Whose little one are you, darling?… Let me take you home, you’ll warm up. I scooped her up in my arms.
Brought her back with me, and of course, the neighbours were by in no timenews in our village always travels at lightning speed. “Heavens, Alice, where did you find her?” they asked. “And what on earth are you going to do with her?” “Alice, have you lost your mind? How will you feed a child on your own?”
The kitchen floor gave a familiar creakI keep telling myself I must mend that loose board, but there’s always something else. I sat down at the table and pulled out my faded old diary. The pages are as yellow as autumn leaves, but the ink still clings to my memories. It was blowing a gale outside, and the birch by the window was knocking like it wanted an invite in.
“What’s all the fuss for out there?” I joked. “Just wait, spring will come soon enough.”
Sounds daft, chatting to a tree, I knowbut when you live on your own, everything seems a little more alive. After the terrible days of the war, I was left a widowmy William never came home. I still keep his last letter, crinkled and worn at the folds, I’ve read it so many times. Said hed be back soon, said he loved me, said wed be happy together… And then, just a week later, they told me.
Never had children, and perhaps it was a blessing, reallyback then, no-one had enough food to go around. Mr. John Henderson, the head of the village, always tried to cheer me up:
“Don’t fret, Alice, youre still youngplenty of time to marry again yet.”
“Im not marrying anyone else,” Id always answer, firm as anything. “I loved oncethat’s enough for me.”
I worked on the farm from dawn ’til dusk. Old Mr. Thompson, the foreman, would shout across the fields:
“Alice Smith! Shouldnt you be home by now? It’s getting late!”
“Ill manage,” Id call back, “As long as my hands work, my heart does too.”
I kept a small holdingjust a stubborn goat called Daisy, as headstrong as me. Five cheeky hens, who woke me up every morningbetter than any cockerel, truly. My neighbour Jean liked to tease:
“Youre not a turkey, are you, Alice? Why do your hens start up before the suns even up?”
I kept a little vegetable patchpotatoes, carrots, beetrootthe lot, all fresh from the ground. In autumn, Id make picklescucumbers, tomatoes, even mushrooms in jars. When winter came, Id crack open a jar and it felt just like summer had come home.
I remember that day clear as ever. March was damp and cold, rain in the morning then it all froze up by evening. Off to the woods I went for kindlingthe stove needed burning and there was plenty of fallen branches after the storms. Arms full, making my way home past the old stone bridge, when I hear ita child crying. Thought at first it was just the wind, but noclear as day, those sobs.
Down under the bridge I went, found a little girl huddled in the mud. Her dress was torn and soaked, eyes wide with fear. When she saw me, she went quiet but kept shaking like a leaf.
“Whose little one are you?” I whispered, not wanting to scare her more.
She just blinked at me; lips blue with cold, hands swollen and red.
“Youre freezing,” I sighed, talking more to myself than her. “Come on, lets get you warm.”
I picked her upshe weighed nothing at all. Wrapped her in my shawl and held her close to my chest, wondering what sort of mother leaves her child under a bridge. Couldnt get my head round it.
I had to leave the firewoodmy arms were full. She kept silent the whole way home, just clinging tight to my neck with her icy little fingers.
By the time we got to mine, the neighbours were in the lane already. News spreads fast round here. Jean was first through the gate.
“Goodness, Alice, where did you find her?”
“Under the bridge,” I said. “Left there, looked like.”
“Oh, what a tragedy,” Jean gasped. “What will you do with her?”
“Keep her with me.”
“Have you lost your senses, Alice?” Old Mrs. Porter piped in. “Where will you get food for a child?”
“Godll provide,” I answered sharp.
First things first, lit the fire as hot as it would go and set water to warm. Poor thing was covered in bruises, so thin you could count each rib. Bathed her gently, bundled her up in my biggest cardiganhad no childrens clothes in the house.
“Are you hungry?” I asked softly.
She nodded, shy.
Gave her some leftover soup and a thick slice of bread. She ate quickly but carefulproperly brought up, not a street child.
“Whats your name, love?”
She stayed quiet; maybe afraid, maybe she just couldn’t speak.
I put her to bed in my own bed, sat myself on the old wooden settle. All night I woke, checking in on hershe slept curled tight, sometimes whimpering.
Next morning I went straight to the parish council, reported what Id found. Mr. Henderson, the chair, just shook his head.
“No one’s reported a missing child. Might’ve been left by someone from town…”
“What do I do now?”
“Law says she should go to childrens care. Ill ring the county today.”
My heart squeezed.
“Wait, Mr. Henderson. Give me a bitif her parents come for her, Ill hand her over. For now, Ill keep her.”
“Alice Smith, you think it through…”
“Already decided.”
I named her Emily, for my own mother. I thought, perhaps her family would come, but weeks passed and no one showed. All the betterI loved her from the start.
It was tough at firstshe didnt speak, always glancing around as if searching for something. Woke from nightmares, shaking through and through. Id pull her close, stroking her hair:
“Its alright, darling, youre safe now. Everythings alright.”
From old dresses, I stitched together clothes for herdyed them blue, green, red. They were simple, but cheerful. Jean clapped her hands when she saw:
“Well, would you look at that, Alice! Golden hands, you have. I thought a shovel was all you ever managed!”
“Life teaches us all sorts,” I chuckled. “A nanny, a seamstresswe muddle along.”
Not everyone was so kind. Especially Mrs. Portershed cross herself when she saw us:
“Can’t be good luck, Alice. Take in a foundling, invite misfortune. Her mother must have been no good. The apple never falls far, you know…”
“Dont start, Edith,” I cut her off. “Not yours to judge. Shes my girl nowend of story.”
Even Mr. Henderson frowned at first.
“Think about it, Alicebetter she goes to the childrens home. Shell be fed and dressed properly.”
“And wholl love her?” I asked. “Theyve got enough orphans in that place.”
He gave up then, but after all started helpingsent over milk, flour once in a while.
Emily slowly thawed. She began with single words, then whole sentences, then one day laughter. I remember I fell off a stool hanging curtains, groaning on the floorand she let out the brightest, most ringing laugh. My aches faded straight away.
She tried to help in the garden. Id give her a little hoeshed march along, imitating me, though mostly she trampled weeds into the rows rather than pulling them. But I never scoldedjust happy to see life returning in her.
Trouble struck laterEmily came down with a fever, burning hot and delirious. I dashed for our local nurse, Mr. Thomas:
“For goodness sake, help!”
He just wrung his hands.
“Medicines scarce, Alice. All Ive got for the whole village is three aspirin. Maybe they’ll get a delivery next week.”
“Next week?” I shouted. “She might not last til morning!”
So I hurried to town, nine miles through mud, shoes ruined, feet blisteredreached the clinic at last. A young doctor, Tom Williams, saw me, muddy and soaking wet.
“Stay here,” he told me.
He brought out medicine and talked me through the doses:
“No charge,” he said. “Just get your girl well.”
Three days I never left her sidewhispered prayers, swapped cold cloths. On the fourth day, the fever broke. She opened her eyes and whispered, so quietly:
“Mummy… Im thirsty.”
Mummy. She called me that for the first time. Tears camerelief, joy, everything at once. She reached out and wiped my face.
“Mummy, are you in pain?”
“No, love,” I said. “Just happy. So happy.”
After that, Emily bloomedchatty, gentle. Soon enough, she started school. The teacher couldnt praise her enough:
“Such a bright girllearns in a heartbeat!”
The village folk got used to things, stopped gossiping. Even old Mrs. Porter softenedstarted bringing cakes round. Grew especially fond of Emily when she helped get her stove burning in the coldest snap. The poor woman had thrown her back out, had no firewood. Emily offered:
“Mum, shall we go check on Mrs. Porter? She must be freezing.”
So they became friendsthe cantankerous old lady and my little girl. She told her stories, taught her to knit, never mentioned foundlings or bad blood again.
Emily turned nine when she first asked about the bridge. One evening, I was darning socks, she was rocking her rag dollthe one I made for her.
“Mummy, do you remember the day you found me?”
My heart gave a twist, but I stayed calm.
“I remember, love.”
“I remember a little bit too. It was cold. And scary. Some lady was crying then she walked away.”
My needles dropped. Emily went on:
“I dont remember her facejust her blue scarf. She kept saying: ‘Forgive me, forgive me…'”
“Emily…”
“Its alright, Mummy. I dont feel sad. Im just glad you found me.”
I hugged her tight, my throat all knotted. So many times I wonderedwho was the woman in the blue scarf? What made her leave a child under a bridge? Maybe there was hardship, hunger, a husband who drank… Lifes complicated. Not my place to judge.
I couldnt sleep that nightthinking how life turns. Once I felt left behind, sentenced to loneliness. In truth, life was just getting me readyfor the moment someone needed me most.
After that, Emily often asked about her past. I didnt hide anything; I only tried to explain so it wouldnt hurt:
“You know, love, sometimes people have no real choice, life just pushes them beyond hope. Maybe your mum suffered terribly, choosing to let you go.”
“And you wouldnt have done that, would you?” shed ask, searching my eyes.
“Never,” I promised. “Youre my joy, my blessing.”
Years passed by in a flash. Emily topped her classes at school. Some days shed burst through the door:
“Mum, guess what! Read a poem in front of the whole class, and Mrs. Bennett said Ive got a real gift!”
Mrs. Bennett often chatted with me.
“Alice Smith, that girl needs to study further. Children like her dont come by often. Shes got talent for languages, for literaturejust look at her essays!”
“But where will we find the money to send her?” I’d sigh.
“Ill help her prep,” Mrs. Bennett replied. “Free of charge. Itd be a sin to waste such talent.”
So Mrs. Bennett tutored Emily after school, evenings at our kitchen table. I made them tea and jam, listened to them discussing Shakespeare and Austen. My heart sangmy girl was flying.
In her final year, Emily fell for a new boy in her class, Jack, whod moved to the village with his family. She was so nervous, scribbling poems in her notebook, hiding it under her pillow. I pretended not to notice, but I remember those first heartbreaksthey always sting so.
After leaving school, Emily applied to teacher training college. I handed her every penny I had put by, even sold our cow Daisya wrench, but what else could I do?
“You dont need to do that, Mum,” Emily protested. “How will you manage without Daisy?”
“Ill be fine, lovea few potatoes, eggs from the hens. You need your education.”
When the letter arrivedEmily had been acceptedthe whole village celebrated. Even Mr Henderson came round.
“Well done, Alice! Raised the girl, educated her. Weve got our own student now.”
I still remember the day she leftstood at the bus stop together, her arms round me, tears in her eyes.
“Ill write every week, Mum. And come home in the holidays.”
“Of course you will,” I smiled, though my chest ached.
When the bus vanished round the bend, I just stayed there. Jean came by and put her arm around my shoulders:
“Come on, Alice. Theres work at home waiting.”
“You know, Jean,” I said, “Im truly happy. Other folk have children of their bloodI have a child given to me by God.”
She kept her wordletters arrived all the time. Each one was a joy, and Ive read them so many times I know every line by heart. She wrote about studying, new friends, life in the citybut between the lines I could see she missed home.
Second year at college, she met her Mark, also a student, reading history. Began mentioning him in her letters, just in passingbut I knew mothers can always tell. On summer holidays, she brought him to visit.
He was a solid lad, hard-working. Helped me fix the roof, mended the gate. Got to know the neighbours in no time. In the evenings, wed sit on the porch while he told us stories of old battlesyou could listen for hours. You could see, clear as day, he loved Emily, never took his eyes off her.
Whenever she came back for holidays, the whole village turned outshed grown into such a beauty. Even Mrs. Porter, ancient now, would cross herself:
“HeavensI was dead set against you taking her in. Forgive me, old fool that I am. Just look at what she’s become!”
Now Emilys a teacher herself, at a city primary. She teaches other children, just like Mrs. Bennett taught her once. She married Mark, and they’re perfect togethergave me a granddaughter, little Alice, named for me.
Little Alice is the spitting image of Emily as a child, only braver. When they visit, she doesnt sit still for a momenteverythings fascinating, she touches, pokes, climbs! I love itlet her make noise and run wild. A house without childrens laughter is like a church without bells.
So, here I am, scribbling away in my diary while the wind howls outside. The floor still creaks, the birch still knocks at the window. But the quiet isnt smothering now; its full of peace, and gratitudefor every smile, for every day, for the fate that led me to that old bridge.
On the sideboard, theres a photoEmily with Mark and little Alice. And right next to it, the battered blue shawl I wrapped her in all those years ago. Sometimes I smooth it out, remembering its warmth.
Yesterday, Emily wrote againshes expecting another baby, a boy this time. Mark has already chosen his nameWilliam, for my late husband. So our family goes on, and someone will keep the memories safe.
They tore down that old bridge ages ago and built a new, sturdy concrete one. I dont go there much now, but whenever I do, I pause for a minute and thinkhow much can change in one day, one moment, one childs cry in the chill of a March evening
They say life tests us with loneliness so we can treasure those we find. But I reckon its just preparing usso were ready for the ones who need us most. Doesnt matter if youre bound by blood or notonly what your heart tells you. Mine was right, all those years ago under that bridge.












