Fifty thousand, Simon. Fifty. On top of the thirty grand in maintenance already.
Eleanor threw her phone onto the kitchen table, sending it skittering dangerously close to the edge. Simon snagged it just before it toppled, which made Eleanor bristle with even more irritation.
Lily needed trainers and a kit for football club, Simon put the phone face-down, as if trying to erase the evidence. Shes growing, Ellie. Kids always grow, don’t they.
Trainers for fifty quid? Is she joining England’s Olympic squad?
And a backpack. And a new coatits nearly autumn.
Eleanor turned away, not wanting to look at her husband. She already knew about these transfers. Every month. Without fail. Always the same reason: daughter, responsibilities, obligations. Noble-sounding words, masking hard figures leaching from their shared budget into someone elses account.
I love her, Simon stepped closer, pausing a foot behind her. Shes my daughter. I can’t just…
I never said forget your child, did I? Im asking why you spend so much on top of the maintenance? Thirty thousand every month isnt nothing, is it? Is Anna not working?
She is.
So whats the problem?
Simon said nothing. His silence was so familiar to Eleanorit meant he had no answer. There was only the tired habit of agreeing, helping, never arguing. Being the model ex-husband, the responsible dad, the good man. Always paid for by their family.
Eleanor turned, bracing herself against the sink.
I keep track, you know. In my head. How much goes out every month. Do you want the total for this past year?
Not really.
Nearly six hundred thousand. Without the extra fifty from today.
Simon rubbed the bridge of his noseanother gesture that meant “lets drop it.” But Eleanor couldn’t not speak any longer. Shed kept quiet for too long, played the understanding wife too hard.
We planned a holiday, remember? You promisedNovember, the seaside, two weeks. So wheres the money now?
Ellie, I get it. But Anna called, said it was urgent…
Anna. Always Anna. Theres always something urgent about her.
Simon slumped onto a stool, elbows on knees. Eleanor suddenly realised he looked exhausted. Not from work, but from being pulled back and forth between two women. Sympathy flickered in her belly, but she smothered it, refusing to let it surface.
She wants to buy a flat, Simon mumbled, still not meeting her eyes. So Lily can have her own room.
Hang on. What flat?
Larger. Theyre cramped in a studiosurely you remember. She says theres not enough space.
Theres not enough space. And who pays?
Simon finally looked at her, a guilty glimmer in his eyes. Eleanor felt a chill creep over her.
Youre not seriously considering…
She asked me for help. With the deposit. Im only thinking about it for now.
Thinking? Simon, thats… thats massive! How can you even consider paying that?
Weve managed to save a bit. For the car.
We saved! For our car! For our family!
Her voice cracked into a shout, and Eleanor clapped a hand over her mouth as if she could force the words back inside. Uselesstheyd already flown, hanging in the charged space between them.
Simon stood, wandered to the window, hands in his pockets.
Lilys my family too. I cant just pretend she isnt there.
No one asked you to, but theres maintenancelegal, official. The rest? Thats up to you. And up to me, mindbecause its our money.
I know.
But that doesnt stop you.
Silence. The neighbours telly chattered through the walls, laughter from some silly sitcom. An absurd soundtrack for their argument.
Eleanor slid into her usual chair, fussed with the tablecloth. Anger, hurt, confusion burned inside her, but her words came out evenly.
So, whats she after? How much?
Two hundred thousand for the deposit.
The number hung in the air. Eleanor laugheda short, mirthless bark.
Two hundred thousand. Thats all weve got.
I know.
Are you actually going to give it to her?
Its for my daughter.
I won’t allow it. Its my money toodont forget.
Simon didnt reply. Nothing more to say.
A week later, Eleanor logged onto the banking app, mechanically checking if her pay had come in. She scrolled to the savings accountthree years worth of scrimping.
Balance: £1,047.50…
She blinked. Refreshed the app. Checked again.
One thousand instead of two hundred thousand…
Her phone slipped from her fingers, thudded onto the rug.
Eleanor stood in the middle of the lounge, unable to move. Two hundred thousandthree years of sacrifice, skipped holidays, careful notes for every large purchase. Nowjust a thousand left. A stub. A shadow of their shared future.
She retrieved her phone, checked the transaction history. Transfer made to Anna Jennifer Smith.
Not even trying to hide it.
Simon sat on the sofa with his laptop when she burst into the room. He looked up, began to smilethen froze at her expression.
You gave away all our savings to your ex?!
Her voice was a shriek, and Eleanor didnt care. Let the neighbours hear, let the whole block.
Ellie, wait, I can explain…
Explain?! Two hundred thousand, Simon! Two! That was our money!
He set aside the laptop, rose slowly. No guilt in his eyes now, just a bizarre resoluteness.
Its for Lily. She needs a proper room, real space. Im her father, I have to
You have a family. Me! Not the woman you left years ago!
Shes the mother of my child.
And what am I?!
Youre my wife. I love you. But Lily
Stop hiding behind Lily! Eleanor stepped towards him, and Simon shrank back. You bought Anna a flat. Not for the childfor her! The deed is in her name, isnt it? Shell live there, she holds the keys, she can sell it tomorrow and do whatever she likes. Whats that got to do with Lily?
Simon opened and shut his mouth. Nothing to say. Of course notbecause Eleanor was right and they both knew it.
You still love her, Eleanor whispered, almost inaudibly. Thats what this is about. Not Lily. You just cant refuse her. You never could.
Thats not true.
Then why? Why didnt you ask me? Why decide for both of us?
Simon reached out, arms extended:
Ellie, please. Lets talk this through. I know youre angry, but its for my daughter…
Eleanor recoiled from his touch.
Dont touch me.
Three wordsa wall sprung up between them. Simon froze, arms hanging, something like understanding finally registering on his face. Far too late.
I cant do this, Eleanor walked past him into the bedroom, grabbed her bag. I cant stay with someone who makes decisions without me. Who lies. Who…
I didnt lie!
You didnt tell me. Same thing.
She stuffed the essentials into the bagclothes, documents, phone charger. Simon watched from the doorway as his life split apart.
Where are you going?
Mums.
For long?
Eleanor zipped up, swung the bag on her shoulder. Gave Simonthis grown man with lost eyesa look as hard and cold as winter grass.
I dont know, Simon. Honestly, I dont.
Three days in her mothers flat passed in a haze. The first day Eleanor lay on the sofa, staring at the ceiling. Mum brought tea, asked nothing, stroked her hair like she was six again. The next daythe anger came: sharp, relieving, crisp. By the thirdclarity.
She called the solicitor.
I want a divorce. Yes, absolutely. No, theres no chance for reconciliation.
Simon rang every day. Sent messageslong, rambling, stumbling apologies and explanations. Eleanor read them but never replied. What was left to say? Hed made his choice. Now it was hers.
A month later, Eleanor moved into a tiny rented studio halfway across London. Small, overlooking the train yards, but hers alone. She picked the curtains herself, arranged the furniture, decided where each pound would go.
The divorce papers were signed quicklySimon didnt fight, just agreed. Maybe he hoped shed change her mind. But she didnt.
Sometimes, at night, Eleanor sat by the window and marvelled at how strange life could be. Three years ago shed believed shed found her person. Nowshe was alone in a quiet, empty flat. And oddly, that felt alright.
Eleanor opened her notebook, wrote a single word: zero. A new beginning. Next to ita plan for the month, the next half-year, the next twelve months. How much to save, where to invest, which courses would help her level up.
For the first time in ages, the future depended entirely on her.












