“I Had Your Son, But We Don’t Want Anything from You,” the Mistress Called Nick looked at Laura with the eyes of a guilty puppy. — Yes, you heard right. Laura, I had an affair about six months ago. It was just a few casual meetings, nothing serious. And now—she’s had my son. Recently… Laura’s head spun. What a revelation! Her faithful, loving husband—now there’s a child with someone else! It took every ounce of her focus to grasp what he was saying. For several minutes, she tried to process her husband’s words. He sat opposite her, shoulders slumped, hands squeezed between his knees. He looked smaller than usual, as if the air had been sucked out of him. — A son, then,— Laura repeated. — You, a married man, have a new son. Born not to your wife—that is, not to me… — Laura, I honestly didn’t know. I swear. — Didn’t know where babies come from? You’re forty, Nick. — I didn’t know she… that she’d decide to keep it. We broke it off ages ago—she went back to her husband. I thought all was well. Then yesterday, the phone rings. “Nick, you have a son. Seven pounds, healthy.” And she hung up. Laura stood, her legs weak, knees wobbly as if she’d run a marathon. Outside, autumn was howling. She couldn’t help but admire the view—beautiful… — So what now? — Laura asked, not turning around. — I don’t know. — Great answer—from the man of the house. “Don’t know.” She spun on her heel. — Are you going to see them? At the hospital? Frightened, Nick met her gaze ashamedly. — She gave me the hospital address, said discharge is the day after tomorrow. She literally said: “Come if you want; don’t if you don’t. We want nothing from you.” Proud… Doesn’t want a thing… — “Nothing,” — Laura echoed. — Oh, the innocence. The front door banged in the hall—the older boys were home. Laura instantly pasted on a smile. She was good at this—years in business had taught her to keep a poker face even when the deal was crumbling. Her eldest—a tall, broad-shouldered lad of twenty—stuck his head in. — Hey, parents. Why the long faces? Mum, is there food? We’re starving from training. — Leftover dumplings in the fridge—heat them up, — Laura tossed. — Dad, you promised to check my old clunker’s carburettor, — the younger one thumped Nick on the shoulder. Laura watched the scene, heart twisting painfully. They called him Dad. Their real father had faded out of their lives years ago, only sending maintenance payments and occasional cards. Nick had raised them. Taught them to drive, patched up scraped knees, went to parents’ evenings, sorted their troubles. He was their real dad. Nick forced a smile: — I’ll look, Sanjay. Later. Let me finish talking with your mum. The boys left, rattling plates. — They love you, — Laura said softly. — And you… — Laura, don’t. I love them too. They’re my lads. I’m not going anywhere. I told you straight—I was out of my mind. A mistake. With her… it was just… temptation. — Temptation. Which now means nappy changes… Six-year-old Maisy dashed into the kitchen. That broke Laura’s armor. Daughter threw herself into Dad’s lap. — Daddy! Why are you sad? Did Mum tell you off? Nick hugged her, nose buried in her light hair. He lived for her. Laura knew: for Maisy, he’d fight lions. It was wild, unconditional fatherly love. — No, princess. We’re just having a grown-up talk. Go put a cartoon on—I’ll be right there. Once Maisy had run out, silence fell again. — Do you realise everything’s different now? — Laura asked. She sat down at the table. — I’m not leaving, Laura. I love you, I love the kids—I couldn’t do life without you… — That’s just words, Nick. Facts: you’ve got a son now. He’ll need a father. That woman says, “we don’t want anything now.” That’s hormones, elation, maybe a tactical move. Give it a month, six months—the child gets ill, grows up, needs money. She’ll ring. “Nick, he needs a winter coat.” Or “Nick, he needs a doctor.” And you’ll go. You’re just that kind. Honourable. Nick was silent. — And the money, Nick? — Laura lowered her voice—Where will you find it? He flinched—that was the sore spot. His business had collapsed two years earlier; Laura’s money had paid off the debts. Now he worked, hustled, earned, but it was pennies compared to what she brought in. The house, cars, holidays, kids’ education—she paid for all of it. He didn’t even have his own card—all his accounts were frozen by collectors; he used cash or Laura’s linked card. — I’ll find it,— he muttered. — Where? Taxi nights? Or will you raid my bedside drawer to support your love child’s family? Can you see how ridiculous that is? I fund the household and you use my cash to support your mistress’s love child? — She’s not a mistress! — Nick snapped.— It ended six months ago! — But a child binds people more tightly than any marriage licence. Are you going to the discharge? The question hung in the air. Nick rubbed his face. — I don’t know, Laura. Honestly. Human decency… I should. It’s hardly the baby’s fault. — Human decency, — Laura said wryly. — And what about human decency towards me? To Maisy? The boys? You’ll go, hold that bundle. That’s it. You’ll get drawn in. I know you—you’re sentimental. It’ll start once a week, then two, then weekends. You’ll lie—you’re staying late at work. While we all just sit here and wait. Laura got up, ran the tap, watched the water, turned it off. — She’s eight years younger, Nick. Thirty-two. She’s given you a son. Your own. My boys aren’t yours—though you raised them. But this one—your blood. And you think that means nothing? — Don’t talk nonsense. The boys are mine—I raised them. — Oh, come on! Every man wants a ‘proper’ heir. — We’ve got Maisy! — Maisy’s a girl… Nick leapt up. — Enough! Why are you chucking me out before I’ve even left? I said—I’m staying with the family. But I can’t just be heartless. There’s a living person there. Mine, yes. I’ve let you down—let everyone down. If you want—kick me out. I’ll pack and go now. I’ll stay at Mum’s, a mate’s, a bedsit—wherever. But don’t blackmail me! Laura froze, suddenly scared. If she said “go”—he’d go. Proud. Foolish, but proud. He’d end up there, no money, no home—and make a new life as a pauper-hero-emergency father. And that would be the end. And she didn’t want that. For all the hurt she loved him. The kids loved him. It takes seconds to smash things; life to mend them. How to live, afterwards, in a home echoing with his absence? — Sit down, — she said quietly. — Nobody’s kicking you out. Nick lingered a second, then sat. — Laura, forgive me. I’m a fool… — A fool, — she agreed. — But you’re our fool. The evening passed in a blur. Laura did homework with Maisy, checked her work emails, but her mind was elsewhere. She pictured the other woman. What was she like? Pretty, of course. Young. She was probably looking at that baby, thinking she’d won. Nothing needed from us! Of course—the flawless move. Don’t ask or beg, just announce: here’s your son, we’re proud, we’ll cope ourselves. Nothing gets to a man’s pride faster. He instantly wants to play the hero. Nick tossed and turned, slept fitfully. Laura lay awake in the dark. She was forty-five—lovely, polished, successful, but old age wasn’t far off. And that other one—youth… *** By morning it felt worse. Laura couldn’t settle. The boys left, then Maisy suddenly acted up. — Daddy, do my plaits! — she demanded. — Mum does them wonky. Nick took the brush. His big hands—just as good at steering wheels as hammer handles—gently teased the fine hair. He plaited carefully, tongue sticking out with focus. Laura drank her coffee and watched. Here he was. Her husband—real, warm, hers. And somewhere else there was a child who had a claim on him too! How could that be? — Nick,— she said once Maisy had dashed off —We need to settle this. Now. He put the brush down. — I’ve thought all night. — And? — I’m not going to the hospital. Laura felt something inside her tighten, but showed nothing. — Why not? — Because if I go, I’ll give hope—to her, to myself, to the baby. I can’t father two homes. I don’t want to—I don’t want to lie to you, don’t want to steal time from Maisy or the boys. I made my choice eleven years ago. You’re my wife, my family’s here. — And that boy?— Laura was surprised at her own question. — I’ll support him financially. Officially, with child support, or we’ll open an account. But visits—no. Better he grows up not knowing me than waiting for me on weekends. And me—always glancing at my watch, desperate to get home to my real family. It’s fairer. Laura was quiet, twisting her wedding ring. — Are you sure? Won’t you regret it? — I will,— Nick admitted. — Of course I’ll wonder how he’s doing. But if I start going there, I’ll lose you. I know you won’t stand for it. You’re strong, Laura—but not made of stone. You’ll end up hating me—and I can’t bear that. God, I’m explaining terribly… He stood, came behind her, resting his hands on her shoulders. — Laura, I don’t want another life. I have you—the kids. That… that’s the cost of my mistake. I’ll pay with money—only money—not with time, not love, not care. Laura put her hand over his. — You’ll pay? — she managed a wry smile. — I’ll earn it. I’ll make it work. I’ll never take a penny from you for my mistakes. That’s my problem, Laura. Finally, she felt calmer. Yes—maybe he’d hurt her, but these were the words she needed. She was never sharing her husband; she didn’t care about the other woman’s feelings. Had a child with a married man? Her problem, not Laura’s. *** Nick didn’t go to the hospital. The mistress bombarded his phone for weeks—shouting, crying, demanding why he hadn’t come. Nick was upfront: she could expect money, but there’d be no meetings. The calls stopped, and for the next six months she disappeared—her number unreachable. And that suited Laura just fine.

Ive given birth to your son, but we want nothing from you, said the voice down the phonea lovers voice.

Tom looked at Laura with the eyes of a hound caught in the rain.
Yes, you heard right, he muttered. Laura, half a year ago, there was there was someone else. Not much, just a few meetings, it was only a bit of fun. And shes given birth to my son. Only recently

Laura felt the world reel. What a revelation! Her reliable, loving husband now had a child by another.
It was like walking underwaterher mind could barely grasp his meaning. She stood there, her mind spinning as Tom sat small and sunken on the kitchen chair, hands knotted between his knees, shoulders slumped as though somebody had let the air out of him.

A son, then, Laura repeated. You, a married man, have a son by another woman. And that womanshe isnt your wife, isnt me

Laura, I didnt know. I swear to you.

You didnt know how babies are made? Tom, youre forty.

I didnt know shed decide to go through with it. We split up ages ago. She went back to her husband. I thought I thought that was that. But then yesterday, she calls. You have a son. Eight pounds, healthy. And hung up. Just like that.

Laura rose, legs trembling, knees as soft as if shed just finished a London Marathon.
Outside, autumn blustered against the windows, golden leaves whirling. The scene was so beautiful, she caught her breath despite herself.

So, what now? she asked the landscape, not him.

Ive no idea, Tom replied, voice as thin as morning mist.

Brilliant. The answer of a true man. Head of the household: I dont know.

She wheeled around.

Are you going then? To go look?

Tom flinched, flickering his eyes up to her, guilt radiating off him.

Laura, she left me the address of St. Marys Maternity. Discharge is the day after next. Said, Come if you like, dont if you dont. I want nothing from you. Proud woman. Wants nothing

She wants nothing? Laura echoed flatly. What innocent nonsense.

A slam echoed down the hallthe older kids had come in.
A faint smile flicked onto Lauras face, as if pressed by a switch. Years running her company had taught her to keep up appearances, even when the meeting crashed and burned.

The eldest poked his head into the kitchena tall, broad-shouldered twenty-year-old.

Well, you both look like someone nicked your wallet. Mum, is there any grub? Were famished after footie.

Theres cottage pie in the fridge, warm it up, Laura tossed back.

Dad, you said youd look at the carburettor on the old car. The younger son, a shade smaller, smacked Tom on the shoulder.

Laura took in the scene, her breath sharp and tight in her chest.
They called Tom Dad. Their own father faded into the London fog years ago, now just a cheque and an odd Christmas card.

Tom had raised them. Taught them to drive, patched their knees, met with teachers, sorted playground squabbles. He was their dad, the real kind.

Tom forced a smile.
Ill have a look, Sam. Later. Let me chat with your mum first.

The boys left, plates clanging.

They love you, Laura said softly. And you?

Laura, dont. Tom sighed. Of course I love them. Theyre my lads. Im not going anywhere. I told youmy head was turned. An error. There wasnt anything real there just a he trailed off.

Just a bit of fun, thats left you with nappies to change, Laura retorted.

Then six-year-old Daisy cannoned into the kitchen. Lauras façade crumbled. The little girl scrambled onto her fathers knee.

Daddy! Why so gloomy? Did Mum tell you off?

Tom clung to her, nose buried in the golden crown of her head.
She was everything.

Laura knew: for Daisy, Tom would face lions. Fatherly loveboundless and mad.

No, princess. Just grown-up talk. Go on, get the telly on. Ill be there in a jiffy.

Once Daisy had flown out, silence drifted back in.

Everythings changed, dont you see? Laura murmured, sinking into her chair.

Im not leaving, Tom croaked. I love you. I love the kids. I cant manage without you

Theyre just words, she said. Fact is, you have a son now. He needs you. That womanshe says nothing now. Hormones, pride, or a crafty plan. Give it a month, maybe less. The baby gets poorly, grows, needs new clothes. Shell ring: Tom, weve nothing for winter. Or, Tom, he needs the doctor.

And youll go, because youre kind, and you cant help yourself.

Tom was mute.

And money, Tom? Lauras tone went low. Where will you find it?

He flinchedshed struck that tender, exposed nerve. His business had collapsed two years ago. Lauras earnings kept debts at bay.
He worked, scraped together what he could, nothing like Lauras income.
The home, the cars, the holidays, kids school feesshe kept it afloat. His cards all blocked by creditors; he lived off cash or borrowed Lauras account.

Ill manage, he mumbled.

How? Driving minicabs at night? Or lifting it from my purse to post to your, what, secret family?
Isnt it absurd? I keep our home, and you hand my money to some woman and her love child?

Shes not Tom blurted. It ended half a year ago!

A child has a way of binding people closer than a marriage certificate, Tom.
Are you going to the hospital or not?

The question dangled in the air as Tom rubbed his face with his hands.

I dont know, Laura. Honestly. The human thing would bemaybe I should. The boys done nothing wrong.

What about being human to me? To Daisy? To the lads?
Youll go there, see the bundle, pick him up, and thats it.
Youll be hooked. I know you, Tom: soft touch.
Soon, youll go once a week, then twice, then every weekend.
Youll pretend youre working late.
Well wait.

Laura moved to the sink, let water splash from the tap.
She watched the flow, switched it off.

Shes eight years younger, Tom. Thirty-two. She bore you a son. Your own, your blood. My boys arent yours by blood, though you raised them. But this onehell be yours in flesh and bone.
Dont you think that matters?

Youre talking rubbish, Tom protested. The boystheyre mine. I raised them.

Oh, stop, Laura snapped. Men always want an heir. Their own.

Weve got Daisy!

Daisys a girl

Tom jumped up.

Thats enough! Why rush me out? I said Im staying.
But I cant be cold as stone.
Thats my own child.
Ive failed you, failed everyone.
If you want, Ill go. Ill pack my bags and head to Mums, or on the street.
But dont blackmail me!

Laura went still. Fear pressed her lungs.
If she said go, hed leave.
Proud. Silly, but proud. Off, penniless, homeless, straight to that woman.
Hed be a saviour therea father, maybe poor, but the real deal.
Shed lose him for good.

She didnt want to lose him. Even laced with pain and anger, she loved him. The children loved him.

Sit, she whispered. Nobodys sending you off.

Tom lingered for a trembling breath, then collapsed onto the chair.

Im sorry, Laura. Im an idiot.

You are, she managed, but youre our idiot.

The evening drifted by in a dream-fog.

Laura did times-tables with Daisy, checked company accounts, her mind drifting years away.
The other womanwhat was she like? Pretty, of course. Young, undoubtedly.
Did she stare at her baby, thinking, Ive won?

Nothing wanted from him! Of course, the surest tactic: dont ask, dont ragesimply announce: here, you have a son, were proud, well manage fine.
Any man would want to play the hero then.

Tom tossed and turned, fitful, Laura lay awake, eyes wide, gazing into darkness.
Forty-five, attractive, successfulbut old age hovered just out of sight, while youth stood across the city.

***

Things only worsened in the morning. Laura couldnt collect herself.
The boys wolfed down breakfast, vanished. Daisy, usually angelic, was suddenly contrary.

Dad, plait my hairmum makes it all lopsided!

Tom took the brush; his big hands, so used to tools and steering wheels, gentled Daisys fine hair.
He plaited it with the tip of his tongue poking out grimly.

Laura watched, coffee cooling in her hands.
There he washer husband. Close, solid, theirs.
And somewhere else, another child, his by right, waiting.
How unfair.

Tom, she began, after Daisy darted off to dress. We need to decide. Now.

He set the comb down.

I thought about it all night.

And?

I wont go to the hospital. I cant, Laura.
Something inside Laura squeezed, but her face remained still.

Why?

Because if I do, I give her hope. Ill give hope to the child. Myself, maybe.
I cant be a father with two homes.
I dont want that, Laura. I dont want to lie to you, steal time from Daisy, or the boys.
I made my choice years ago.
You are my wife. This is my family.

And the baby? Laura surprised herself by asking.

Ill provide. Officiallychild support, or a savings account. But visits No.
Let him grow up not knowing me, thats kinder than seeing me weekends, me watching the clock, wishing I was home with you lot.

Thats fairer.

Laura rolled her wedding ring between her fingers.

Are you sure? Wont you regret it?

Probably, Tom said honestly. Ill always wonder what hes like.
But if I start visiting, Ill lose you all.
Youd never put up with it, Laurayoure strong, but not unbreakable.
Youd end up hating me, and I cant bear that.

God, I cant explain properly

He rose, stood behind her chair, his hands heavy and warm on her shoulders.

I dont want another life.
I have you, the children.
That other lot its my debt, my consequence.
Ill pay with money, nothing else. Not with my time, my care, my attention. Not with myself.

Laura laid her hand on his.

With money, you say? she tried to smile.

Ill earn it. Ill work my fingers to the bone.
But not another penny of yours for my mess.
Its my problem, Laura.

And finally, Laura was calm.
Perhaps Tom was unfair, but these were the words shed needed.
She would not share him, she didnt care a jot about the other womans feelings.

Shed got pregnant by a married manher headache.

***

Tom didnt go to the hospital.
The other woman blitzed his phone soon aftershouting, demanding, asking why he hadnt come.
Tom told her straight: she had his financial help, nothing more. No meetings.

She eventually gave up, changed her number, vanished. Months slipped by in hush.

Laura was more than fine with that.

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“I Had Your Son, But We Don’t Want Anything from You,” the Mistress Called Nick looked at Laura with the eyes of a guilty puppy. — Yes, you heard right. Laura, I had an affair about six months ago. It was just a few casual meetings, nothing serious. And now—she’s had my son. Recently… Laura’s head spun. What a revelation! Her faithful, loving husband—now there’s a child with someone else! It took every ounce of her focus to grasp what he was saying. For several minutes, she tried to process her husband’s words. He sat opposite her, shoulders slumped, hands squeezed between his knees. He looked smaller than usual, as if the air had been sucked out of him. — A son, then,— Laura repeated. — You, a married man, have a new son. Born not to your wife—that is, not to me… — Laura, I honestly didn’t know. I swear. — Didn’t know where babies come from? You’re forty, Nick. — I didn’t know she… that she’d decide to keep it. We broke it off ages ago—she went back to her husband. I thought all was well. Then yesterday, the phone rings. “Nick, you have a son. Seven pounds, healthy.” And she hung up. Laura stood, her legs weak, knees wobbly as if she’d run a marathon. Outside, autumn was howling. She couldn’t help but admire the view—beautiful… — So what now? — Laura asked, not turning around. — I don’t know. — Great answer—from the man of the house. “Don’t know.” She spun on her heel. — Are you going to see them? At the hospital? Frightened, Nick met her gaze ashamedly. — She gave me the hospital address, said discharge is the day after tomorrow. She literally said: “Come if you want; don’t if you don’t. We want nothing from you.” Proud… Doesn’t want a thing… — “Nothing,” — Laura echoed. — Oh, the innocence. The front door banged in the hall—the older boys were home. Laura instantly pasted on a smile. She was good at this—years in business had taught her to keep a poker face even when the deal was crumbling. Her eldest—a tall, broad-shouldered lad of twenty—stuck his head in. — Hey, parents. Why the long faces? Mum, is there food? We’re starving from training. — Leftover dumplings in the fridge—heat them up, — Laura tossed. — Dad, you promised to check my old clunker’s carburettor, — the younger one thumped Nick on the shoulder. Laura watched the scene, heart twisting painfully. They called him Dad. Their real father had faded out of their lives years ago, only sending maintenance payments and occasional cards. Nick had raised them. Taught them to drive, patched up scraped knees, went to parents’ evenings, sorted their troubles. He was their real dad. Nick forced a smile: — I’ll look, Sanjay. Later. Let me finish talking with your mum. The boys left, rattling plates. — They love you, — Laura said softly. — And you… — Laura, don’t. I love them too. They’re my lads. I’m not going anywhere. I told you straight—I was out of my mind. A mistake. With her… it was just… temptation. — Temptation. Which now means nappy changes… Six-year-old Maisy dashed into the kitchen. That broke Laura’s armor. Daughter threw herself into Dad’s lap. — Daddy! Why are you sad? Did Mum tell you off? Nick hugged her, nose buried in her light hair. He lived for her. Laura knew: for Maisy, he’d fight lions. It was wild, unconditional fatherly love. — No, princess. We’re just having a grown-up talk. Go put a cartoon on—I’ll be right there. Once Maisy had run out, silence fell again. — Do you realise everything’s different now? — Laura asked. She sat down at the table. — I’m not leaving, Laura. I love you, I love the kids—I couldn’t do life without you… — That’s just words, Nick. Facts: you’ve got a son now. He’ll need a father. That woman says, “we don’t want anything now.” That’s hormones, elation, maybe a tactical move. Give it a month, six months—the child gets ill, grows up, needs money. She’ll ring. “Nick, he needs a winter coat.” Or “Nick, he needs a doctor.” And you’ll go. You’re just that kind. Honourable. Nick was silent. — And the money, Nick? — Laura lowered her voice—Where will you find it? He flinched—that was the sore spot. His business had collapsed two years earlier; Laura’s money had paid off the debts. Now he worked, hustled, earned, but it was pennies compared to what she brought in. The house, cars, holidays, kids’ education—she paid for all of it. He didn’t even have his own card—all his accounts were frozen by collectors; he used cash or Laura’s linked card. — I’ll find it,— he muttered. — Where? Taxi nights? Or will you raid my bedside drawer to support your love child’s family? Can you see how ridiculous that is? I fund the household and you use my cash to support your mistress’s love child? — She’s not a mistress! — Nick snapped.— It ended six months ago! — But a child binds people more tightly than any marriage licence. Are you going to the discharge? The question hung in the air. Nick rubbed his face. — I don’t know, Laura. Honestly. Human decency… I should. It’s hardly the baby’s fault. — Human decency, — Laura said wryly. — And what about human decency towards me? To Maisy? The boys? You’ll go, hold that bundle. That’s it. You’ll get drawn in. I know you—you’re sentimental. It’ll start once a week, then two, then weekends. You’ll lie—you’re staying late at work. While we all just sit here and wait. Laura got up, ran the tap, watched the water, turned it off. — She’s eight years younger, Nick. Thirty-two. She’s given you a son. Your own. My boys aren’t yours—though you raised them. But this one—your blood. And you think that means nothing? — Don’t talk nonsense. The boys are mine—I raised them. — Oh, come on! Every man wants a ‘proper’ heir. — We’ve got Maisy! — Maisy’s a girl… Nick leapt up. — Enough! Why are you chucking me out before I’ve even left? I said—I’m staying with the family. But I can’t just be heartless. There’s a living person there. Mine, yes. I’ve let you down—let everyone down. If you want—kick me out. I’ll pack and go now. I’ll stay at Mum’s, a mate’s, a bedsit—wherever. But don’t blackmail me! Laura froze, suddenly scared. If she said “go”—he’d go. Proud. Foolish, but proud. He’d end up there, no money, no home—and make a new life as a pauper-hero-emergency father. And that would be the end. And she didn’t want that. For all the hurt she loved him. The kids loved him. It takes seconds to smash things; life to mend them. How to live, afterwards, in a home echoing with his absence? — Sit down, — she said quietly. — Nobody’s kicking you out. Nick lingered a second, then sat. — Laura, forgive me. I’m a fool… — A fool, — she agreed. — But you’re our fool. The evening passed in a blur. Laura did homework with Maisy, checked her work emails, but her mind was elsewhere. She pictured the other woman. What was she like? Pretty, of course. Young. She was probably looking at that baby, thinking she’d won. Nothing needed from us! Of course—the flawless move. Don’t ask or beg, just announce: here’s your son, we’re proud, we’ll cope ourselves. Nothing gets to a man’s pride faster. He instantly wants to play the hero. Nick tossed and turned, slept fitfully. Laura lay awake in the dark. She was forty-five—lovely, polished, successful, but old age wasn’t far off. And that other one—youth… *** By morning it felt worse. Laura couldn’t settle. The boys left, then Maisy suddenly acted up. — Daddy, do my plaits! — she demanded. — Mum does them wonky. Nick took the brush. His big hands—just as good at steering wheels as hammer handles—gently teased the fine hair. He plaited carefully, tongue sticking out with focus. Laura drank her coffee and watched. Here he was. Her husband—real, warm, hers. And somewhere else there was a child who had a claim on him too! How could that be? — Nick,— she said once Maisy had dashed off —We need to settle this. Now. He put the brush down. — I’ve thought all night. — And? — I’m not going to the hospital. Laura felt something inside her tighten, but showed nothing. — Why not? — Because if I go, I’ll give hope—to her, to myself, to the baby. I can’t father two homes. I don’t want to—I don’t want to lie to you, don’t want to steal time from Maisy or the boys. I made my choice eleven years ago. You’re my wife, my family’s here. — And that boy?— Laura was surprised at her own question. — I’ll support him financially. Officially, with child support, or we’ll open an account. But visits—no. Better he grows up not knowing me than waiting for me on weekends. And me—always glancing at my watch, desperate to get home to my real family. It’s fairer. Laura was quiet, twisting her wedding ring. — Are you sure? Won’t you regret it? — I will,— Nick admitted. — Of course I’ll wonder how he’s doing. But if I start going there, I’ll lose you. I know you won’t stand for it. You’re strong, Laura—but not made of stone. You’ll end up hating me—and I can’t bear that. God, I’m explaining terribly… He stood, came behind her, resting his hands on her shoulders. — Laura, I don’t want another life. I have you—the kids. That… that’s the cost of my mistake. I’ll pay with money—only money—not with time, not love, not care. Laura put her hand over his. — You’ll pay? — she managed a wry smile. — I’ll earn it. I’ll make it work. I’ll never take a penny from you for my mistakes. That’s my problem, Laura. Finally, she felt calmer. Yes—maybe he’d hurt her, but these were the words she needed. She was never sharing her husband; she didn’t care about the other woman’s feelings. Had a child with a married man? Her problem, not Laura’s. *** Nick didn’t go to the hospital. The mistress bombarded his phone for weeks—shouting, crying, demanding why he hadn’t come. Nick was upfront: she could expect money, but there’d be no meetings. The calls stopped, and for the next six months she disappeared—her number unreachable. And that suited Laura just fine.