WITHOUT A SOUL…
Claudia Green had just returned home, her hair freshly coiffed and her spirits lifted. At 68, she took great pride in regular visits to her favourite salonone of the last luxuries she steadfastly allowed herself. Claudia kept her hair neat, her nails tidy, and these modest rituals did wonders for her mood.
“Claudia, some relative of yours popped by,” her husband, George, informed her. “I told her youd be back later. She said shell come again.”
“Oh, another relative, is it?” Claudia grumbled. “Theres no one left. Must be some third cousin twice removedprobably wants something. You should have told her Id gone on a round-the-world cruise!”
“Really, darling, whats the harm?” George replied, ever the reasonable man. “She looked quite like your late mother, actually. Tall, elegant, nicely dressedI doubt shes here to ask anything. She seemed rather cultured.”
About forty minutes later, the doorbell rang. Claudia herself greeted her guest. Indeed, the woman bore a striking resemblance to Claudias mother, dressed perfectly in a smart coat, boots, gloves, and diamond earrings so tiny only an expert could spot their worthwhich, incidentally, Claudia was.
She invited the woman to join her at the set table.
“Lets get acquaintedsince were apparently relatives,” Claudia said, forgoing formalities. “Im Claudia, no need for Mrs Green. You look about my age. This is my husband, George. So, how exactly are we related?”
The woman hesitated, cheeks flushing ever so slightly. “Im Helen… Helen Watson. Theres not much between usin age, I mean. I turned fifty on the twelfth of June. Does that date ring any bells?”
Claudia went pale.
“I see youve remembered,” Helen continued quietly. “Yes, Im your daughter. Please, dont worryI dont need anything from you. I just wanted to see my mother, the one I never knew. All my life I couldnt fathom why my mum didnt love meby the way, shes been gone eight years. Why did only Dad care for me? He passed just recently, only two months ago. He told me about you at the end, asked if you could forgive him,” Helen said, her voice trembling.
“Whats going on? You have a daughter?” George spluttered.
“Apparently, yes. Ill explain later,” Claudia replied briskly.
“So, youre my daughter? Well, youve seen me. If youre expecting me to tearfully beg forgiveness, I wont. Im blameless here,” Claudia answered, her tone unwavering. “I trust your father explained everything? If you think this will unlock some maternal feelings in me, it wont. Not a bit. Sorry.”
“May I visit again?” Helen ventured gently. “I live nearby, a big house in the suburbsyou and George could come too. Maybe youll get used to the idea. Ive brought pictures of your grandson and great-granddaughter. Would you like to see?”
“No. I dont want to. Dont come back, forget about me. Goodbye,” Claudia answered sharply.
George called Helen a cab and saw her out. By the time he returned, Claudia had cleared the table and was calmly watching the telly.
“You really are made of stone,” George remarked. “Youd make a fine general, but dont you have any heart at all? I always thought you were tough and unsentimental, but this this is something else.”
Claudia shrugged. “We met when I was 28, didnt we? Well, dear George, any soul I had was wrung out years before.
I was a country girl, always dreaming of escaping to the city. Thats why I studied so hard and got into universitythe only one from my class. When I was 17, I met Bill. I adored him. He was almost twelve years older, but I didnt mind. After a childhood of scraping by, city life felt like a fairytale. My grant barely covered anything; I was always hungry, so Bills invitations to tea or the ice cream parlour were a delight.
Bill never made promises, but I was sure our romance meant marriage.
One night, he invited me to his cottage. I went, sure Id tied him to me after that. Meetings there became routine. Soon enough, it was clear I was expecting.
I told Bill. He was overjoyed. As my condition became obvious, I asked him directly: Whens the wedding? Id turned eighteen; the registry office wouldnt turn us away.
“Did I ever promise to marry you?” Bill replied coolly.
“No promises, and Im not marrying you. Im already married” he said just as calmly.
“But what about the child? About me?”
“Youre young, fitcould be made into a statue for the Thames,” he said with a grin. “Take a year off from uni. While its not noticeable, keep studying; then youll come live with me and my wife. Weve struggled to have children. Maybe my wifes too old for it. When the baby is born, well take it. The paperwork isnt your concern. Im not without influence around here, and my wife heads a hospital department. So dont fret about the child. After your recovery, back to university. Well even pay you.”
Back then, no oned heard of surrogate motherhood. Seems I was the original. Well, what could I do? Go home, shame my family?
I lived at their big house till the birth. Bills wife never spoke to meperhaps she was jealous. I gave birth at home, with a proper midwife. Never nursed my daughter; they carried her off at once. Never saw her again. A week later, I was politely sent on my way, Bill pressed some cash into my hand.
Back at uni, then on to the factory. Got a room in the married quarters. Worked my way up to senior supervisor on quality control.
Had plenty of mates, but no one ever proposeduntil you came along. At 28, I wasnt keen on marriage, but it seemed required.
The rest, you know. Weve had a good lifethree cars, all mod cons, a well-kept country house. Holidays every year. Our factory survived the ’90s by making tractor parts no one else even knew about, still ringed by barbed wire and watchtowers.
Retired early, plenty to our name. No kids, thankfully. The way children are these days” Claudia finished, a dry smile on her lips.
“Its not been as good as you think,” George replied, wounded. “I tried so hard to thaw your heart but never could. No kids, fair enough, but you never took in a kitten or a stray pupnot even once. When my sister asked for help with her niece, you wouldnt even let her stay for a week.
Today, your daughter cameand how did you greet her? Your own flesh and blood! Really, if we were younger, Id be asking for a divorce; but now its a bit late. Its cold living with you, Claudia. Just cold.”
Claudia was rattled; George had never spoken to her quite like that before.
Her peaceful existence had been disrupted by this daughter.
George moved out to their country house. Hes lived there ever since, surrounded by three dogsrescued straysand who knows how many cats.
Hes rarely at home. Claudia knows he visits her daughter Helen, is acquainted with everyone there, and dotes on the great-granddaughter.
“Hes always been soft as butter, still is. Let him get on with it,” Claudia thinks.
Shes never felt the urge to get to know her daughter, grandson, or great-granddaughter.
Instead, she holidayed alone at the seaside. She relaxes, recharges, and feels utterly splendid.












