Vera, Youll have a child! My fingers tremble; I recognise this combination, yet fear it.
No, that cant be! I gasp, and Veras mothers voice booms, Anna, thats the death card! I try to joke, Im just a fortuneteller, not a poet from a childrens book, but my hands grow cold.
Exactly, Tom declares, and we thank her for the wonderful evening before parting.
Later, Tamara tells my mother, Anna told us so many stories! Her lips curve in a teasing smile. Remembering my visits to Gran June, I ask, Mum, could you have a reading?
My dear, why would you? she replies, then sees the sadness in my eyes and understands. I nod and begin laying out the mysterious queens, waltzers, and kings, explaining their messages to her.
Dad is staying with my uncle Michael. The cards suggest Mum will soon face a long journey and a serious blow of fate. They also hint Dad is not actually at Michaels, but in a government house.
Mum, dont be upset, Im not going anywhere, I say cheerfully. The next morning a telegram arrives: Anna, come at once, Neil has suffered a stroke in hospital. Mum looks at me, wary. Your cards werent lying
An hour later she boards a plane.
Years pass.
Tonight, halfasleep in my own locked bedroom, I hear footsteps in the hallwayslow, heavy. Something huge seems to be stalking the corridor. Moonlight streams through the window, and the front door rattles, then shuddersas if someone is trying to force their way in. The houses doors are locked from the inside; no one could have entered from outside.
What on earth is breaking into my room, breathing like a locomotive? I think, panic rising. What if the door gives way? I shout to the heavens, Lord, if You exist, protect me!
At once the door stops moving, and silence fills the hallway.
In the morning, Mum sees my pale, creamcoloured face and gasps. Girl, what happened? She learns of the night visitor and shakes her head. Anna, stop with the fortunetelling! That gift isnt from God perhaps the Unclean came to you! I burn the cards immediately; life feels lighter without them.
Yet many of Gran Junes and my predictions come true. Vera marries for great love; she and her husband have a beautiful blueeyed daughter. Tragically, Vera and her child die in a car crash. My friend turns twentyone; my goddaughter is only a year and a half. My sister Tamara finds a wonderful second husband after the first one fell apart. Miss Maya Vaughan finishes her training brilliantly and leavesshe never returns. At home, a suitor waits for her; a grand wedding follows, the bride radiant.
Tommy begs on his knees for forgiveness; I cant grant it, though I still love him deeply. Later he marries the kindest, most reliable man from our class, Master Basil. We have three sons and now grandchildren. I am over sixty and can honestly say life is rich and varied. You just have to live it and cherish its beautiful moments.












