A Baby for a Friend
When Lily was waddling through her last months of pregnancy, her younger brother ran off, her dad hit the bottle harder than ever, and since then, Lilys life had descended into something only rivalled by a failed episode of EastEnders.
Her mornings started with flinging open the windows to air out the living room, gathering up cider bottles from beneath the table (Jimmys Red Label, obviously), and waiting for her dad to finally emerge from bed.
Dad, youre not supposed to be drinking. The doctor said after your last attack
Ill have a drink if I fancy. Whos going to stop me? Makes the pain easier.
What pain?
The pain of realising that Im surplus to requirements. Even to you. Im a burden, Lily. I shouldnt have been born, shouldnt have married, shouldnt have had you kids who inherited nowt but my weakness, wet blanket nature, and a pinch of poverty. Regrets, Lily. Its just easier with a pint.
Already hanging onto her sanity by a thread, Lily would snap back.
Its not all regrets, Dad. Folk have it worse.
How much worse? You grew up without your mum. And now youre going to raise a little one without their dad, and keep that fine tradition of living skint.
Its not always going to be this grim, Dad. Things change.
She thought miserably of how, not too long ago, shed looked forward to marrying Adam life had wobbled, but on it went.
That day her father had, predictably, got himself completely plastered. Lily shouted at him, unable to keep her temper anymore.
Did you drink the money Id hidden for emergencies? Howd you find that? You went through all my stuff?!
Everything in this house is mine, he declared, swaying as he spoke. Including the pension. Its my pension youre hiding.
And youve drunk it all? Didnt you wonder how were supposed to survive?
Whys that my problem? Im not well. Youre grown, deal with it.
Lily tore through the cupboards.
I know full well there were two bags of pasta and a tub of butter yesterday. Where the blazes have they gone? What exactly are we having for dinner?!
It was almost comical if it werent so tragic. Lily sat down, face in her hands.
She had no idea that Auntie Connie had taken to coming round when Lily was out, plying her dad with booze and quietly sneaking off with whatever was left in the larder.
Like a silent viper, Connie had slithered in and was doing her best to finish off the family.
That night Lily cried quietly into her pillow, empty and hungry in more ways than one.
In the morning someone knocked, and in swept Ms. Connie Barker herself. Done up in her flashy coat and posh boots, she didnt even bother wiping her feet.
All right, love. My mate at the council told me youre behind on your bills youre about to be cut off for not paying. Whats going on here, Lily? Fancy putting the kettle on?
Without so much as a by-your-leave, Connie headed straight to the kitchen, rooting about in the fridge and the cupboards.
Ill put the kettle on myself, youre about as useful as my daughter Gemma in this state. Oh, you havent even got tea or sugar not a bit of anything, honestly. Shall we nip to Tesco?
Lily kept her eyes down.
Best if you leave, Auntie Connie. I cant offer you tea.
Connie wasnt going to budge.
Look, youve got problems anyone could see that. I said you should move in with me, and this time its an order not a suggestion. No one should bring a baby into a place like this, especially with your dad on the lash and nothing to eat, let alone fruit or veg for you. Grab your things. Youre coming with me.
Lily collapsed on a chair as her head spun, tears trickling down her cheeks. Connie hugged her as if she were some sort of benevolent Victorian matron.
Listen, love, I know youve got your reasons to dislike me. Ill never live down that my Gemma stole your fiancé. But I cant just leave you like this. Whether you like it or not, Ill look after you.
The rest went by in a blur: Connie helped her pack and phoned a cab.
***
The day Lily went into labour, Connie hovered as if waiting for the Queen.
Right, Lily, listen up. Ive told the hospital you want to give up the baby, so when the time comes, dont hold her, dont feed her dont even look. Got it?
Lily gritted her teeth through contractions.
Oh Auntie, do what you like. The pains too much anyway, I just want it over.
Remember, you cant raise this child yourself. Ive got a decent couple lined up, theyll adopt her on the spot.
After what felt like an eternity, Lily delivered a little girl.
Seven pounds and a bit, healthy as you like. Well done.
The nurse bundled the squalling newborn away without so much as letting Lily catch a glimpse.
But the paediatrician, Miss Drummond, was a tough old bird.
Whats this? Healthy baby and you dont want to see her? Diane, bring the baby back, she needs her mum.
Lily shook her head, almost in tears.
I cant. I dont have anything I didnt want this… There are others who need her more. Ill sign her away… someone will adopt her…
Dont talk nonsense. At least look at her.
Lily screwed her eyes shut, but then she felt something feather-light touch her hand.
The nurse tucked her daughter beside her; the baby huffed and burrowed, searching blindly, and Lily at last looked down.
Tiny, helpless, she gazed up at Lily and flailed her hands at her mother.
Well now, love. Have a feed, shall we? Dr. Drummond smiled, brightening as she saw how Lily trembled at that first connection.
She needs you, not strangers, understand?
Lily burst into tears and clutched her daughter close, nodding fiercely.
For the next two hours, she lay beside her baby, hardly daring to blink.
Her mothers instincts had finally arrived late, but unmistakable.
This is it, the point of everything my daughter. Adam can jog on, Dad can rant all he likes shes mine, and thats that.
***
Lily was woken by Connie.
Still in her dressing gown, she hovered by the bed.
Have you forgotten what we agreed? she whispered. You promised to give her up. Ive already arranged everything with the couple. Give her up now.
Ive changed my mind. Im not giving her to anyone, said Lily, quietly resolute.
But youve no money, Lily technically youre homeless! Whats your plan, charity from here to doomsday?
Her daughter began to cry from the cot, and Lily stood to scoop her up.
Dont touch her! Ill make up some formula, say youve got no milk, huffed Connie.
Youre not in charge here. Ive said Ive changed my mind. Shes mine. Im not giving her up!
You CANT! You promised! Connie flapped uselessly.
Please go.
Defeated, Connie left. Lilys neighbouring patient poked her head up.
Who was that?
My aunt.
Dear me. Well, you did right to get rid. Im Emma. If you need help, just ask there are decent people out there.
Im Lily.
Lovely to meet you, Lily. That woman looked like shed have nicked your baby and legged it. Totally barking, if you ask me.
***
Shortly before discharge, someone came to see Lily. She wasnt allowed into the ward, so Lily came out to the corridor. She found her former friend, Gemma, uncomfortably twisting her hands her own stomach protruding like a prize-winning marrow.
Hi.
Lily perched on the edge of the bench.
I hear you had the baby.
Yep. A girl.
Gemmas eyes darted.
Look, Mums found a couple to adopt her, and theyre really lovely people loaded too, theyd do anything for a baby.
So?
Theyre offering twenty thousand pounds. Think about it you could get a little flat or put down a deposit!
Lily raised an eyebrow.
Lovely. Well, if you care that much, sell them your own.
Gemmas lips wobbled but she kept hold of Lilys sleeve.
Wait, Lily, give the baby to me! Ill raise her shes Adams daughter, after all!
You think you can handle two kids?
You dont get it, Lily! My familys falling apart!
Lily lurched to her feet and tried to walk away. Gemmas eyes looked wild as she clung on.
I need this baby, Lily!
Let go.
A couple of hours later, Adam showed up, his face full of guilt and confusion.
So, youve had the baby? Can I see her?
No, you cant. Gemmas about to give birth, go be useful there.
I need to talk. Since you gave birth, I cant think straight. Anyway, I want the baby. You give her up, Ill adopt her right away.
Lily shook her head.
Im not like you. Id never abandon someone who needs me. Youre wasting your time.
Adam stood his ground, muttering that she had no right to keep whats his.
You? Still under mummys thumb! Ask your mothers permission first, why dont you?
She brushed him off, scooped up her daughter and went to the nurses station.
Could you make sure no visitors are let in to see me? Ive had enough. Theyre treating the place like Kings Cross Station.
Epilogue
On the day of discharge, Lily clutched her daughter as she left the hospital.
She wasnt alone; her roommate Emma also left, greeted on the steps by her husband and mother.
Lily hesitated as she saw Adams parents big Volvo parked out front.
Adams mother, Valerie, stared, her gaze steely and sharp as a hawk’s. Lily felt an icy shiver run down her back.
Valeries look could have curdled milk. She looked about ready to pounce.
Emma clocked Lilys expression, slipped an arm round her.
Whos that?
Adams parents.
Theyre watching you like a couple of foxes outside a chicken coop. Something very off here, Lily. Seriously, come stay with me and Mum for a bit. Spare rooms yours we talked about it, remember? Lets go.
Lily nodded, nerves jangling inside her.
***
Staying with her new friends, Lily stumbled unexpectedly into happiness: Emmas cousin, Ian the quintessential old bachelor began courting her.
Ian was the kind of gent you wish for kind, warm, and, more crucially, steady. He married Lily, adopted her daughter, and even made peace with her dad.
As for Gemma and Adam, their marriage crumbled faster than a stale ginger nut.
It turned out Gemma had faked the pregnancy with a fancy prosthetic bump as you do fooling the entire extended clan.
Connie, keen to save face for her daughter, had to come clean: Gemma had miscarried early on. As a compromise, shed suggested to Adam, Why not just take Lilys baby? Well say Gemma gave birth, no onell know solves everyones problems!
Adam thought this was the best plan since sliced bread until Lily promptly torpedoed their scheme by refusing to give up her baby, leaving Gemma and Connie thoroughly at sea.
Adams mum, Valerie, unimpressed by the faux pregnancy and deception, gave Gemma her marching orders and told Adam to get lost too.
Turns out sometimes stubbornness is exactly whats needed especially in England, where a good cup of tea and a daughter to call your own can get you through just about anything.












