Right to Happiness: I Fell in Love at 50, but a Serious Fear Appeared
When love strikes unexpectedly
I never imagined I could fall so deeply in love at 50.
I had been married, raised two children, and welcomed grandchildren. Life seemed to be following its ordinary course, and I expected nothing grand from it anymore.
But fate had other plans.
I wasn’t looking for love; it found me.
And it turned out to be the strongest, most vivid, and most heart-wrenching feeling of my life.
As if I’m 20 Again
Many say that mature people love differently.
That’s not true.
It’s the same butterflies in the stomach, the same racing heartbeat, the same sleepless nights, only now accompanied by fear.
Fear of losing.
When I was 20, I loved recklessly like a child. Now, I thank fate every day for this woman.
Every time I look at her, stroke her hair, kiss her on the temple, hold her hand, I realize:
— Here she is, the love I’ve been waiting for all my life.
But with this happiness came fear.
Her Daughter — My Pain
She was an incredible woman.
Kind, gentle, caring. Strong and wise.
We began living together, and my home was filled with love and light once more.
But over time, I noticed something was troubling her.
She received calls almost daily. The voice on the other end would say the same thing:
— Mum, I need money.
She had a daughter, a second-year university student.
Sounds normal, right?
But the issue was that her daughter had been working for a while and earned a decent salary.
Yet, she continued to drain the last penny from her mother.
There were always expenses for the dormitory, another semester, or a loan from a friend.
I saw how this tore my woman apart from the inside.
She was angry, cried, torn between her duty and the desire to be with me.
I would say:
— Darling, with time, everything will get better. Soon it will be just us.
But I didn’t believe it myself.
I’m Afraid She Might Leave One Day
Sometimes, leaving work, I feared going home.
Feared walking into an empty flat.
Feared seeing her things gone.
I silently howled in pain.
Cried because of love.
Do you understand what that means for a man?
I’m certain, women like her are the kind they write poems about.
What If She Goes Back to Her Daughter?
I don’t know what the future holds.
If one day she says:
— I have to go back.
I would probably fall apart.
Because she is everything a man dreams of at this age.
If you’re reading this, my love, know:
I love you more than life itself.
And if necessary, I’m ready to share you with your daughter.
But please…
Don’t leave me.
Without you, my world would lose its meaning.
