The Borrowed Dress
Theres a woman who lives down our street, just three doors from the GP surgery, called Margaret. Her surname is simpleBrownand she herself is quiet and almost invisible, like the shadow of a birch at midday. Margaret works at the village library. They dont pay her wages for months, and when they do, its hardly anythingsometimes tins of beans, sometimes a bottle of gin, or maybe a sack of flour already infested with weevils.
Margaret doesnt have a husband. He left years ago for up North in search of decent money, when her daughter was still in nappies. Vanished, reallymaybe he started a new family, or perhaps he just disappeared for good. No one knows.
So Margaret has raised her daughter, Emily, on her own. Shes spent every ounce of strength she has; she sits late at night at her sewing machine. Margaret is clever with her handsshed do anything to make sure Emilys tights arent full of holes, and her plaits are decked with ribbons just as bright as everyone elses.
Emilys grown into a firecracker, a real beautyno denying it. Eyes blue as cornflowers, hair like ripe wheat, so slender and proud. She always feels the sting of their poverty. It pains her. Shes young, wants to blossom, wants to run off to school discos, but shes still wearing the same scuffed boots for the third year running.
Then comes spring. The final year at school. The time when every girls heart flutters, dreams spill out.
Margaret came round to see me at the surgery to check her blood pressureearly May, and hawthorn just beginning to bloom. She sits on the bed, thin, sharp shoulders poking through a faded top.
Valerie, she whispers, twisting her fingers, Ive got a problem. Emily refuses to go to prom. She throws tantrums.
Whats the matter? I ask, wrapping the cuff around her slender arm.
She says she wont go and embarrass herself. Helen, the chairmans daughter, got a city dressimported, fluffy. And me… Margaret lets out a heavy sigh that tugs at my heart. I havent even got money for calico, Valerie. Weve eaten through everything over the winter.
What will you do? I ask.
Ive already figured it out, Margarets eyes suddenly glitter with hope. Remember the old curtains at Mums? Thick satin, good quality. That colour… beautiful. Ill snip the old lace off a collar, embroider it with sequins. Itll be a picture, not a dress!
I just shake my head. I know Emilys temperament. She doesnt want a picture, she wants something posh, something with a label sticking out. But I keep quiet. A mothers hope is blind, but sacred.
All through May, I see the light in the Browns windows well past midnight. The old sewing machine rattles like a traintap-tap-tap. Margaret works magic. She sleeps three hours a night, eyes red, hands full of needle marks, but she looks happy.
The disaster happens about three weeks before prom. I drop by with some ointment for her backshes been complaining about bending over the sewing machine.
I walk in, andoh my wordlaid out on the table isnt just a dress, its a dream. The fabric shimmers with a soft glow, such an elegant coloursmoky rose, like evening clouds at sunset before a storm. Every seam, every bead sewn with such care, as if the thing glows from within.
What do you think? Margaret asks, smiling shyly, her hands shaking, fingers covered in plasters.
A queen, I say honestly. Youve got golden hands. Has Emily seen?
Not yet, shes at school. Its a surprise.
Just then the front door slams. Emily storms in, cheeks flushed, angry, and throws her bag in the corner.
Helens been bragging again! she shouts from the hallway. Shes got patent leather heelsproper pumps! And I have to go in these battered trainers?!
Margaret steps forward, carefully picks up the dress from the table.
Darling, look… Its ready.
Emily freezes. Her eyes grow wide as she scans the dress. I expect her to be thrilled. Instead, she flares up.
Whats this? Her voice turns icy. Those are Grans old curtains, arent they? I know them! They stank of mothballs for ages! Are you having me on?!
Emily, this is real satin, look at how it fits… Margarets voice shakes, she mumbles something, tries to step toward her girl.
Curtains! Emily screams so loud the windowpanes rattle. You want me to walk on stage in a curtain?! So all of school can laugh?! Poor Brown wrapped in a curtain! I wont wear it! Ever! Id rather go nakedrather drownthan wear this rubbish!
She snatches it from her mothers hands, throws it to the floor, and stomps on it. Right on top of the sequins, the pride of her mothers work.
I hate you! I hate being poor! Hate this life! All mums do what it takes, but you… youre nothing but a doormat!
The room falls silent, thick and heavy.
Margaret turns as pale as chalk. She doesnt scream or cry. She just bends down, in an old-lady sort of way, picks up the dress, dusts off imaginary specks, and hugs it tight to her chest.
Valerie, she whispers, without looking at her daughter. Could you please leave us? We need to talk.
So, I leave. My heart pounding, wanting to give that silly girl a good talking-to…
The next morning, Margaret vanishes.
Emily bursts into my surgery at lunchtime the next day, face drained of colour. Her prides goneall thats left is raw fear in her eyes.
Auntie Val… Mums gone.
What do you mean, gone? Isnt she at work?
Shes not at the library, its locked up. She didnt come home last night. And…Emily falters, her lips trembleAnd Grans icon is gone.
What icon? I almost drop my pen.
Saint Nicholas. The old one in the silver frame. Gran used to say it protected us in the war. Mum always said, Thats our last loaf, Emily. For the darkest day.
Everything goes cold inside me. I realise what Margarets done. In those years, dealers paid big money for old icons, but it was riskypeople could be cheated, even killed for them. But Margarets so trusting, like a child. Shes gone to town to sell it, so her daughter can get a fashionable dress.
Youve sent her chasing the wind, I whisper. Oh, Emily, what have you done…
Three days pass like hell. Emily moves in with meafraid to sleep in the empty house. She barely eats, just drinks water. Sits on the step, stares towards the road, waiting. Every car engine she hears, she jumps up, runs to the gate. But its always strangers.
Its my fault, she mutters at night, curled up tight.
I killed her with my words. Valerie, if she comes back Ill throw myself at her feet. Just let her come home.
On the fourth day, near evening, the phone rings at the surgery. Sharp, urgent.
I snatch up the receiver.
Hello! Nurses station!
Valerie? says a tired, official-sounding man. Calling from the county hospital. Intensive care.
My legs buckle and I slump into the chair.
What?
A woman arrived here three days ago. No papers. Found at the railway station, heart trouble. Heart attack. Came round briefly, managed to say your village and your name. Margaret Brown. Is she known to you?
Shes alive?! I shout.
For now, but shes critical. Please come straight away.
Getting to the county hospital is a saga in itself. The bus is long gone. I run to the council leader, practically beg on my knees for a car. They give us an old Land Rover, with Pete the driver.
Emily is silent the whole way. She grips the door handle so hard her knuckles are white, staring ahead. Her lips move inaudiblyshes praying, I think, for the first time in her life.
The hospital smells of trouble. Bleach, medicines, and that special silence only found where life and death are locked in battle.
Out comes a young doctor, dark circles under his eyes.
Browns visitor? Only a minute inside, and no tears! She mustnt get upset.
We go in the ward. Machines blinking, tubes snaking. Theres Margaret…
God, they lay her out in the coffin better than this. Her face is grey as ashes, deep shadows under the eyes, small as a child beneath a hospital blanket.
Emily sees her and gasps for air. She collapses to her knees at the bedside, buries her face in the sheet, shoulders shaking, but no sound at all. Shes scared of crying, doctors orders.
Margarets eyelids flutter open. Her gaze swims, hazy. At first she doesnt recognise, then her bruised hand gently moves, rests on Emilys head.
Emily… she whispers, barely louder than leaves rustling. There you are
Mum, Emily chokes, kissing that cold hand. Mum, Im sorry
The money… Margaret trails her finger on the blanket. I sold it for you, darling… Its in my bag. Take it. Buy that dress with sparkles Just how you wanted
Emily lifts her head, stares at her mum, tears rushing down her cheeks.
I dont want a dress, Mum! Do you hear me? I dont want anything! Why did you do it, Mum?! Why?
So youd look beautiful… Margaret smiles weakly. So you wouldnt be less than anyone
I stand by the door, throat tight, cant breathe. Watching them, I realise: this is a mothers love. It doesnt reason or weigh things up. It simply gives everything awaydown to the last drop of blood, the final beat of the heart. Even when the child is foolish, even if they wound you.
The doctor shoos us out after five minutes.
Thats enoughshes got no strength left. Crisis is past, but her heart is weak. Itll be a long recovery.
Then begin the days of waiting. Nearly a month in hospital. Emily visits daily. Schoolwork and exams in the mornings, then hitchhiking to the county town after lunch. She brings broths she cooks herself, grates apples.
The change in her is extraordinary. The arrogance is gone. The house is spotless, vegetable patch weeded. Every evening she checks in with me, responsible as a grownup. Her eyes show it.
You know, Valerie, she says quietly one night, after I shouted I tried the dress on, secretly. Its so soft. Smells of Mums hands. I was an idiotI thought a fancy dress would make me respected. Now I know: if Mum disappeared, no dress in the world would matter.
Margaret recovers, slowly and painfully, but she pulls through. The doctors say its a miracle. I think it was Emilys love that saved her from the brink. They release her home just before prom. Shes still weak, can barely walk, but she wants to be home desperately.
At last, the evening of the prom arrives.
The whole village gathers by the school. Music blares, something from Spandau Ballet on the speakers. Girls stand togethereach in their chosen dress. Helen, in her grand crinoline cake-like dress, stands aloof, nose in the air, turning away boys.
Then the crowd parts. Silence falls.
In walks Emily, leading Margaret by the arm. Margaret is pale, dragging her leg, leaning heavily on her daughter, but smiling.
And Emily My goodness, Ive never seen such beauty.
Shes wearing the curtain dress.
In the light of sunset, the smoky rose colour glows with an unearthly shine. Satin flows perfectly over her figure, modest yet elegant. The shoulders sparkle with beaded lace.
But the real magic isnt the dress. Its how Emily walks. She strides like a queen. Head held high, no trace of the old arrogance. In her eyes is a deep, peaceful strength. She supports her mother so gently, as if carrying crystal. As if to say, Look, this is my Mum. And I am proud of her.
One of the boys, our local joker, Nick, tries to jibe:
Hey, lookhere comes the lass in a curtain!
Emily stops, turns to him slowly. She looks him dead in the eye, calm, steady, almost pitying.
Yes, she says, loud so all hear, my Mum made this with her hands. And for me, this dress is worth more than gold. And if you cant see its beauty, Nick, youre a fool.
The boy blushes and goes silent. And Helen, in her fancy store-bought dress, seems to fade away, pale as paper. Because nobodys clothes make a person beautiful. No, not ever.
Emily barely dances that evening. Mostly, she sits beside her Mum on a bench. She covers Margaret with a shawl, fetches her water, holds her hand. The warmth and tenderness of that touchit brings tears to my eyes. Margaret watches her daughter, her face glowing. She knows it was all worthwhile. The old icon, that miracle-worker, performed its real miraclenot wealth, but saving a soul.
Years have passed since then. Emily moved to London, trained as a heart doctor. Shes a respected specialist, saving lives. Shes brought Margaret to live with her, cares for her as if she were priceless. Theyre inseparable.
And the icon? They say Emily found itsearched antiques shops for years, paid a fortune, but finally bought it back. Now it hangs in their flat, pride of place, the lamp always lit.
Sometimes I look at todays youth and think: how much pain we inflict on those closest, all for someone elses opinion. We stomp our feet, make demands. Yet lifelife is short as a summer night. And your mother is unique. As long as shes here, youre a childher shield against the icy wind of forever. When shes gone, youre alone to face the seven winds.
Treasure your mothers. Call them now, if theyre alive. And if not, just remember them with kindness. Theyll hear you, wherever they are
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