The Carer for the Widower
A month ago, she had been hired to care for Reggie Williamsa woman left bedridden after a stroke. For thirty days, she turned her every two hours, changed the sheets, monitored the drips.
Three days ago, Reggie passed away. Quietly, in her sleep. The doctors signed off: a second stroke. No one blamed anyone.
No one, that is, except the carer. At least, thats what the deceased womans daughter believed.
Zoe rubbed the thin white scar on her wrista remnant of a burn from her first job at the local surgery. Fifteen years ago, shed been young and careless. Now, close to forty, divorced, and with her son living with her ex-husband, her reputation was on the brink of ruin.
Youve got the nerve to show your face here?
Christina appeared beside her as if out of nowhere. Her hair was yanked into a painfully tight ponytail, her temples pale, eyes bloodshot from lack of sleep. She looked older than her twenty-five years for the first time.
I just wanted to say goodbye, Zoe replied, her voice steady.
Goodbye? Christina hissed. I know what you did. Everyone will know.
She spun on her heel, heading for the coffin, to stand by her father, his face set and his right hand buried in his jacket pocket.
Zoe didnt chase after her. She didnt bother to explain. Shed realised by now: whatever had happened, shed be made the scapegoat.
Christinas post appeared online two days later.
My mother died in mysterious circumstances. The carer we hired may have hastened her death. The police refuse to investigate. But Ill get to the truth.
Three thousand shares. Most comments were supportive. Some called for justice, a few for revenge on the monster.
Zoe read the post on the bus home from the surgerythe place shed once moonlighted.
You understand, Zoe, dont you? the head doctor told her, not meeting her gaze. All this attentionits unsettling for the patients. Everyones nervous. Just until things blow over.
Just until. Zoe knew what that really meant. Never.
Her roomwith its tiny kitchen and combined bathroomgreeted her with silence. Her whole world since the divorce: a twenty-eight square metre flat on the third floor, no lift. Enough to survive, not enough to live.
The phone rang as she set the kettle on.
Zoe Williams? Its Ian Williams.
She nearly dropped the kettle. His voice was low, hoarseshe remembered it. Hed barely spoken to her during the month she cared for Reggie, but when he did, shed listened carefully to every word.
Im listening.
I need your help. With Reggies thingsI cant face it. Christina even less so. Youre the only one who knows where anything is.
Zoe hesitated. Then asked, Your daughters accusing me of murder. Did you know?
A long, heavy pause.
I know.
And still, youre calling?
Im still calling.
She ought to have refused. Any sensible person would have. But something in his voicenot a request, almost a pleamade her respond: Tomorrow, at two.
The Williamss house stood beyond the city, two spacious, empty stories. Zoe remembered it differently, bustling with nurses, beeping monitors, daytime TV murmuring from Reggies room. Now, silence lay over everything like dust.
Ian answered himself. Fifty-ish, greying at the temples, broad-shoulderedthough hed stooped since last month. His right hand stayed in his pocket. The outline of something metal. A key?
Thank you for coming.
No need for thanks. Im not doing this for you.
He raised an eyebrow. Then for whom?
For myself, she thought. To make sense of things. Why wont you speak up? Why wont you defend me, knowing Im innocent?
Out loud, she said, For order. Where are the keys to the room?
Reggies room smelled of lilies of the valleya sweet, cloying fragrance. Perfume. The scent lingered on, soaked into the walls.
Zoe set to work: sorting the wardrobe, folding clothes into boxes, collecting documents. Ian stayed downstairs. She heard his footsteps, circling restlessly.
On the bedside table sat a photograph. Zoe picked it up to put awaythen froze. Ian, in his mid-twenties, stood next to a smiling, fair-haired womannot Reggie.
Zoe turned over the photo. Written on the back, faded: Ian and Laura. 1998.
Strange. Why would Reggie keep her husbands photograph with another woman on her bedside table?
Zoe slipped the photo into her bag and carried on. Kneeling by the bed, reaching under for a boxher fingers grazed something wooden.
A small chest. Unlocked. She opened it.
Insideenvelopes, neatly stacked. Same round, feminine handwriting. All carefully opened and resealed.
Zoe picked up the top one. Addressed to Mr Ian Williams. Sender: L. V. Melton, Bristol.
DateNovember 2024. Last month.
She skimmed through the pile. The oldest, from 2004. Twenty years. Someone had written to Ianall intercepted by Reggie.
And kept. Not thrown awaystored. Why?
Zoe brought an envelope to her nose. That same lily scent. Reggie had held them, read and re-read themthe creased folds revealed as much.
She placed the box on the bed and sat down. Her hands were shaking.
This changed everything.
Ian?
He looked up from the kitchen table, untouched mug before him.
Finished?
No. She slid an envelope across. Who is Laura Melton?
His face set. Not palehard, like stone. His hand in his pocket gripped tighter.
Where did you find this?
In a box under your wifes bed. Hundreds of them from twenty yearsall opened and resealed. All hidden by your wife.
He said nothing, for an agonising span. Then, he got up, moved to the window, turned his back to her.
You knew? Zoe asked.
Only three days ago. After the funeral, sorting through her things. I thought I could handle it. I found the box.
And you say nothing?
What am I supposed to say? He whirled on her. My wife stole my post for twenty years. Stole letters from the woman I loved before her.
Maybe she kept them as trophies. Or as some self-imposed punishment. Now whatshould I tell my daughter? Who worshipped her?
Zoe stood up.
Your daughter blames me for her mothers death. Ive been dismissed. My name trashed online. You stay silentafraid of the truth?
He stepped forward, eyes dark and weary. Im silent because I dont know how to live with this. Twenty years, Zoe. Laura wrote to me. And I thought shed forgotten me. Moved on. Married, settled down. But she
He faltered.
Zoe raised the envelope. Return addressBristol. Ill go.
Why?
Because someone needs to know the truth. If not you, then me.
Laura Melton lived in a council flat on the edge of Bristol. Ground floor, geraniums in the window, a tabby cat sprawled on the sill. Zoe rang, unsure what to say.
The woman who answered couldve been Ians peer. Light hair messy in a knot, smile lines by her eyes, wary but not unkind.
Youre Laura Melton?
I am. And you are?
Zoe handed her the envelope. I found all your letters. Every one. Opened, readand hidden.
Laura stared at the envelope as if it might bite her. Then looked up.
Come in.
They sat in a kitchen as small as Zoes. The tea turned cold.
Twenty years I wrote to him, Laura began, then faltered. Monthly. Often more. Never a reply. Thought he hated mefor letting him go.
Letting him go?
Laura gripped her mug.
We were together three years. From uni. He wanted to marry. Iwas frightened. I was twenty-twothought life was just starting, why rush?
Told him to wait. He did. Half a year. Then she cameReggie. Stunning, confident, knew what she wanted. Ilost.
Zoe gave a sympathetic silence.
When they married, I left for my aunt’s in Bristol, told myself Id forget. Didnt. Five years later, started writingnot to get him back. Justso he knew. That I was there. That I still cared.
He never once replied.
Not once, Laura smiled sadly. Now I know why.
Zoe took the photograph from her bag.
She kept this at her bedside. Ian & Laura, 1998.
Lauras hands shook as she took it.
She keptthis? By her bed?
Exactly.
Silence.
You know, Laura finally said, I hated her all my life. The woman who took my love. NowI pity her.
Imagine, living twenty-five years in fear your husband would remember someone else. Reading my letters every day, hiding them. Thats hell. A hell of her own making.
Zoe stood.
Thank you for telling me.
Wait. Laura rose too. Why are you here? Youre not family. Not a friend.
Zoe hesitated.
Ive been blamed for her death. Ians daughterthinks I killed her to take her place.
And you want to prove your innocence?
Zoe shook her head.
I want to understand the truth. The rest will follow.
She phoned Ian on the way homesaid shed return. He waited on the porch, as the sun went down, tree shadows long across the grass.
You were right, Zoe told him. She wrote you letters for twenty years. Never married, waited for you.
He said nothing. Only his hand in his pocket clenched and unclenched.
Youve something in the safe, Zoe said. You practically guard the key.
Pause.
Come with me.
The safe was in the studyold, heavy. Ian opened it and took out an envelope, handwriting sharp and spikyReggies.
She wrote it two days before she died. I found it while searching for funeral documents.
Zoe opened it. Inside, a handwritten letter, words filling the page.
Ianif youre reading this, then Im gone and youve found the box. I always knew this day would come. And yet, I couldnt stop.
I started intercepting her letters in 2004, five years after we married. You changedbecame distant, withdrawn. I thought you no longer loved me. Then I found the first letter in the post. And I realised.
She never let you go.
I should have shown you that letter. Should have asked you about it. But I was afraid youd leavethat youd choose her. So I hid it. The next one, too. And so on.
For twenty years, I stole your post. For twenty years, I read someone elses love for you. And every day, I hated myself. But I couldnt stop.
I loved you so much I destroyed everything: your right to choose. Her hope. My own conscience.
Forgive me, if you can. I know I dont deserve it. But I still ask.
Reggie.
Zoe folded the letter.
Does Christina know?
No.
She needs to. You know that.
Ian turned away.
She adored her mother. Thiswould break her.
Shes already broken, Zoe said softly. Shes lost her mum and fears losing her dad, so she lashes out, looking for blame.
Ian said nothing.
If you tell her the truth, she may hate youfor a while. But then, she might one day understand. If you stay silent, shell never forgive either of us. Not you. Not herself.
He turned. His eyes were wet.
I dont know how to talk to her. Since Reggies illnesswe barely spoke.
Then learn. Tonight.
Christina arrived an hour later. Zoe watched her from the windowstepping out, pulling at her ponytail, freezing when she saw her father.
They talked for a long time. Zoe heard only voices at firstChristina shouting, then sobbing, then silence.
When Christina emerged, she held Reggies letter. Her face was swollen with tears, but the anger had drainedleaving only loss.
She approached Zoe, who waited for accusations or blame.
Ive deleted my post, Christina said quietly. Written a retraction. And Im sorry. I was wrong.
Zoe nodded.
I understand. Grief can make us cruel.
Christina shook her head.
No, not grief. Fear. I was scared of being left alone. Mum was gone, Dad becamea stranger. And you were there. You saw her last days. You knew her. I thought you wanted her place. To take Dad.
I want nothing to steal.
I know that, now.
Awkwardly, Christina reached out and Zoe squeezed her hand.
Mumshe was unhappy, wasnt she? Christina asked softly. All her life?
Zoe thought of the letter. Twenty years of fear and jealousy. A love turned cage.
She loved your dadin her way. Not always rightly. But she loved him.
Christina nodded, then sat on the step and weptquiet, soundless tears.
Zoe sat beside her. Not hugging, just there.
Two weeks passed.
Zoe got her job backChristina called the head doctor in person. Reputation is fragile, but sometimes it can be mended.
Ian rang one evening, much like he had that first time.
Zoe Williams. I wanted to thank you.
For what?
For the truth. For not letting me hide.
A pause.
Im going to Bristol tomorrow. To see Laura. I dont know what Ill say, or if shell even want to see me. Butafter twenty years, I have to try. Silence can last too long.
Zoe smiled into the phonehe couldnt see it, but perhaps he heard it.
Good luck, Ian.
A month later, he returnedwith company.
Zoe found out by chance, spotting them at the Saturday market. Ian carrying bags, Laura choosing tomatoes. A simple scenetwo people shopping. But their easy togetherness gave away something more.
Ian noticed her, raised his hand in greetingthe right hand, out of his pocket.
Zoe waved back and walked on.
That evening, she opened her window. The dusk of May smelled of lilac and petrolordinary, alive.
She thought of Reggieher lilies, the box of letters, a love turned prison. Of Lauratwenty years of waiting, of hope kept alive. Of Ianhis long silence, the key in his pocket, the man who finally chose.
Then she stopped thinking. Just sat quietly, listening to the city, waiting for somethingshe wasnt sure what.
Her phone rang.
Zoe? Its Ian. Just Ian. Were having dinner here. Lauras making pie. Would you like to join us?
Zoe glanced around her tiny flattwenty-eight square metres of quiet. Then out the open window.
Ill be there in an hour.
She hung up, took her keys, and left.
The door shut with a soft click. Outside, sunset burned over the rooftopsfiery, gentle, promising a peaceful tomorrow.
Sometimes, even after years of heartbreak and misunderstanding, the truth still finds its wayand with it, the chance to begin again.












