We lived together for more than twenty years. But I have decided to end our marriage. My decision will be understood only by those who have been trying to keep their family together for a long time after their husband’s infidelity. Children, parents, outsiders’ opinions – there are many reasons. However, all patience must come to an end. I was patient too, waiting for my children to grow up, not wanting to deprive them of parental care.
At first, everything was fine with us. We got married while we were still students. Jack turned out to be a caring and kind man. We often visited our parents. My mom and dad loved him like their own.
I dreamed of the moment when I would give birth to his children. But then everything changed. Recently, Jack stopped caring about his family, he thought only about himself. He had women on the side, came home late, cheated. When my son and daughter turned eighteen, I realized that there was nothing holding me back. So at one point I decided to put an end to it.
I decided to get a divorce, and my husband didn’t really resist. He immediately packed his things and went to his mistress. I got the peace of mind I had been looking for when I got the divorce papers in my hands. Two years later, my husband reminded me of himself. He had fallen ill, so he could no longer work fully and needed constant care. It seems that his mistress did not count on this at all, so she sent him back.
I couldn’t refuse him. After all, he had no one else but me. So I helped him, you could say I came out to him. However, I could not forgive him. Betrayal is the worst thing that can happen in a family. It has always been a mystery to me why people cheat. What motivates men to find mistresses. Children feel sorry for their father. They want us to be together. But my son and daughter don’t think that in a little while they will go to school, and I will have to live with a man who cheats on me. I’ve been waiting for this moment for so long. And now? Even if my husband changes, I don’t want to be with him anymore. He has changed a bit, he eats well, he lives in a family. The children love their dad, but what about me? Not long ago I decided to cut him out of my life, so why should I tolerate him now?
For some reason, I remembered our acquaintance, the first years of our family life together. I think he was already seeing women on the side. At first, I loved my husband too much and didn’t notice it. It is probably impossible to change him. But what can I do with the remorse that does not allow me to leave him now?
