Youre on your own, you know. Best let your sister have the houseits much harder for her nowadays, Mum declared, wielding her mug of tea like the sceptre of all reason. Things are easier for you. Shes got all those children and a full house! Surely you get that.
Why the long face? my sister quipped, plopping down next to me on the sofa, cradling a glass of orange juice. The children buzzed around the coffee table, while her husband animatedly tried to impress their mother-in-law with a tale, punctuating his sentences with a forkful of Victoria sponge.
Im fine, I said, averting my gaze. Just knackered. Work was an absolute shambles today.
She tucked a lock of hair behind her ear and grinned. Been meaning to chat. Its about Dads old house.
Go on.
She edged a bit nearer and dropped her voice to a confidential whisper.
Weve been thinking What do you and your husband need with that house, really? Youre just the two of you, youve got your flat. Meanwhile, were five crammed in a rented two-bed, climbing over each other for air. If we moved inlush garden, fresh air, room for everyone.
I didnt say a word, watching my eldest niece blow out her cake candles. Six already, the ringleader of the household circus.
Honestly, its not like you actually need the place, she continued. Its just a drain for you: leaky roof, wobbly fence, endless repairs.
And how, exactly, will you fix all that? I wondered silently. Still, I bit my tongue.
Mum thinks its sensible too, she added, as though it clinched it all. Were not asking for a hand-outjust give up your half. Well sort the rest out between us.
I nodded, though something twisted uncomfortably inside.
On the drive home, my husband was unusually quiet behind the wheel.
What happened?
They want me to give up my share of Dads house.
As in just hand it over?
Yep. Say they need it more, and weve already got everything.
Everything? he scoffed, bitterly amused. You mean our one-bed palace with the mortgage shackles?
Next day the phone rang. Mum.
Have you thought it over?
Nothing much to think about, Mum. That house is half mine.
Youre always harping on about your rights, she sighed. But what about family, eh? Theyve got three children. Youre just, well, you know
Our flat is on a mortgage for another ten years, Mum.
They dont even have that.
I was the one looking after Dad his last months. Ferrying him to appointments, managing his pills. My dear sister popped by all of twice.
Well, youre the eldest. Ought to understand. Youve got all this freedom.
Freedom. I almost laughed. Or choked.
That evening I nursed a cup of tea at the kitchen table.
Is your mum pushing for it, too? my husband asked.
She is.
Next day, I met a friend for a gossip.
When did your sister last lift a finger to help you? she asked, peering over her cappuccino.
Couldnt think of an answer.
Do they know how much you spent on IVF? she pressed.
No.
Nearly a hundred grand, wasnt it? And still, no luck. Yet they think lifes a breeze for you.
Something in me snapped. I decided to visit the house.
I went alone.
The garden was an overgrown tangle. The gate creaked like a lament. The air was thick with dust and old memories.
I found Dads old ledger, his neat handwriting pencilling out plans for repairs he never managed.
The apple tree in the garden, the one wed planted together when I was a little girl, was still standing.
That house wasnt just bricks and mortar. It was history, memoryhome.
When Mum showed up and declared, Youre on your own, youve got it so much easier
I didnt swallow it this time.
Three rounds of IVF, I said quietly. Three.
For the first time, I managed the words:
The house is mine. I wont give it up.
The silence that followed wasnt emptyit was a relief.
Spring arrived early that year.
Mrs Collins from next door said, He was just waiting for you, you know, love.
And there I sat, on the veranda with my cup of tea, Dads old jumper around my shoulders, looking out at the apple tree.
This was my home.
Not because Id backed down.
But because it was my right.












