Dad, do you remember Hope Alexandra Martin? Its too late today, but come over tomorrow. Ill introduce you to my younger brother, your son. Thats it. Goodbye.
The boy was fast asleep right by her front step. Harriet was puzzledwhy would a child be asleep in someone elses building at such an hour? Ten years a schoolteacher, she couldnt just ignore it. She bent over and gently shook his bony shoulder.
Hey there, young man, wake up!
What? The boy sat up, still tangled with dreams.
Who are you? Why are you sleeping here?
Im not sleepingwith your doormat so soft, I just sat down and accidentally drifted off, he answered with a sheepish shrug.
Harriet had only lived in that building for half a year, having bought a flat after her divorce. She hardly knew her neighbours, but it was clear this boy wasnt from the building.
He was about ten or eleven, his clothes old but clean. He shuffled awkwardly, hopping from foot to foot as if in some strange, silent dance.
She realised he needed the loo. Run along, but be quick, Im late for work, she said, letting him inside.
He cast a wary look her way, his eyes the peculiar light blue of faded robins eggs.
Such a rare colour, she mused as he, after the toilet, washed his hands in the bathroom. Harriet quickly made him a ham sandwich.
Here, have something to eat.
Thank you! He was already at the door. Youve saved me. Now Ill be all right waiting.
Who are you waiting for? Harriet asked.
Granny Antonia Peterton. She lives near you. Maybe you know her?
I know Antonia a bit, but she was taken to hospital the day before yesterday in an ambulance. I was coming home from work as they wheeled her out.
What hospital? The boy twitched, concerned.
Yesterday the twenty-third city was on duty. Most likely that one.
I see. Whats your name? He finally decided to learn his rescuers name.
Harriet Frederickson, she replied, already dashing off.
School swept her into its whirlwind, but her mind snuck back to the blue-eyed boy all day.
Probably my failed mothering instinct, she reflected sadly. Shed never had children, which explained her calm at her ex-husband moving in with the woman whod given him a daughter.
At lunch break, Harriet phoned the hospital. Her neighbours granny had had a stroke; the prognosis was grimseventy-eight is, after all, no age for miracles.
After work, Harriet found the boy sitting on the stairwells cold sill.
I was waiting for you, he beamed. They wont let me see Granny; shell be in for ages.
Harriet asked his name.
He was called Edgar. Not Eddie, its Edgar, he insisted.
Washed and fed, he soon found himself in Harriets impromptu inquisition.
Run away from home? Your parents must be beside themselves!
I dont have parents. I live with my aunt.
So your aunts going mad right now. Harriet looked stern.
No. I told her I was with Granny. She doesnt know Grannys in hospital. I dont want to go back, even though my aunts kind, barely drinks. But my uncle swigs daily; hes mean. Theyve already four children, soon five, and now theres me.
They threatened to send me off to the childrens home, but I dont want to go. Do I disturb you too much? Mum used to say Im hyperactivejust like my father, these bright eyes too. Shes been gone two years.
What was your mothers name?
Hope Alexandra Martin. She was lovely and good. She worked as a PA for the boss at a chemical plant, cant remember the name.
And your father? Harriets heart tripped.
I never had one. Not ever, Edgar said quietly.
And suddenly, Harriet understood why this blue-eyed boy rattled her so: his eyes! Shed only seen them in one other personher father.
And her father was the director of a plant.
Harriets breath stuck: A directors affair with his PAcould it be any more banal? Did he know? Did he notice her vanishing from his waiting room?
Had she loved him? Edgar had his namehe must have meant the world to her.
Harriet had always been an only child, though as a girl shed longed for siblings.
Would you nip to the shop for some bread? Just across the road, she sent Edgar out.
She immediately called Dad.
Dad, do you remember Hope Alexandra Martin? Its late, come tomorrow. Ill introduce you to your sonmy little brother. Thats all. Goodbye. More tomorrow, she said, and hung up.
She turned to Edgar when he returned. Ive made up the sofa for you in the lounge. Take a shower and get some sleep.
She had no idea what would happen nextbut she knew exactly one thing: she would not let her brother vanish into a bad home or, worse, the care system.
Her father arrived early next morning. Usually, Harriet would sleep late at weekends, but not todayshed barely closed her eyes.
She loved her father. He had always been present, quietly aware of everything in her life, never like her mother.
He had always been her rescuer, from way back in childhood. Hed supported her when she wanted to train as a teacher, while her mother raged that education was for nobodies and losers.
Her mother didnt consider herself a nobody, though shed grown up in the country. It was her father who blessed Harriets marriage, wiped her tears through divorce.
He arrived as ever: trim, composed, in spotless trousers and shoes shining like wet pavements, exuding the lightest hint of expensive cologne.
So, whats this brother youve found? Had me up all night worrying, he said as he walked through.
Shhh, Dad, my guest is still asleep, Harriet led him to the kitchen. Lets get breakfast, you must be starving.
Over a fry-up and tea, Harriet explained everything.
Well, its all rather strange! Dad said. Yes, I remember Hope Martinbright, young, beautiful. Always looked at me starry-eyed. I may have been middle-aged but Im not a block of woodher feelings were flattering!
I admit it, I let my guard slippercentages of utterly faithful men are low, you know. Im not holy. But I never meant to leave your mother.
One lunchtime, Hope casually asked if I wanted a son. I said I already had a daughter and was too old for sons.
Her mother fell ill, she asked for a long leavewent to her village. We replaced her with a stand-in. Hope returned after about a year, looking radiant as a Coxs apple. I joked whether shed married. She said yes, she had a lovely husband and a son. They rented a flat together. She kept her name, thoughMartin. But people do just live together these days. From then, things stayed strictly business.
Three years ago, Hope grew ill, was off work, and thengone, suddenly. I found out signing the paperwork for financial support for her family.
A shame, she was so young. But I dont buy this idea of a son, darling. She told me she married.
At that moment the guest appeared. He greeted them, impeccably polite. The father paled. Now the two were side by side, the resemblance was uncanny.
Lets get to know each other! said Dad, extending a slightly trembling hand. Edgar Michaelson.
Edgar Edgarsen Martin, replied the boy, fitting his hand into the large one.
They raised their brows in matching surprise.
All these Edgars in my kitchen! smiled Harriet, her laughter wobbling.
Edgar (the younger) went to wash, while Edgar (the older) stared at his daughter.
I dont understand. Hes me as a child. But she said she married and had a boy by someone else?
No. She never married. She left so she could have the baby in secret, answered Harriet quietly. Check with payrollwhen was she absent on leave?
She invented marriage to ease your conscience. She must have cared for you deeply. Edgar is sure hes never had a fatherdo you see?
Waitanother thing. Hope had no sister or brother. Just her mother, now long gone. Where did this aunt and Granny come from? Dad asked.
Edgar answered, already lingering in the hall, You mean Mum? Aunt Val isnt a real auntjust a distant cousin. She came into town when Mum couldnt get out of bed. Granny Toni is Aunt Vals mum. After Mum died, Aunt Val took me in.
And what else? They got some money for me. Uncle always moans its not enough.
But I remembered you, Edgar Michaelson! Mum kept your picture, framed, on her dressing table. Now its in the photo album. I thought you were her favourite film star, asked her who you were.
She promised shed tell me one day, when I was older.
Harriet sent Edgar off to the Saturday morning cinemajust round the corner after breakfast.
Well then, Dad, any doubts left? she asked.
Not really though well need DNA teststo prove it legally, he replied.
After that, there was a showy and suspicious fainting fit, then high blood and a supposed pre-heart-attack from Edgar Michaelsons wife, Linda Jane.
She soon calmed, taking a break at the coast, only daring to meet the boy much later. She decided she liked himvisits, yes, but as for keeping him Not with my nerves, dear! Ive a housekeeper, but shes not a nanny!
No one pressed. Edgar Michaelson spent countless hours with his new son, delighted by their similarities: their mutual loathing of porridge, their identical adoration of cats.
But senior Edgars wife was allergic, and little Edgar had never owned a place he could bring a kitten to.
They both lisped, ever so slightly. And the striking resemblance went deeper each time.
All the formalities for guardianship were finally done, after months of waiting. Edgar Michaelson called little Edgar to him at Harriets flat.
From today, youre my son in law as well as in heart. Heres your new document. I want you to knowyouve always been my boy, I just never knew. Forgive me, if you can.
I cant make you call me Dad, but you have a family now. You have me. You have Harrieta sister.
I guessed straight away you were my dad, Edgar smiled. The moment I saw you.
Children are sharp as tacks these days! chuckled his father, hugging him.
Harriet glimpsed a rare tear in her fathers eye, but he quickly composed himself. Edgar stayed with Harrietsometimes he went to visit Linda Jane; Dad dropped by every day. And then they brought home a kitten.
An old man handed out kittens outside the supermarket, free to a good home. Edgar picked the weakest. He called him Whiskers. At that moment, Edgar felt like the luckiest boy alive.
P.S.
Edgar Michaelson had a white marble headstone made for Hope.
He and little Edgar often visited her grave, bringing flowers.
One day after laying fresh posies, Edgar said,
You know, Dad, Mum told me the day before she died not to cry too much. She wouldnt really disappearshed just move into another world and keep an eye on me from there. She said shed help me however she could.
I think now she made all this happenso Harriet found me and then you. I know she did! Do you believe me, Dad?
Of course I do, said his father.











