The last time I saw my son was over six years ago.
How long has it been since your son spoke to you? I asked my neighbour, and at that moment, I felt my heart break.
Its been six years since I last saw him. After he moved away with his wife, he used to phone me every now and then, at least at first. But then, over time, he simply drifted away. I remember once I bought him a birthday cake and went round, hoping we could celebrate together Her eyes dropped and she began to cry.
And what happened then? I pressed gently.
My daughter-in-law answered the door. She told me I wasnt welcome in their home. My son didnt say a word. He just looked at me as if Id done something wrong, and he stared off into the distance. That was the last time I saw him.
He never called after that? I could hardly believe what I was hearing.
I phoned him once, when I decided to sell my three-bedroom flat and buy something a bit smaller. I gave him some money, of course. He showed up, signed the papers, took his share, and after that, I never heard from him again.
It must be dreadfully lonely, or have you come to accept it? I asked the old woman.
I manage. When I was very young, my husband left me for another woman, so I was left on my own to raise my boy. My son grew up surrounded by love and care. Then, when he was older, he told me he wanted to rent a place of his own. At first, I was pleasedthought it meant he was becoming a man and standing on his own two feet.
But it turned out to be about his girlfriend. She wanted a place of their own, so no one could interfere with their fun. Then she found out she was pregnant.
Youre able to talk about all this so calmly. Doesnt it hurt, how he left you alone in your old age? I couldnt help but be surprised.
Ive grown used to it. I actually enjoy living in this new building. Ive enough money for all my needs. Every morning I get up, put the kettle on, and sit out on the balcony with a cup of tea. I love watching the city come to life in the mornings. When I was young, all I wanted was a good nights sleepI had to work two shifts just to make ends meet. I always dreamed of growing old surrounded by loved ones, but it seems I was meant to be on my own.
Why not get yourself a pet? I suggested. Its more lively with two.
Oh, love, she sighed, even cats sometimes abandon their owners, and as for a dogI couldnt bear to take one on, not knowing if Ill wake up the next day. I cant take responsibility for someone I might not be able to look after. Ive made enough mistakes for one lifetime
She tried to hold her head high, but in the end, she couldnt help it anymore, and broke down in tears.
